Happy Birthday Kristen Stewart!💕

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTEN!

 Yes, you know it must be a special day

When I dust off the ol’ blog 

To write a post…

This was always one of my favorite pictures of Kristen.

She’s just so naturally gorgeous

And these last couple of years 

She has really embraced

How incredible she truly is.

I mean…

LOOK at her!

Sassy

Sexy

Stunning

The older she gets the more beautiful

she becomes.

Kristen has had a helluva year

Hasn't she?

Critically acclaimed performance

In “Spencer”

Nominated for an ACADEMY AWARD!

We got to see interviews 

And photoshoots

Lots and lots of promo

and it was wonderful.

Personally…

I loved “Spencer”

Kristen was mesmerizing as Diana.

She deserved every bit of praise

All the accolades…

All the awards.

And I will be perfectly honest here…

There was smug satisfaction

that all those ‘haters’ out there

Who said that Kristen was finished in Hollywood…

And tried to destroy her and her career

Had to swallow a bitter pill.

(Because KSIBTU)

 But enough of that…

(Hehehe)

Kristen has been positively GLOWING with happiness.

Her career is on fire

and she’s in love and engaged to be married.

I hope she’s having the birthday she deserves…

But I’m pretty sure she is.

HAPPY 

BIRTHDAY

KRISTEN!

Until next time

Bye for now🌹

Happy Birthday Kristen Stewart!

“The public kind of burned me at the stake.

 But that's OK, I can take it.

 I'm not dead.”

I completely adore Kristen Stewart.

I have for a very long time.

I could list a myriad of reasons

But the basic one I always come back to

is there is something about her

that I can relate to...

And in 12 years

That hasn’t changed.

Happy Birthday Kristen!

I hope you have love and laughter

Today

And every day.

Until next time.

Bye for now

🌹

A Couple of Things...

Hello dear reader.

Are you still there?

I am!

I know its been almost a year since the last time

I wrote in here...

but to be fair

We have been going through a global pandemic.

And we did just get rid of the worst president

that this country has ever seen

(yes, my opinion... as always)

So if you are still, indeed, a dear reader...

Thank you.

I'm in a better place now

I hope you are too.

There does seem to be a light

at the end of the tunnel.

Things seem brighter

And getting better all the time...

(couldn't get much worse)

I had a shitty year.

I lost 2 people who were very close to me

within 3 months of each other.

But then again,

compared to other people

I'm doing OK.

I have my health.

I haven't had financial hardships.

My family and friends are doing pretty good.

I'm still here.

I’m still standing.

So that leads me to this blog

and why I decided after a horrible year

and almost a year of absence...

Why I decided to write again.

Couple of things.

1. I love to write.

Even though I do it for a living

Writing this blog

Helps me express my feelings

and opinions

and thoughts...

And sort through how I feel

And why I’m feeling it.

I still enjoy writing about 

Robert Pattinson

and

Kristen Stewart.

So here I am.

2. I was going through old emails and texts

that I found on my old laptop...

and WOW.

I mean.

I found shit from 10 years ago.

Was I really so fucking intense?

I mean

seriously, folks.

I was way

WAY

WAY

FUCKING WAY

too invested in the whole Robsten drama.

I didn't even know what "shipping" meant at first.

Really.

But I guess when you love two people together

and get all verklempt and emotional

over every fucking picture and interview...

Well.

I guess that's shipping.

And I was a phenomenal shipper.

I did an exceptional job.

It was glorious fun and joy

watching two people fall in love

and be in love

and like just love... love.

But fucking A.

When those same two people break up?

APOCALYSPE!

End of the WORLD!

“Human sacrifice! Dogs and cats living together! Mass hysteria!”

I was overwrought.

I was upset.

I was...

OVER INVESTED.

Jesus.

I look back at that now and go

"WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?"

Seriously.

You can enjoy people being together.

You can enjoy seeing pictures

You can speculate

and have fun with it

without getting emotional

over two people who truly

don't care what you want or believe.

I can look back now

from the comfort of my 

knowledge and wisdom

(hahahaha)

and see how I got sucked

into the vortex of the fandom.

It was intoxicating

wasn't it?

It was like the giddy fun part 

of being drunk...

Until you wake up the next

morning with a massive headache

and your stomach feeling

like you swallowed dirt.

There comes a time to fucking sober up

you know?

You live

You learn 

If you’re lucky.

3. I still adore Rob and Kristen.

Rob is Batman.

BATfuckingMAN.

I still can’t get over it.

But I love it 

And can’t WAIT to see him all dark and moody

And vengeful...

Kristen is a Princess.

