Magic 8

It's been 8 years since I started this blog.

This innocent... naive little blog.

I was intoxicated with Robert Pattinson...

and I really wanted to understand why.

How.

But mostly Why.

Have I learned anything in the last 8 years?

I fucking hope so.

1.
The more things change

The more they stay the same.

Remember when there were "Nonstens"

that HATED everything Kristen...

(well, who am I kidding...they still exist)

and they made up endless excuses

for Rob and her being together?
(and this was years before the 'scandal')

IT'S PR!
THE PICS ARE PHOTO-SHOPPED!!

IT'S STAGED!

IT'S JUST WORK RELATED!

They despised Kristen with the heat of a million suns...

And most definitely did NOT want 

Kristen and Rob to be in a relationship.
They attacked her...
Insulted her...
Basically behaving like bitter, petty, jealous bitches.

Now?

Well...

The names have changed
(or have they?)

But its the Lunatic Baby Cult

who are screaming the same thing.
Every picture that doesn't fit their agenda?
STAGED.
PHOTO-SHOPPED.
PR.
ITS JUST A JOB.
And instead of hating on Kristen...
They hate on Twigs.
They attack her
They insult her
Basically behaving like
Bitter, Petty, Jealous Bitches.

The common denominator?
Robert Pattinson.
It's pretty obvious that no matter who
the guy hangs out with...
dates...
becomes engaged to
or marries
This poor woman will be hated...
just because Robert fell in love with them.
I doubt anyone will ever be 'acceptable'
to these people.
I doubt the hatred will ever stop.
They seem to thrive on it.


2.
 I've learned that Kristen is one strong bitch.

She. Is. Stunning.

 "The public kind of burned me at the stake," she says. 
"But that's OK, I can take it. I'm not dead."

"Lately, I've been doing less of the [assumes whiny cry voice]
 'I'm sooooo sorry.' And more of the [drops several octaves]
 'No. Fuck. Jesus.'"

She is severely judged...
wait.
Misjudged.
Always.
Some people like to think they know
the intimate details of Kristen's life.
Details of her personal relationships...
How she lives her life.
I've never seen so many people
so eager to twist and turn
Kristen's words and actions
and make up complete bullshit
and then pretend its the truth...
AND THEN get angry at her
and judge her
for the shit they made up.

Happy Kristen is the BEST Kristen

"My true personal life,
 as much as people think they know about it,
 they don't know dick shit. 
Who could? By the way, nobody knows."

Is Kristen perfect?
Fuck no.
And I don't care.
Perfection is boring.
And Kristen is anything BUT boring.
I like her.
A lot.
I don't always agree with her.
I don't think she is flawless
and can do no wrong.
I like to think I accept her for who she is...
Sometimes she makes me smile
Sometimes she makes me cringe...
But you know what?
After 8 years
I'm still here.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Cute.

3.
 I've learned that although
my 'intoxication' of Robert Pattinson
has calmed down...
I still like the guy.
I still find him attractive...
I still want to watch his movies...
I still care about what's going on in his life.

Is it just me or does he look pretty damn good here?

Is Rob misjudged?
Most definitely.
Some think he is a perfect idol
that can do no wrong.
Some look for any opportunity to criticize him.
He's far from perfect.
And to be honest?
That's always been one of his most endearing qualities.
He's goofy and charming
and sometimes he says the wrong thing
at the wrong time.
So what?
I've also accepted Rob for who he is...
not what I thought he was.

"I like to see if I'm capable of something,
 and I don't really care what people think,
 even though I read all the reviews.
 If it really mattered, 
it would have destroyed me years ago."

"Shit happens, you know?" he laughs. 
"It's just young people… it's normal! 
And honestly, who gives a shit?"


4.
 Never Ship

OK.
I'll be honest here.
I never really heard of 'shipping'
before I fell into this fandom.
I remember looking it up...
and it was

To wish a couple that you like to stay together
 cause you like them or cause they are cute. 
Or to wish two people you like and/or want to be together.

I always thought shipping was attached to
fictional characters..
from books
TV shows
Movies...

I will always love these two crazy kids...

So when I was all about Rob and Kristen
I just was like...
Hey... THEY ARE TOGETHER IN REAL LIFE
How is that shipping?

But.
I have learned its best not to give a shit
about who someone you like... is with.
Love can be fleeting
People change.
People grow up.
Most significantly
It's not your damn life.

I will always have a huge soft spot
in my heart for Rob and Kristen.
I spent a lot of time watching
and laughing and enjoying their relationship.

Never again.

If there is ONE thing I've learned
in the past 8 years
that I really think is most important...
Is not to get so damn invested
in someone else's lives.
I don't even know how I got there...
It just sorta happened over time
But I'm so glad I woke up.

Oh... I still think some people are cute together
and its nice to see people falling in love.
It's fun to speculate...
enjoy major chemistry...
But watching from a great great distance.
If you are arguing over someone elses relationship
on a daily basis...
trying to intrude in their personal life on social media...
You might want to reevaluate your life.
You know who you are.

