Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
still not breathing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32
I had another dream about Rob last night.
Monday, April 27, 2009
I don't have much to say today.
I'm having a "Love" day.
It's a term from "A Life Extraordinary" FanFic
(great FF...highly recommend it)
It's sort of a day where your feelings of love for someone are so intense...
Your passion is so overwhelming...
That you can't think of anything else. Anyone else.
You are consumed by your emotions for that person.
You can't get close enough. You can never be satisfied...
So...Yeah. I'm having a "Love" day for Robert Pattinson.
I wish it was something I could control...
But, alas... my heart doesn't listen to me.
It mocks me... teases me.
I wanted to post Trixie's FANTASTIC video "Bad Things"
It is one of the BEST Rob videos out there. Sincerely.
Great pictures... Beautiful videos... Perfect song.
Excellent. Brilliant. Perfection.
I can watch it over and over again. And I do.
Bye for now ♥
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I would always love this fragile human girl,
for the rest of my limitless existence.
I gazed at her unconscious face,
feeling this love for her
settle into every portion of my stone body.
Edward Cullen, Midnight Sun, Chapter 5, p. 109
I'm all about Edward today.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
this was a voice I would know anywhere—
know, and respond to,
whether I was awake or asleep…
or even dead, I'd bet.
The voice I'd walk through fire for—
or, less dramatically,
slosh every day through the cold and endless rain for.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.4
More GQ outtakes.
Everytime I look at these pictures...
I can't get over how
Oh Lord... his eyes.
I had some stuff rolling around in my head...
silly, inane bullshit for the most part.
1. Robert Pattinson
He's always in my head.
As much as I try to get away from him...
I know it's impossible.
I don't even seem to be able to have
a rational response to all the pictures
and videos that are released on a daily basis.
I'm beyond connecting my thoughts
to any form of coherent communication.
2. The rumors.
The rumors are rampant about Nikki/Rob
And it only goes to show that people
will believe whatever suits them.
One gossip site claims that
Rob/Kristen are totally together.
That Nikki is just a leech trying to
capitalize on her friendship with both of them.
Another gossip site...
claims SOURCES are saying
that Nikki/Rob are friends with 'benefits'
and that the studio
is trying to curtail photo ops
Because the "Twi-hards"
couldn't handle her and her boyfriend.
I'm incredibly sick of all the bullshit.
While I might like to speculate on Robs love-life...
I find all the lies and innuendo
Every move gets analyzed.
3. Creepy stalking fans.
All these pictures show up online...
Showing 'fans' who just 'happen'
to bump into the cast...
Why is it that it looks like its the same
We aren't just talking Vancouver.
these scary creepy chicks
show up EVERYwhere.
I think Rob and the cast
need a restraining order against these stalkers.
I'm scared for Rob.
Lunatics like that...
obviously don't know boundaries...
or don't care.
Back the fuck off.
4. Robert Pattinson.
I can sometimes go for a while...
without thinking about him.
A few stolen moments...
here and there.
When my life intrudes on my fantasy.
But there is always something...
to bring my thoughts back to Rob.
Everything comes back to Rob.
6 degrees of Robert Pattinson.
but its more like...
It never fluctuates much farther.
Bye for now ♥
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar
She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost
She was the woman that I wanted the most
As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand
I said 'Lay me down easy let me understand'
Let me sign, let sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.
I was out driving today.
Doing the things that I do.
And, of course...
I was listening to track 10.
You know what I am talking about...don't you?
I listen to track 10 extremely loud.
Because I want to hear every strum of the guitar...
His every word...
that he sings with that voice...
that voice that just fills me up.
it touches every part of me.
But his guitar...
the way his fingers hit the strings
the way they can make me feel...
So much emotion in his guitar playing.
So much of himself.
One of the reasons I love his music so much
is how intimate it is.
How I can actually feel close to him...
when he is sharing his song...
And Van Morrison's
"I'll be your lover, too"
Hands down my favorite song that Rob sings.
What is it about his voice...
that it just burrows deep into my soul...
twisting and turning
painful, yet glorious.
Color of my dream
A dream that's daily coming true.
And ohhh when the day is through
I will come to you and tell you of
Your many charms
It's best to listen to
Rob sing with headphones on...
Where you can catch his breath
and hear him laugh quietly...
Feel the anguish
The despair...The passion.
Feel the music.
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
So hold off
She should hold off
It's the one thing that I've known
Once I put my coat on
I coming out in this all wrong
She standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I'm in love
I'm in love
Bye For Now ♥
Monday, April 20, 2009
For if I ever saw you...
I didn't catch your name.
But it never really mattered...
I will always feel the same.
Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart.
Love you whenever we're together...
Love you when we're apart.
Sing it loud so I can hear you...
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.71
Thursday, April 16, 2009
"Edward and I had been together too long now
to be an object of gossip anymore."
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.12
I hear them whisper, you wont believe it
They think were lovers kept under covers
I just ignore it, but they keep saying
We laugh just a little too loud
We stand just a little too close
We stare just a little too long
Maybe they're seeing, something we don't, darlin
You'd act so nervous, could you be falling for me?
It took a rumor to make me wonder
Now I'm convinced I'm going under
Thinking bout you every day
Dreaming bout you every night
Hoping that you feel the same way
Now that we know it, lets really show it, darlin
Bye for now
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
The point I'm trying to make here is this...
She has done...
what I wish *I* could do.
She got a chance to not only meet Rob...
but she got to talk to him...
and he listened.
And he looked at her
and answered her questions.
And he remembered her name...
and touched her shoulder...
and he was so Rob....
being all charming and sweet...
And Holly and Rob had an actual
Outside of the time involved
(well, yeah...I would want more than a few minutes)
That is my dream.
I know I could easily hate Holly...
Knowing what I know...
about her doing what she did...
But I don't.
I admire her.
Not only because she met Rob..
but because she was thoughtful
and considerate of him...
and asked him intelligent questions.
But she also kept her word.
She promised not to publish
the picture of her and Rob.
And she didn't.
Thank you, Holly.
For doing the right thing.
For taking care of Robert.
For treating Rob...
like he deserves to be treated.
Bye for now
I did not struggle to forget.
I worried—late in the night,
when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation
broke down my defenses—
that it was all slipping away.
That my mind was a sieve,
and I would someday not be able to remember
the precise color of his eyes,
the feel of his cool skin,
or the texture of his voice.
I could not think of them,
but I must remember them.
Because there was just one thing
that I had to believe to be able to live—
I had to know that he existed.
That was all.
Everything else I could endure.
So long as he existed.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116
Monday, April 13, 2009
"I folded the letter carefully,
and sealed it in the envelope.
Eventually he would find it.
I only hoped he would understand,
and listen to me just this once.
And then I carefully sealed away my heart."
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.432