She’s like a chameleon

And she makes every role she plays

fascinating and thought provoking.

“ Someone who just commands the lens 

simply by standing in front of it.”

Way cool.

They still hold s.w.a.y.

over me.

And I'm OK with that

because I still wanna know what is

going on with them.

I’m still following their careers

And I still look forward to every movie they do.

I guess that's what is called...

A FAN

(~ of Both!)

(Couldn’t resist)

Still crazy after all these years.

4. I made a lot of friends here.

Also some enemies along the way.

I don't open myself to people online very often.

I'm cynical.

I'm wary.

And I've been burned.

But...

Reading old emails and texts

made me realize 

how sometimes things got twisted

And I may have gotten carried away

about things that never really mattered

and looking back...

It wasn't worth it.

To whom it may concern

I'm so very sorry.

You know who you are.

OK.

Enough of the weirdly sad nostalgia.

I really am in a good place these days.

I look forward to more Rob and Kristen

in the future.

Let's not forget this guy...

(I haven’t)

Thomas Sturridge

IS DREAM.

You got that right.

Green Sheep.

Forever.

Be Safe.

Be Happy.

Until next time.

🌹

(See ya April 9th!)

I Love Love

Time keeps on slippin', slippin', slippin'

Into the future

Either that or time has just fucking stopped.

You tell me.

I know this isolation/quarantine thingy

is hard for some people.

A lot of people.

So many people have died...

so many are sick

It breaks my heart 

how much pain and suffering 

is going on right now.

And I feel so helpless.

I want to keep thinking that there is a light

at the end of this dark, anxious tunnel.

I want to believe that we will come out

on the other side.

 I do have faith.

I believe that although

there are some people 

who are inherently stupid and selfish...

That the majority are good and kind

and that we will prevail.

OK.

So that brings me to this post.

Yeah.

2 posts in a few days?

I must have time on my hands!

Since I'm feeling particularly nostalgic right now

Since I'm longing for the days

when laughter and light

filled my timeline...

I thought I would bring up 

some of my favorite 

Robert/Kristen pictures.

I mean...

Do you remember how you felt

when you saw these pictures?

And if you were like me

(A very Robstenny Robsten fan)

These pictures brought you

smiles and happiness.

Because yeah...

I love LOVE.

And watching 2 people

fall in love

against all the odds

of being in the eye

of a fucking hurricane...

or tornado.

Or both combined, even.

They still managed to find love.

And that made me happy

and if you're reading this...

It probably made you happy, too.

Ahhhh....

This one kinda started it all.

Damn.

I still remember the furor

surrounding this picture.

Rob and Kristen holding hands.

This really was the first public

acknowledgment 

that Rob and Kristen

were TOGETHER.

It was glorious.

So close.

So very very close

And so happy.

This whole time

was incredible.

 Ok.

This was always one of my very favorites.

Kristen was filming "On The Road"

Rob came to visit her on set...

And I honestly don't know

if I have ever seen Rob so happy

to be in her presence.

Man, I love this picture.

It still makes me smile.

Big time.

The pictures that broke the fandom.

There really was no getting away

from the fact that

Rob and Kristen

were together and in love...

Rob at Cannes.

(Don't ask me for details...

I'm going on memory at this point.)

Kristen was there supporting him

After his movie played for the audience...

Who did he seek out?

Kristen.

Never underestimate

how important they were to each other.

For some reason

when I look at these pictures

2 thoughts come to mind.

1. Kinda cringeworthy

in their invasiveness

2. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

They still make me chuckle.

Giggle.

Laugh.

Oh man.

Rob still loved Kristen...

Even after all the drama.

Even after all the bullshit.

He still wanted to be with her.

Still.

Love is fucking long.

Ok.

Enough for now.

And...

For the record

I KNOW

that Rob and Kristen

have both moved on 

to other relationships

and its been years 

since this all happened.

But I don't care!

I can still enjoy what was...

I can still sigh

and smile

at all the good times

this fandom shared.

And they were GOOD TIMES.

I can be nostalgic

and remember the gloriousness of

Rob and Kristen.

And what coulda been...

Maybe.

Who knows.

Different times.

Different circumstances.

Random thoughts...

1. Rob and Kristen had an intense

relationship for years.

Can you imagine?

Burned hot.

Until it burned out.

2. Rob and Kristen

don't hate each other.

They still talk about each other

(to each other?)

with kindness and affection.

And doesn't that tell

you something?

3. I wanted to just say...

I still adore

Tom Sturridge.

That will NEVER change.

Please be safe.

Please be healthy.

Please be happy.

And so it goes

Until next time.

Bye for now

🌹