27 Years a Kristen.

Happy Birthday

Kristen!

I could easily go on a long winded spiel

about the whys and hows 

of my complete

and utter

adoration

of

Kristen Stewart...

But.

I've decided to just post a few of my 

favorite pictures

and maybe just try to put into words

my thoughts about her.

I'm not sure exactly when

my thoughts about Kristen changed...

Before Twilight I didn't really know much about her.

And I have to admit that I was kinda jealous

when I found out she was BELLA

to Robert's EDWARD.

I guess that's when it began.

When I started watching her and Rob

fall in love.

I became fascinated with her.

She gave these quirky

bouncy

awkward

interviews...

And I found myself wanting to know more.

 

 She made movies that I found fascinating.

And I wanted to see more.

She said things that made me think.

And I wanted to hear more.

She marched to the beat

of her own drum...

And she became polarizing.

The more Rob loved Kristen...

The more some people hated her.

No matter what she did.

She didn't have to do anything.

She was constantly

and brutally attacked

on social media.

I found myself defending her.

Vehemently.

I'm not even sure why I felt the need

to...

protect her.

But I did.

Here was this tiny little girl...

(and keep in mind a lot of the abuse 

she received was when she was a teenager)

Who wasn't hurting anyone...

Just loving her boyfriend

living her life...

I continued to defend her...

Even when she hurt Robert.

Because no matter how you want to look at it...

We don't know what happened between them.

We only know scattered bits and pieces.

Rob took her back.

Rob forgave her.

Rob still loved her.

Even if I was disappointed...

(I hate to see anyone get hurt)

It wasn't my place to judge her.

She didn't do anything to me.

It wasn't my relationship...

But this was the breaking point for many.

They couldn't get past it.

They behaved as the jilted lover...

The attacks were vile and bitter.

And yet...

I saw a girl who was hurting too.

I still wanted to shield her.

Stop the hate from reaching her.

I couldn't help it.

No one who judged her

(and continues to do so to this day)

can sit back and claim to never

have hurt someone...

To be free from sin

To be free from doing something they regret.

I believe Rob and Kristen truly loved each other

But sometimes that's not enough.

Sometimes you grow up...

and relationships... don't.

One of the things I love about her the most...

is her fierce determination

to just live her life on her terms.

She's not worried if you approve.

She's not concerned if you don't agree.

A lot of people judge her life

based on what THEY would do

in her situation.

But it doesn't work that way.

So what if you would have 'time alone'

after a break up...

So what if you wouldn't want your friends

hanging around all the time...

So what if you disagree with the

way she chooses to live her life.

So what.

You live your life your way...

let Kristen live hers the way she wants to.

You have to realize by now

that Kristen will rarely do what you want 

her to do...

If it upsets you so much

that you get angry and frustrated and judgey

maybe you should ask yourself why.

I have had people ask me why I was such a fan

of Kristen's.

I'm not quite sure I can put it into words.

I find her completely captivating on screen.

I can't look away

and want her to be in every frame.

I love most of her movies.

Even the weird strange roles...

It doesn't matter.

If Kristen is in it?

I want to watch it.

Kristen is devastatingly beautiful.

I mean...

 I realize that's not a reason to admire someone...

But I love that she's so damn gorgeous

and it doesn't seem to matter to her at all.

Like its not that important

in the grand scheme of things..

And I guess that's true.

I love that Kristen's career has been 

on fucking fire for the last coupe of years...

and that she is getting some of the best reviews ever.

She keeps getting better

and better.

And I will admit that I love

that her critics have had to swallow

their bitter pills

when they claimed she was "OVER"

and that she would never work again.

Silly Ninnies.

I love that she's not afraid to try new things.

Directing.

Starring in a Rolling Stone video.

Shaving off her hair.

Hosting Saturday Night Live.

She's brave.

Even when she knows she might fail...

She still tries.

She's honest.

