Couple of Things...

Yeah... I'm still around.

Maybe not as much as I used to be...
life has been exceedingly busy as of late

But still reading.

Still seeing.

Still getting DMs.

Ha.

The thing is..

This fandom is kinda like a corny soap opera.

You really don't have to check in and watch it every day

to know what's happening.

All you need to do is peek in one or two days a week

and you're all caught up.

Easy.

Peasy.

Not that there is even that much to catch up on.

Well sure...

Kristen's career is on fucking fire.

(burn baby burn)

So that is always lots of fun to keep up with.

But as far as the fanDUMB is concerned...

It's pretty much 

Same shit

Different day.

It's like some people are on a perpetual 

merry-go-round

They just kinda say the same things

day after day...

and they actually think they are getting somewhere

that what they are saying...

means something.

But alas.

Tis not to be.

All they are doing is going around in circles...

arguing the same bullshit

spewing the same lies.

And never fucking going anywhere.

How sad for them.

But they deserve every miserable

moment they get.

And you KNOW they are miserable.

1. Like I said...

Kristen is on fucking fire.

White Hot.

She was all over the place recently...

and as I'm not a 'fan' blog

(never tried to be one)

I will touch on the things I found interesting.

EQUALS L.A. premiere was July 7th

Lovely.

And being next to Nicholas?

Lovelier.

Does that look right to you?

Lovelier?

Hmmmm...

How about Loveliest.

Yeah.

That looks good.

So do they.

It's obvious to even a casual observer

that Kristen and Nic are close friends.

The comfort and intimacy they share

is nice to see.

No.

I don't SHIP them.

Good Lord.

But I do love seeing them together

and like seeing how they support each other

and how easily they laugh

and are in sync.

So there.

2. Kristen also had a premiere

for Cafe Society.

Rave reviews for this sweet beautiful girl.
LOVE.
IT.

3. Rob turned up in Utah
on a super secret movie.
HUH?
How the hell did he pull that off?
Impressive.
I kinda like when they can make a movie
without the whole fandom watching
every move they make.
Kinda cool.

He looks pretty OK here.
And it turns out it may be a comedy.
Seriously.
Rob in a comedy?
Bring it to me NOW.

4. That brings me to this next thought...

Why are fans so fucking defensive all the time?
You know...
It's OK to not like what someone is wearing...
or their hair
Or maybe you don't agree with what they said.
SO WHAT.
It's not the end of the damn world.
In the past...
I've gotten attacked for saying something as simple as
"Rob looks skinny"
That's all I said.
And the locusts descended on me
like I said something horrible.
What.The.Fuck.
It's not that serious.
Really.

Another example...

This portion of a Twitter conversation
(which I believe was from 2015)
has been thrown in my face twice.
Why?
Well... because this is the worst thing they
could find that I've said about Rob.
And believe you me...
You KNOW they fucking went as far back
as possible to try and find something.
Thing is?
All I said was
"Not my style. But it appears to be Robs."

AND?
So what?
PDA isn't my style.
Never was.
 I'm talking about ME... personally.
And honestly?
I don't give a fuck if Rob or Kristen
or anyone else wants to kiss or hold hands
or whatever they want to do.
Yet...
Asshats keep trying to make this tidbit of a
conversation mean something.
Well guess what?
People change.
If you don't think Kristen or Rob
have changed over the last 3 years
you are an idiot.
Of course they have!
Haven't you?
 I mean...
haven't you changed your mind on some things...
perhaps found new people/places/things to enjoy?
Rob and Kristen are human beings.
They grow.
They change.
Just like everyone else.
Who the hell would want to remain stagnant
and unchanging year after year?


5. Stagnant and living in the past
brings me to my next thought...
The resident fandom crazies...
HKN and the Baby Cult.
Still wallowing in 2009.
Yeah...
Every fandom has that scary group that
embarrasses them all over social media
that has wild conspiracy theories
and will never accept reality.
And I know that some people would rather
just ignore them and pretend they didn't exist.
But I can't.

It would be one thing if these silly shrews
just wanted to believe Rob and Kristen were married
because really... who gives a shit if they want to think that?
It would be another if these crazies
wanted to believe that Kristen has somehow become a Duggar
and is working on baby number 3.
(seems to be the standard GO TO when new pics
of Rob/Twigs or Kristen/Alicia come out)
3 babies in 2 1/2 years.
Okkkkkk.

But the thing that needs to stop is
the constant trashing of Twigs and Kristen (and Rob)
That's really all the Cult do.
They trash Twigs.
Rob's fans come back and slam Kristen.
So then Kristen's fans slam Rob.
It's never ending.
How do these people read what the Baby Cult has to say
and be OK with it?
They are lying.
They don't know any truth... or facts... or anything.
And if Twigs was indeed only an 'investment' by Rob and Kristen
why are they constantly trying to bring Twigs down?
It's fucking lame, OK?

It wasn't right when Kristen was attacked
for years (pre 'scandal' by the way)
and its not right attacking Twigs now.
Twigs hasn't done anything to deserve this shit.
And I'm not saying you have to like Kristen or Twigs... or Rob.
I'm saying be a fucking decent human being
and stop trying to prop up your 'fave' by trashing someone else

Or to further your pathetic agenda.
Kristen doesn't need it.
Rob doesn't need it.
And not one of them deserve it.

