This is insane. Truly insane. I just watched the movie clip that they showed in Rome...for the upteenth time. And everytime, when it gets to the end with "Bella's Lullabye"...I feel like I'm about to cry. Yes, Robert Pattinson at the piano is beautiful beyond measure. And the song was wonderful. I guess knowing that he is actually playing the song in the movie...affected me. Big time. There was SO much Rob yesterday...and I tried like hell to take it all in. He was in Rome for a movie festival, so there was a press conference, a red carpet...and there I was watching it on choppy, frustrating video feed, hoping to get more glimpses of Robert. And then the "Empire Magazine Shoot"...OH MY GOD. That is one of my favorite videos thus far. Watching Robert stare at Kristen...watching Kristen steal a glance at Robert (and honestly, who can blame her for wanting to stare at him?). The sexual tension... the CHEMISTRY between them is so obvious. Yes, I saw Kristens BF get out of the car with her in Rome...but seriously...does he even stand a chance? Nope. After watching how Robert and Kristen interact with each other...looking for each other...watching for each other...feeling obvious comfort being next to each other...I say its only a matter of time. In almost every picture that they took together...she leaned into him. So intimate. Sometimes I forget how very young Kristen really is. She is only 18. But she seems mature beyond that...You can tell how uncomfortable doing interviews is for her, because she has a hard time verbalizing what she wants to say. She makes faces...stammers...looks to Rob...

Anyway. Yesterday was VERY emotional for me. Getting all teary eyed at a clip (and not a very good quality clip...but it will suffice for now)...gazing endlessly at Robert...It makes my stomach...hurt. This is ridiculous. This adoration I have for Robert (and yes, Edward. It's the truth, after all) is out of control.

I can only imagine what seeing the actual movie will do to me. I'm kinda scared how I will react.

Lord Help Me.

Chemistry

A picture of Rob from last night. Mother of God.

OK.

I wanted to talk about chemistry. As in on screen chemistry. As in Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. They have it. And better yet, they have it off screen as well. I think it is so obvious that there was a little sumthin sumthin going on between these two...beyond Edward and Bella. I have watched all the videos of the two of them...and they are just so INTIMATE with each other. The way they look at one another...the way Kristen touches Roberts face (and that, my friends, is intimate), the way they couldn't keep their eyes off of each other at Comic Con...their body language on and off screen. But especially off screen, because they are always touching...always close.

Now, I know that they are supposed to be dating other people or whatever. But there is definitely something there. I don't care what anyone says. And if they get right back into making "New Moon" (oh please Lord) they will get right back into their chemisty.

OK. I'm just looking at Rob's face again. Did I even suggest in a previous post that he wasn't as sexy as in previous pictures? Did I???? Well...I WAS WRONG. He's dead sexy. And I need a drink of water. Or a shot. What was that shot that someone (I think it was Jewels) was talking about in a post...ULTIMATE ORGASM. Yes. That's what I need right now. YES.

Rob Explosion

Good grief. Just when I think I have my addiction under control...the cravings are managable....

BOOM! POW! BANG!

Robert is everywhere.

A couple of more new 'trailers' have come out the last couple of days. But my absolute favorite...is the 'Theories" one from MSN. It's an actual scene from the movie, and not just voice overs and clips. How in the world did Robert figure out the 'velvet' voice of Edward? How? I mean...the opening scene...she drops the apple...he kicks it up into his hands (the Twilight cover shot) and says "Bella". That's all he says. Bella. And I melted into a puddle of goo. Kristen Stewart is a better actress than I ever knew, if she can be with him, kiss him...be THAT close to him all the time...and not just JUMP that boy.

ACK!

Robert also won some movie/actor award (sorry for not knowing the exact name...) and the pictures of him are a bit more subdued than recent past. His hair isn't as enormously sexy and huge as usual, and he even dressed up. Ok, he wore a suit...and it wasn't all wrinkled and it looked like it fit him...but lets face it, his hair was still a mess...and he wasn't even close to clean shaven. That's our Rob. He still looked beautiful, didn't he? Yes. Yes he did.

All I find myself doing is watching and rewatching the video clips...the interviews...because now I'm so damn anxious to see this damn movie. I can only imagine what will be coming at me in the weeks leading up to its release. I can take it...that much I am sure of...but it only seems to make me hunger even more for Robert/Edward. I keep forgetting to breathe...

Sunday morning rant.

Sometimes I wish I could just sit and stare at Robert Pattinson all day long. And listen to his voice. And watch him smile, or pull his fingers through his hair. But alas...it's hard to do when you have a 'so-called' life.

Anyway.

God. Just looking at this picture. It almost makes me cry. And that makes me feel so silly. Want to hear something else ridiculous? Every time...EVERY TIME I watch the movie trailer...and it come to the end where Edward is leaning into the car, looking at Bella...and says...

"You ARE my life now".

I tear up. I do. Robert says it with such passion...such conviction.

UGH.

I'm too old for this shit. I really am. And yet, I absolutely cannot get enough of Robert Pattinson. I am so bewildered by this obsession. It's mind boggling.

OK.

What I really wanted to talk about this morning was why I adore Robert Pattinson so much. I am trying to figure out this burning need to see him countless times a day....OK.

1. He's drop dead dreamy. That truly goes without saying, but sometimes you have to state the obvious first. I mean...the hair...the eyes...the jawline...the smile...the whole package. Oh yeah, and his voice. GOD his voice. I'm a sucker for British accents...but even Rob's voice with no accent is beyond measure.

2. He's not a pretty boy. Yes, he is gorgeous, but he doesn't TRY to be gorgeous. Well, he doesn't have to try. But he goes out in public with wrinkled, ill fitting clothes...sometimes more than a day at a time...and his hair isn't styled and his clothes aren't designer. He doesn't CARE. He doesn't shave most of the time and admits to not washing his hair. But who looks better than he does? NO ONE. He's all the more beautiful because its effortless, and because he stays true to himself.

3. His face. Again...goes without saying..but I'm talking about how his face shows his emotions, especially when he is acting. The clip from "Twilight" when he is in the bedroom with Bella...and he reaches for her...the pain...the struggle to be gentle...to touch her...is so evident on his face. He's going to be a great actor. I can't wait.

4. He's so down to earth. At least so far. He truly seems so surprised that people adore him. And yes...while much of the adoration is connected to the character of Edward...He still seems to want to please his fans. To make them happy by signing endless autographs...being available for Q&As. The bigger he gets, the more that might stop existing...and thats too bad.

5. Did I say how beautiful he is???

6. His smile...his laugh. He really seems like someone that would just be fun to hang out with. He seems like someone who could make you laugh while you share a few drinks...

7. Ok, I guess thats enough of a rant for today. Maybe. I may be back. :)