She says things that she believes...

even when its not always the most popular opinion.

She's flawed.

Like every other human being out there.

But that's part of her incredible charm.

She loves animals.

How can you not love someone

who loves her puppies so damn much?

She's awkward and real

and says how she feels

and sometimes she doesn't express herself

in the best way...

or sometimes she says

or does something I don't agree with.

But I still admire

that she's there

trying to explain what she's thinking.

It's not that easy to do.

I should know.

I just tried to explain how I felt about Kristen

on her 27th birthday...

and I have rambled on and on

trying to make sense of my thoughts.

It's hard to put feelings into words sometimes.

This post is brought to you by 

Kristen Stewart.

Happy 27th Birthday!

I hope you have happiness

and love and peace and joy

this day

and every day.

You deserve all of it.

Until next time

Bye for now.

And the Beat Goes On...

Damn.

I'm lazy, aren't I?

I just can't seem to get motivated to open my laptop

and post a few words on this blog.

It's not that there hasn't been stuff to talk about...

I do still check social media

and try to stay 'current'.

But I have to admit that ever since

Humpty Trumpty was elected...

This country's welfare has been

at the forefront of my brain.

It's scary.

But to be honest...

I did write a rather lengthy post

right after Kristen hosted SNL

Because lo and behold...

SHE FUCKING KILLED IT.

God, she was good.

Warm.

Natural.

Funny.

Likable.

And of course she looked gorgeous doing it.

If you are a fan of Kristen's...

then you enjoyed every damn minute.

And if you aren't a fan of Kristen's...

Well.

I know you couldn't take your eyes off of her either.

And it annoyed the hell outta you

that she didn't suck.

Which in turn...

sucks for you.

Win/Win

Heh.

Then of course...

She said FUCK on live TV.

Look at her.

How cute is she?

She was so excited...

so IN the damn moment...

She was as shocked as anyone.

God...she's so adorable.

Cussing and all.

One of the things I admire about Kristen

is that even when she's afraid...

She's brave.

Another reason I didn't post my last blog

was because... like... 

the next couple of days after that was all about Rob.

He did red carpet for LCOZ!!!

It seems like its been ages since Rob did promo

but seeing Rob in a suit somehow

makes everything better.

I'm really thinking that he makes that look so easy.

and he brought Twigs...

And they looked REALLY happy.

Don't they?

It's good to see Rob smile like that...

isn't it?

And I know that it's completely selfish of me

but another reason I love pics like this

is because it sends the Baby Loons into a panic.

Yes people

They STILL insist that Rob and Kristen are married

with 3 kids.

Completely ignoring pictures like Rob and Twigs

so OBVIOUSLY together

and this...

Kristen so OBVIOUSLY

in a relationship with Stella Maxwell.

(and aren't they all kinds of cute?)

I guess I will never understand why they can't 

just accept that Rob and Kristen broke up YEARS ago

and have moved on.

Just like some people can't accept that Kristen

will love who she wants to love...

be it male or female.

The heart wants what it wants.

And that Rob loves Twigs.

Admit it.

Accept it.

Reality is... it doesn't matter who they love.

Because it's not up to us.

It's not about us.

And it shouldn't affect us.

Stop using their relationships to attack them.

Stop comparing them.

Stop making it a competition.

Stop looking if you don't like what you see.

Stay in your lane.

Anyway.

Kristen has been way busy with making movies

Directing movies...

Promoting movies...

And the one most talked about right now is

Personal Shopper.

Personally... I haven't seen it yet

(although I can't wait)

but she is getting RAVE reviews.

And by RAVE, I mean WONDERFUL.

In addition to Kristen getting great critical response

the movie is doing pretty well

in limited release

(never near me, of course)

I know I've said it before

and I will probably say it always...

But Kristen is MAGNETIC onscreen.

You WANT to watch her.

And you feel a void when shes not there.

As she matures...

She just keeps getting better.