6. I was watching a Twilight marathon the other night.
Ok.
So I only started watching Twilight at
"Say it.
Say it OUT-LOUD."

and I did watch all of NEW MOON.

And you know how these movies make me feel?
Happy.
Nostalgic.
No fucking regrets.
None.

This is still a GREAT kissing scene.
(and my lord... ain't they pretty?)

And I STILL get choked up when I hear

"Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big pill looming"

Because they fell in love making this movie.
And it was wonderful to watch.

"Jake, I love you. So please, don't make me choose.
 Cause it'll be him. It's always been him."

*Sigh*


but now we have:

Cafe Society
Equals
Childhood of a Leader
Lost City of Z
Billy Lynn's Long Halftime Walk
Good Time
Certain Women
Personal Shopper
Damsel

It might not be the same
but its more than enough...
and maybe even better.


This post is brought to you by
Acceptance.

You've heard me say it for years.
"With Acceptance Comes Peace"

And it's true.

Rob is happy with his life.
With Twigs.
Kristen is flourishing in hers.
With Alicia.
Good enough for me.

And of course...
This post is also brought to you by
Thomas Sturridge

You know how hard it is to be his fan
if you don't live in the UK?
He makes these wonderful movies that I never get to see
until they are released on DVD
or maybe on PPV.
He's very private about his life
and is rarely seen in public.
I mean...
COME ON.

I still adore you Thomas Sturridge.
Green Sheep.
Fucking Forever.

Until next time.

Bye for now.

Satisfaction

Satisfaction.

Man.

I feel it.

So fucking satisfied.

As a fan of Kristen...

How can I be anything... BUT satisfied?

2016 has been a helluva year so far

hasn't it?

Seriously.

The girl never stops.

And you can't stop looking... can you?

She's fucking magnetic.

You HAVE to see what she is doing.

Who she's with.

You can't help it.

Why?

Because we are DRAWN to her.

That's part of what makes her a star.

Part of her CHARM.

Equals

Certain Women

Cafe Society

Personal Shopper

I want to see them ALL.

Now.

NOW.

Kristen's stunning beauty is satisfying.

That she is the face of Chanel...

That people care about what she wears.

That she is edgy

And cool

and always gorgeous

without even trying.

You know what else is extremely satisfying?

That all the Bitter Bettys were so wrong about her.

The ones who screeched that her career was over

and no one would ever work with her again...

That she was DONE.

I hope they are choking on the bitter.

Oh how satisfying.

All the critics who love her...

All the praise for her performances

Yes.

Very.

Very.

Satisfying.

Guess what else is gratifying?

Whenever a picture of Rob and Twigs shows up.

No.

Not because I care about their relationship

(sorry... nope)

But for a couple of reasons.

1. Rob seems happy.

That's cool.

but more so for

2.

The Baby Cray who lose their shit

every time a new picture shows up that

proves them to be fucking liars.

I don't know why...

but there is immense satisfaction 

when they make up excuses

and pretend to 'know something you don't know'

Yet...

again and again

Rob and Twigs are just living their life

(in NY lately)

and again and again

the Cray

know

dick

shit.

OK

It doesn't matter how many times you claim

they are wearing the same clothes...

or jewelry...

or if they see each others friends socially.

They aren't sending you signs.

There are no talkative cousins.

There are NO sources.

Rob and Kristen are NOT together.

They are NOT hiding 2.5 babies.

They could be in the same State.

City.

House.

Room.

Standing side by side.

And it wouldn't make any difference.

Because they are not together.

Don't these people get tired of being wrong

ALL the damn time??

EVERY picture of R/T together is a lie?

EVERY person who sees them together is a liar?

Really?

Does that seem logical in any sense of the word?

Why do I bother trying to find logic

with the illogical?

No marriage

No children

Do Not Pass GO

Do not collect $200

And you know what else is incredibly satisfying???

Not giving a flying fuck

(is that like... the mile high club?)

About Rob OR Kristen's relationships.

God... how nice it is to be over that bullshit.

To sit back and laugh at the angst and drama...

From a distance.

Sorry Twigs and Alicia.

But I just don't.

It's not personal.

Maybe it's me...

(but I really think it's you.)

Rob looks happy.

Kristen looks gloriously happy.

And that's truly all that matters.

Is Kristen working her ass off

making lots of interesting movies?

Is she doing lots of promo and events?

Yes?

BRILLIANT!

SATISFACTION!

Does Rob have sex hair reminiscent of 2009?

Is he making movies at his own pace

and doing what he wants to do?

SATISFACTION.

Tom Sturridge.

Dreamy.

Moody.

Those eyes...

SATISFACTION.

Lets not forget about the extremely satisfying

Nicholas Hoult.

Did I say extremely?

Why yes...

Yes I did.

I can't get no satisfaction

I can't get no satisfaction

'Cause I try 

and I try 

and I try

AND I TRY

I can't get no, I can't get no

SATISFACTION.

