Rob and Kristen-- What a Fool Believes...

I started this blog to figure out my feelings

about Robert Pattinson.

Writing has always been a form of therapy for me...

Cathartic.

Soothing.

I've needed it this past week.

There is a lot of speculation right now.

There are a lot of 'insiders' giving tabloids the scoop.

There are a lot of lies and whispers.

There is a lot of bullshit.

99% of it is what you think you know.

Because everything else is shit.

If Rob and/or Kristen

(and that includes Nick, Steph, Ruth or their immediate family)

haven't said it...

Then its all theories and guessing.

and what have we heard from any of them?

What We Actually Know.

1. Creepy pics of gross director with his arms around Kristen

and kissing her in her car.

2. Kristen's apology to everyone she hurt...

and her desperate love for Rob.

That's it.

What We Think We Know.

1. Pics of U-Haul truck seen at Los Feliz home.

Logically we can assume someone moved out.

No one is seen.

No statement is made.

Logically...

Who would want to stay in a home with

a zillion paparazzi camped outside your door?

That's about it.

What A Fool Believes.

1. Everything else.

That goes for any 'source' who claims to be close

to either Rob or Kristen but is yet spilling to Gossip Cop

or some other media outlet.

No one who loves and cares about Rob and Kristen

are sharing their pain with gossip rags.

Everything else is assumption and speculation.

And please stop fucking trying to blame Rob for this.

People are out of fucking control.

What I Believe.

1. People on twitter continue to mourn this situation.

I know everyone grieves differently.

And hey... to each their own.

I'm not telling anyone how to feel.

I'm just telling you how I feel.

I don't wallow in grief.

I'm tired of being sad.

I'm broken heart/sad faced out.

I prefer hope.

I have faith in forgiveness.

That's not me saying I think

Rob and Kristen getting back together is a done deal.

I don't.

I don't offer false hope.

But this is me accepting the possibility that 

they can find their way back to each other.

2. Rob and Kristen love each other.

My Opinion.

That kind of love doesn't go away overnight.

And they will figure this out...

What's best for them.

Whether it's together or apart.

I just want them to be happy.

What I Know.

1. I know that a lot of people I thought I knew

really disappointed me.

So quick to throw Kristen away.

So many who only pretended to be her fan...

have now come out full force in hating her.

I hope you feel better bashing her now...

You feel justified somehow... right?

Like you KNEW all along she was bad for Rob?

You still don't matter.

And guess what?

Kristen STILL owns you.

You can't stop talking about her.

Obsessing over her.

Enjoy your foaming...

because it's still bitter 

and no matter what happens to Rob and Kristen

It won't change your sad life.

2. People have asked me if I will continue to write my blog.

I'm still intoxicated with Robert Pattinson...

So yes.

As long as he gives me this...

And this...

Oh... and this...

I'm in for the long haul.

I'm not going anywhere.

(Sorry if that disappoints you)

I just want Robert to be OK.

I just want to see him laugh again.

I just want him to be happy.

And I want the same for Kristen.

And that is where I will leave this topic.

I'm done with it for now.

So many people have said so many things...

(Have you ever seen SO many Twitlongers?)

And I don't need to add to the dark cloud

hanging over this fandom.

Sometimes you just have to know when to let it go.

It's like a bloody sore.

We keep picking at it...

Scratching it.

Sometimes without really knowing we are doing it.

But its not helping.

Every time it starts to scab up...

something comes along to rip it off

and we are right back to the bloody sore.

It hurts.

I know.

But it won't get better if we don't leave it alone.

We need to give it time to heal.

Final Thought.

OK...  I will admit I'm not over it.

But I'm getting better all the time

(Can't get much worse)

And yes... that is part of a Beatles song.

In the past...

When I have gone through bad times...

I have often turned to the Beatles music to make me feel better.

And they have never let me down.

Now there are a number of love songs (And I Love Her)

hopeful songs (We Can Work It Out)

cheering up songs (Hey Jude)

But one of my favorite songs...

seems to fit this moment.

At least for me.

I Will.

Who knows how long I've loved you

You know I love you still

Will I wait a lonely lifetime?

If you want me to I will

For if I ever saw you

I didn't catch your name

But it never really mattered

I will always feel the same

Love you forever and forever

Love you with all my heart

Love you whenever we're together

Love you when we're apart

And when at last I find you

Your song will fill the air

Sing it loud so I can hear you

Make it easy to be near you

For the things you do endear you to me

Oh, you know I will, I will

And just to leave on the same note I came in on.

I adore Shaggy and Scrappy.

They always make me smile.

This post is brought to you by the Letter S.

You know why.

I adore you, Thomas Sturridge.

Until next time.

Bye for now

And the beat goes on...

The Nonstens Grimm Fairy Tales

What to say.

1. I could talk about how the excuses concerning Rob and Kristen
being together are still flying fast and furious.
The pictures don't need defending.
None of them do.
There is no need to have the last word as far as
Robert and Kristen are concerned.
IT IS WHAT IT IS.
Robert and Kristen are together.
They have been for a while now.
Picture after picture comes out...
Showing them cuddling at concerts...
Legs wrapped around each other in limos...
Sharing a hotel balcony...
Saying goodbye before Rob goes to NYC...
Hanging out backstage at concerts...
Holding hands in Paris...
Showing up together...
After weeks and weeks of hiding...
in the UK.
Really?
Why even bother debating this?
The haters have to grasp onto something...
anything...
to deny Rob and Kristen.
Let them.
Truth is truth.

2. The "Eclipse" script was supposedly leaked.
It had JACKSON RATHBONE in bold letters on every page.
Is it real? Who knows.
Does it really matter? Not really.
And I don't get the whole "Don't Spoil It For Me" stuff...
Have you read the book?
Then you know what's in the script.
Eclipse has always been my favorite book...
And I can't wait to see this movie.
And I hope I'm in NYC when I do.

3. People send me 'Nonsten' stuff all the time.
Personally, I have stopped going to other sites
and reading the negative bullshit.
But when it is sent to me, I read it...
My first reaction of course, is to laugh.
The rationalizations some people come up with.
They should write Fairy Tales...
Hans Nonsten Andersen.
The Nonstens Grimm (That one fits... yes?)
And I really don't give a shit if someone
believes in Rob/Kristen...
Because I do.
But what does irritate me is when they
feel the need to constantly trash Kristen.
I mean... they fucking tear her apart.
They take every word she has said...
Twist it and turn it to suit their perverted needs..
and you wonder why she doesn't want to talk
about her relationship with Robert?
WHY SHOULD SHE?
It doesn't matter what she says.

She is trying to keep something.
She doesn't owe us anything.
You don't have to like Kristen Stewart.
But to vilify and hate her so strongly?
That's just fucking wrong.
And you know it.

4. I realize that I have talked about some
of these topics before...
and I will undoubtedly discuss them again.
That's what happens during a Rob Drought.
You reminisce...
You daydream...
You talk about whatever comes to mind.
And theres only so much I can say
about the fairy tales and fables
that The Nonstens Grimm can come up with.
I mean...
It makes for interesting reading...
At first.
But all their fables seem to have the same ending...
And that gets pretty boring and tedious.
No imagination.
No creativity...
and no originality.
I suppose they make for good bedtime stories...
Because they can really put you to sleep.

5. Bye for now.