I haven't seen LCOZ either.

Although I really want to.

I'm not sure how good the movie is doing...

But Rob is getting great reviews.

And I love Beardy Rob.

Ok.

Maybe not THAT much beard

but I prefer men with facial hair.

This has always been one of my favorite bearded moments.

I mean.

Well.

Damn.

Speaking of BEARDS...

This post is brought to you by

a man of many beards...

Tom always seems to have a beard...

which is good.

It suits him

and makes his blue eyes...

bluer.

The blue-est.

Man... I adore him.

And guess what?

BROADWAY NEWS  

Reed Birney, Olivia Wilde, and Tom Sturridge 

Will Lead Cast of Broadway's 1984.

I've always believed that Tom was happiest on stage.

It's where he seems most comfortable...

it's where he belongs.

Now I just need to set up a trip to NYC

Right?

This post is brought to you by the letters

STFU

1. To the people who keep bringing up Kristen's sexuality

like its an insult.

(Why does it scare you so much?

Why do you care?

Why is it even a big deal?)

2. To the people who constantly trash Twigs

just because Rob fell in love with her.

(It's just another version of Nonstens)

3. To the people who can't accept that 

Rob and Kristen are no longer together.

(It's almost FOUR FUCKING YEARS.

You are severely insane)

4. To the people who think they know Rob's and Kristen's

lives and how they feel.

(You don't know DICKSHIT)

5. To the people who never have anything nice to say

about Rob and/or Kristen

(They say they "don't care")

but still watch and read every thing about them

and then talk about them ALL THE TIME.

And most of all?

To Donald Trump.

Because every thing you say is a lie.

You, sir...

are NOT my president.

Until next time.

Drums keep pounding

A rhythm to the brain

Bye for now.

I'm Still Standing...

“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times,

 it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness,

 it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity
 it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, 
it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair...
- Charles Dickens

That was written in 1859.

I mean...

Doesn't it somehow always fit 

the times we live in?

I realized I hadn't written here

in over 2 months.

I guess the presidential election

may

or may not

have influenced that.
Probably may.
Definitely may.

I'm usually not incredibly political...

I vote my heart.

My conscience.

Regardless of 'party'.

I vote for whomever I believe

will be the best person...

for our country.

Needless to say,

I didn't vote for Donald Trump.

And while this may offend some people...

I cannot

I will not

ever understand those who did.
I will forever look at people who voted for him...
differently.
Even those I love.

That's all I'm going to say about that.
For now.

I do believe the boat will right itself

in due time...

and as karma often does

it will go around

and come all the fucking way back around.

OK then.

Let's talk about 2016.

It ended up being a shit year

didn't it?

Not really for me, personally...

I had weddings 

and babies being born

and happiness and joy.

So it couldn't be ALL bad.

Election results aside...

It just ended on such a fucking bummer.

So many good, talented

wonderful people died.

Many way way (WAY) before their time.

I felt punched in the gut more than once.

The following hit me the hardest...

David Bowie

Prince

Alan RIckman 

Glenn Frey 

George Martin 

Garry Shandling

Muhammad Ali

Anton Yelchin

Gene Wilder

Florence Henderson

George Michael

Debbie Reynolds

and most of all

Carrie Fisher

Every one of these people affected my life in some way...

Made it better. 

Made me smile.

Made me think.

Carrie Fisher was somehow the most 

devastating to me...

Maybe because she was flawed

She made mistakes and she owned them...

But she was brilliantly funny

and smart

and had an incredible sense of humor.

I adored her.

It hurt to say goodbye.

And what was the BEST and WORST

of this fandom in 2016?

I wish I could find something new to say.

The Best?

Kristen had a phenomenal 2016.

Critical praise.

Lots of interesting projects.

(Rolling Stone video? Who saw that one coming?)

She even directed her own short film "Come Swim"

that went to Sundance.