This post is brought to you 

by being happy

and accepting the truth

when it is right in front of your face.

It will be OK.

The world still spins

even though Rob and Kristen

are no longer together.

Really.

Come down to earth

and check it out.

Until next time

Bye for now.

Happy Birthday Marilyn

Happy Birthday Robert Pattinson!

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!

This still remains...

to this day

my very favorite Rob 'walking' 

I don't know

It was at the beginning of all the Twilight madness...

He wasn't polished

He wasn't particularly well groomed

his clothes were wrinkled

his hair was kinda a greasy mess

he was shy... and humble

and adorable.

And he was goofy and unpredictable

and silly and a breath of fresh air.

Rob was the first (and last) 'celebrity' that I actually

wrote a fan letter to.

I never did that before...

wasn't even tempted.

But there was something about Rob that

made me want to.

I asked for an autograph.

He sent me back two.

That was in 2009.

And contrary to some fools opinions...

I still like Rob.

Why wouldn't I?

Just because I don't have as much to say

about him as I have in the past...

Doesn't mean I don't like him.

Just because I don't get all worked up

over every negative comment about him

and go looking for fights...

Doesn't mean I don't like him.

Just because my ovaries remain intact

and I keep breathing...

Doesn't mean I don't like him

How can you not like THIS guy?

Doesn't he make you smile?

He does me.

I have zero reason to dislike him.

There isn't anything Rob has done

to make me not be his fan.

Because Kristen and him are no longer together?

I don't blame him.

(And it actually worked out for the best)

People grow up...

People grow apart.

As Rob said...

"Shit happens"

Because he has moved on

and found love with Twigs?

I'm happy he's found love.

It's hard to believe that Rob is 30 years old.

Where did all the years go?

I've been a fan for 7+ years.

Sure...

I've come down off that cloud.

And maybe my feelings aren't overwhelming anymore.

Maybe I learned my lesson in being overly

invested in an actors life.

I would hope that I can live and learn

and realize that even though 

some feelings change...

Some always remain.

That's where I am with Robert Pattinson.

I can still look at this gif of him walking...

and smile when he smiles.

And appreciate that no man

has even come close to that walk.

I still wanna know about him.

I'm still interested in his career.

I still want to watch his movies.

That will never change.

This post is brought to you by 

the enduring friendship 

of Robert and Thomas.

And because I wanted to get a picture of Tom

in here somewhere.

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

ROBERT!

I wish him love and happiness

on this day...

and every day

forever.

(And it looks like he found both)

Until next time.

Bye for now

Happy Birthday Kristen Stewart!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

KRISTEN STEWART!

On reaching peace with her public image:

 “I’m really proud that I am able to move forward 

and not fall into every mental crater. 

That’s a new thing for me.

 Age has made me smarter and calmer.

 And it is fucking awesome.”

On apologizing: “Lately, I’ve been doing less 

of the ‘I’m sooooo sorry.’

 And more of the ‘No. Fuck. Jesus.’”

On her sexuality: “Google me, I’m not hiding.

 If you feel like you really want to define yourself,

 and you have the ability to articulate those parameters

 and that in itself defines you, then do it.

 But I am an actress, man.

 I live in the fucking ambiguity of this life and I love it.

 I don’t feel like it would be true for me to be like, 

‘I’m coming out!’ No, I do a job.

 Until I decide that I’m starting a foundation 

or that I have some perspective or opinion 

that other people should be receiving…I don’t. 

I’m just a kid making movies.”

On Twilight: “Anybody who wants to talk shit about Twilight,

 I completely get it, but there’s something there that I’m endlessly,

 and to this day, fucking proud of.

 My memory of it felt—still feels—really good.

 People are always comparing Twilight to things 

and trying to figure out why I’ve made certain decisions that I’ve made, 

and I always say every single moment that has led me to this moment 

has made me who I am.”

"The public kind of burned me at the stake.

 But that's OK, I can take it.

 I'm not dead."

"Someone who just commands the lens simply by standing in front of it."

Kristen commands attention...

and she doesn't even have to try.

You have to look.

You want to know.

Even the people out there who claim to 

not care about her 

can't look away.

Admit it.

I adore her.

Completely.

Is she perfect?

Not even.

Does she make mistakes?

Absolutely.

Do I like or agree with

everything she says and does?

Of course not.

She's human.

She's flawed just like every one else.

And its all part of her charm.

Perfection is not only impossible...

It's boring as fuck.

I don't judge Kristen

for living her life 

the way she wants to live it.

Why would I?

If I have learned anything these past 7+ years

its to step back and not obsess

over things which I have no control over.

I want her to be happy.

I think she is.

I want her career to flourish.

I know it is.

I hope she is having a wonderful birthday...

Full of love and laughter

and that all her wishes...

are coming true.

Happy Birthday

Dear Kristen...

Happy Birthday to you.

This post is brought to you by:

Kristen Stewart

She's got these big green eyes and they're as wide as the moon...

For being born today.

You have made the last 7 years...

utterly fascinating

always interesting.

And dare I say...

totally intoxicating?

Yes.

Yes I can.

Until next time.

Bye for now.