Girl is on fire and IN CHARGE.
Oh and to add fuel to the flames...
This girl is going to be on Saturday Night Live
this coming weekend.
SNL
Live TV.
I mean.
Huge step for her... yes?
I'm beyond thrilled for her
because I believe she will be wonderful...
but damn... I'm nervous, too.
I want her to do well
but comedy is fucking hard.
I cannot wait.

As a fan... I really can't ask for anything more...

Except for MORE.

I can't wait to see everything she does

and will do.

She is endlessly fascinating

and magnetically watchable.

The worst?

Well, you know.

Still have the HardlyKnowsNothing's of the fandom

who still want to claim Kristen is married to Rob

with 3 bouncing babies attached to her hips
(and incredibly... number 4 'on the way')

And there are still the people out there

who want to argue with them everyday.

"ROB IS WITH TWIGS"

"ROB IS HAPPILY MARRIED TO KRISTEN!"
"ROB WAS IN LONDON WITH TWIGS"
"KRISTEN AND ROB SPENT THE HOLIDAYS 

TOGETHER WITH THEIR CHILDREN!"

Seriously?

Day in.

Day out.

Same bullshit

Over and Over

and then over again.

What exactly is anyone really trying to prove?
It's one thing to have an opinion

But you aren't getting anywhere fighting on twitter

everyday repeating yourself.

As far as I can see...

It's jut an excuse for one side to shit 

all over Twigs...

While the other side shits all over Kristen.

Wow.

What a fantastic way to spend your time!

You all do know the definition of insanity...

Right?

Insanity is, 

doing the exact same fucking thing over and over again,

 expecting shit to change. 

That. Is. Crazy.

It's not going to change.

Ever.

Rob has been with Twigs for YEARS now...

and it's been well documented.

Kristen has been dating women...

and she's one of the most photographed women

in the world.

No question who she is spending her time with.

There hasn't been a real picture of Rob and Kristen

together since 2013.

If that doesn't have an effect on the

insane delusional conspiracies?

What will?

Nothing.

Best?

Rob has had a relatively quiet year...

He has been working on interesting movies

with good directors

He's been pretty low key.

Which I'm sure is exactly what he wants.

He's been in a long term relationship

with Twigs

and seems happy with the choices he's made.

Maybe once more of his movies come out...

We will get to see more of him.

Pulling his fingers through his hair...

Laughing.

Being all awkward and cute.

Best?

Tom Sturridge.

Tom has been working much like Rob...

Quietly.

Steadily.

Working on projects that mean 

something to him.

Staying close to his daughter.

Wearing hats.

And goofy 'jumpers'.

Not really smiling much...

but when he does?

Look out.

Wham.

Bam.

Thank you, Ma'am.

Worst?

The same tired asshats who continually judge Kristen
for basically breathing.
Kristen was at Sundance...
Talking about motivation behind her movie
"Come Swim"

She talked about heartbreak...
relationships...
things she wanted to say.

And what did the asshats do?
Piss and moan about how Kristen
is using Rob for promotion!
Is that it, really?
How many songs...
Poems
Books
Movies
are based on peoples feelings...
things that happen in their lives
heartbreak and love and pain?
Yeah.
Just about everything, you know?
But oh no...
Kristen is NOT allowed to do what others
have done before her.
How dare she?
Who does she think she is bringing up Rob!
Its only her life, after all.
Her relationship.
Her heartache.
Her pain.
Her love.
And just like so many do every single day
 using their feelings and experiences for art
she uses what she lived.
And honestly...
Do you really think Rob cares?
Uh huh.
Sure. Sure.

I don't usually talk about Twigs
except in passing about Rob.
I've kinda made it a thing to not discuss
Rob and Kristen's relationships.
It's so much easier to not care
and not be invested... 
But I did want to say this about Twigs

Her and Nike are a great fit.
She's a helluva dancer.

This post is brought to you by
the number 9.

It is still a number that shows up in my life
all the time.
Heh.

Until next time.

Bye for now.

Magic 8

It's been 8 years since I started this blog.

This innocent... naive little blog.

I was intoxicated with Robert Pattinson...

and I really wanted to understand why.

How.

But mostly Why.

Have I learned anything in the last 8 years?

I fucking hope so.

1.
The more things change

The more they stay the same.

Remember when there were "Nonstens"

that HATED everything Kristen...

(well, who am I kidding...they still exist)

and they made up endless excuses

for Rob and her being together?
(and this was years before the 'scandal')

IT'S PR!
THE PICS ARE PHOTO-SHOPPED!!

IT'S STAGED!

IT'S JUST WORK RELATED!

They despised Kristen with the heat of a million suns...

And most definitely did NOT want 

Kristen and Rob to be in a relationship.
They attacked her...
Insulted her...
Basically behaving like bitter, petty, jealous bitches.

Now?

Well...

The names have changed
(or have they?)

But its the Lunatic Baby Cult

who are screaming the same thing.
Every picture that doesn't fit their agenda?
STAGED.
PHOTO-SHOPPED.
PR.
ITS JUST A JOB.
And instead of hating on Kristen...
They hate on Twigs.
They attack her
They insult her
Basically behaving like
Bitter, Petty, Jealous Bitches.

The common denominator?
Robert Pattinson.
It's pretty obvious that no matter who
the guy hangs out with...
dates...
becomes engaged to
or marries
This poor woman will be hated...
just because Robert fell in love with them.
I doubt anyone will ever be 'acceptable'
to these people.
I doubt the hatred will ever stop.
They seem to thrive on it.


2.
 I've learned that Kristen is one strong bitch.

She. Is. Stunning.

 "The public kind of burned me at the stake," she says. 
"But that's OK, I can take it. I'm not dead."

"Lately, I've been doing less of the [assumes whiny cry voice]
 'I'm sooooo sorry.' And more of the [drops several octaves]
 'No. Fuck. Jesus.'"

She is severely judged...
wait.
Misjudged.
Always.
Some people like to think they know
the intimate details of Kristen's life.
Details of her personal relationships...
How she lives her life.
I've never seen so many people
so eager to twist and turn
Kristen's words and actions
and make up complete bullshit
and then pretend its the truth...
AND THEN get angry at her
and judge her
for the shit they made up.

Happy Kristen is the BEST Kristen

"My true personal life,
 as much as people think they know about it,
 they don't know dick shit. 
Who could? By the way, nobody knows."

Is Kristen perfect?
Fuck no.
And I don't care.
Perfection is boring.
And Kristen is anything BUT boring.
I like her.
A lot.
I don't always agree with her.
I don't think she is flawless
and can do no wrong.
I like to think I accept her for who she is...
Sometimes she makes me smile
Sometimes she makes me cringe...
But you know what?
After 8 years
I'm still here.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Cute.

3.
 I've learned that although
my 'intoxication' of Robert Pattinson
has calmed down...
I still like the guy.
I still find him attractive...
I still want to watch his movies...
I still care about what's going on in his life.

Is it just me or does he look pretty damn good here?

Is Rob misjudged?
Most definitely.
Some think he is a perfect idol
that can do no wrong.
Some look for any opportunity to criticize him.
He's far from perfect.
And to be honest?
That's always been one of his most endearing qualities.
He's goofy and charming
and sometimes he says the wrong thing
at the wrong time.
So what?
I've also accepted Rob for who he is...
not what I thought he was.

"I like to see if I'm capable of something,
 and I don't really care what people think,
 even though I read all the reviews.
 If it really mattered, 
it would have destroyed me years ago."

"Shit happens, you know?" he laughs. 
"It's just young people… it's normal! 
And honestly, who gives a shit?"


4.
 Never Ship

OK.
I'll be honest here.
I never really heard of 'shipping'
before I fell into this fandom.
I remember looking it up...
and it was

To wish a couple that you like to stay together
 cause you like them or cause they are cute. 
Or to wish two people you like and/or want to be together.

I always thought shipping was attached to
fictional characters..
from books
TV shows
Movies...

I will always love these two crazy kids...

So when I was all about Rob and Kristen
I just was like...
Hey... THEY ARE TOGETHER IN REAL LIFE
How is that shipping?

But.
I have learned its best not to give a shit
about who someone you like... is with.
Love can be fleeting
People change.
People grow up.
Most significantly
It's not your damn life.

I will always have a huge soft spot
in my heart for Rob and Kristen.
I spent a lot of time watching
and laughing and enjoying their relationship.

Never again.

If there is ONE thing I've learned
in the past 8 years
that I really think is most important...
Is not to get so damn invested
in someone else's lives.
I don't even know how I got there...
It just sorta happened over time
But I'm so glad I woke up.

Oh... I still think some people are cute together
and its nice to see people falling in love.
It's fun to speculate...
enjoy major chemistry...
But watching from a great great distance.
If you are arguing over someone elses relationship
on a daily basis...
trying to intrude in their personal life on social media...
You might want to reevaluate your life.
You know who you are.

As it stands right now
I have zero interest
in who Rob and Kristen are now dating.
And it feels
WONDERFUL.
(Try it. You'll like it.)


5.
 I'm capable of liking
BOTH
Rob and Kristen
even though they no longer remain together.
Amazing huh?
I also like Nicholas Hoult

This is how he fucking looks walking down the street!

Robert Downey Jr
and an incredible array of people.
ALL AT THE SAME TIME!
Imagine that!
Is your mind boggled yet?


6.
 I've learned that you really
can't take this shit seriously.
Believe me.
I have always found myself
particularly protective of Kristen.
I always felt she was unjustly vilified
and harshly criticized
But at some point...
(and this is to both Rob/Kristen fans)
You really gotta let it go.
Not everyone is going to like Kristen
Not everyone is going to like Rob.
And if some random asshat on twitter or tumblr
is doing some ranting...
who cares?
If they aren't truly hurting anyone
and just have an opinion
is it really worth attacking everyone
you don't agree with?
Who has the time?

But it's all right now
I learned my lesson well
You see, you can't please everyone
So ya got to please yourself

7.
People like "HatersNoNothing"
(seriously... NO nothing? HAHAHA)
and her paranoid pack of pinheads

will never admit they are lying liars that lie.
It doesn't matter how many pictures
interviews
sightings
prove them wrong...
They will always have some sort of
delusional excuse to explain it.
I don't understand
(THANK GOD)
why they cling so heavily to
Rob and Kristen being together...
Why can't they let them go?
And better yet...
Why would ANYONE believe a word they say?
Not one shred of proof in over 3 years.

8.
There are NO insiders.
Come on, man.
Haven't we all learned that lesson long ago?
Do you really think there is a cousin
who shares super secret info
to some nasty vile person
who then posts it on her gross blog?
Do you really think there is a person
who is related to Kristen who rats out her
most personal details?
Do you honestly think that anyone close
to either Rob and/or Kristen
would hurt them in that way?
Seriously?

And to think that Rob and Kristen
would kiss and snuggle with other people
while being supposedly married with not
one...
not two...
BUT THREE BABIES????
(BWAHAHAHAHAHA)

I remember thinking when the LOONS came up
with baby #1
that they had jumped the fucking shark...

Now?
It's a damn WHALE.
And even that isn't big enough a jump.

What.The.Fuck.

Sweet Jesus
People are just plain stupid.
I hope its painful.


This post is brought to you by the number 8
and the fact that
 I still adore Thomas Sturridge.

He makes me happy.

He's the perfect Green Sheep.
Always.
Forever.

I wonder what the next
8 years will bring?

Until next time.

Bye for now.

love is long