As it stands right now
I have zero interest
in who Rob and Kristen are now dating.
And it feels
WONDERFUL.
(Try it. You'll like it.)


5.
 I'm capable of liking
BOTH
Rob and Kristen
even though they no longer remain together.
Amazing huh?
I also like Nicholas Hoult

This is how he fucking looks walking down the street!

Robert Downey Jr
and an incredible array of people.
ALL AT THE SAME TIME!
Imagine that!
Is your mind boggled yet?


6.
 I've learned that you really
can't take this shit seriously.
Believe me.
I have always found myself
particularly protective of Kristen.
I always felt she was unjustly vilified
and harshly criticized
But at some point...
(and this is to both Rob/Kristen fans)
You really gotta let it go.
Not everyone is going to like Kristen
Not everyone is going to like Rob.
And if some random asshat on twitter or tumblr
is doing some ranting...
who cares?
If they aren't truly hurting anyone
and just have an opinion
is it really worth attacking everyone
you don't agree with?
Who has the time?

But it's all right now
I learned my lesson well
You see, you can't please everyone
So ya got to please yourself

7.
People like "HatersNoNothing"
(seriously... NO nothing? HAHAHA)
and her paranoid pack of pinheads

will never admit they are lying liars that lie.
It doesn't matter how many pictures
interviews
sightings
prove them wrong...
They will always have some sort of
delusional excuse to explain it.
I don't understand
(THANK GOD)
why they cling so heavily to
Rob and Kristen being together...
Why can't they let them go?
And better yet...
Why would ANYONE believe a word they say?
Not one shred of proof in over 3 years.

8.
There are NO insiders.
Come on, man.
Haven't we all learned that lesson long ago?
Do you really think there is a cousin
who shares super secret info
to some nasty vile person
who then posts it on her gross blog?
Do you really think there is a person
who is related to Kristen who rats out her
most personal details?
Do you honestly think that anyone close
to either Rob and/or Kristen
would hurt them in that way?
Seriously?

And to think that Rob and Kristen
would kiss and snuggle with other people
while being supposedly married with not
one...
not two...
BUT THREE BABIES????
(BWAHAHAHAHAHA)

I remember thinking when the LOONS came up
with baby #1
that they had jumped the fucking shark...

Now?
It's a damn WHALE.
And even that isn't big enough a jump.

What.The.Fuck.

Sweet Jesus
People are just plain stupid.
I hope its painful.


This post is brought to you by the number 8
and the fact that
 I still adore Thomas Sturridge.

He makes me happy.

He's the perfect Green Sheep.
Always.
Forever.

I wonder what the next
8 years will bring?

Until next time.

Bye for now.

love is long

October 20, 2008

It's been 6 years.

Six.

To be honest...

I kinda forgot about the day I started this blog.

It was Oct 20, 2008

In the beginning...

My posts were all about 

Robert and Edward.

Yes. Edward.

This was before Twilight even came out.

I was completely intoxicated with

Edward Cullen.

A book character.

Something that had never happened

to me before

And then...

the intoxication led me to Rob.

And then I became completely 

enamored with an actor.

NEVER

EVER

has that happened to me

before or since.

I didn't get it.

I was bamboozled
Permuddled

Confuzzuled

(how Dr.Seuss of me)

I couldn't wrap my head around

the fact that I was so infatuated

with this character

and the man who played him.

So I started this blog.

6 years ago.

Trying to figure out why.

I never really found my answer.

But I learned a lot.

About people.

About fandoms.

About Robert.

About Kristen.

About Robert and Kristen.

I saw early on that there was 

something happening between them.

By October 28th 
Just 8 days later...

I was already posting about their

on and offline chemistry.

From a post on Oct 28, 2008

"I wanted to talk about chemistry. 

As in on screen chemistry.

 As in Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. 

They have it. And better yet, they have it off screen as well.

 I think it is so obvious that there was 

a little sumthin sumthin going on between these two...

beyond Edward and Bella.

 I have watched all the videos of the two of them...

and they are just so INTIMATE with each other. 

The way they look at one another...

the way Kristen touches Roberts face 

(and that, my friends, is intimate), 

the way they couldn't keep their eyes off

 of each other at Comic Con...

their body language on and off screen. 

But especially off screen,

 because they are always touching...always close.

Now, I know that they are supposed 

to be dating other people or whatever.

 But there is definitely something there.

 I don't care what anyone says.

 And if they get right back into making "New Moon"

 (oh please Lord)

 they will get right back into their chemistry."

Yeah.
So... it really wasn't about 'shipping' for me.
(Never really has been.)
And it most certainly had nothing to do
with me confusing Edward and Bella
with Rob and Kristen.
It was just... Sweet.
Seeing these two people
falling in love with each other
from the beginning...

I found that the more I got to know Kristen
The more I liked Kristen.

It was fun watching them interact with each other
Look at each other
Try not to look at each other
Touch each other
Try not to touch each other.
It was fascinating
and oh so lovely.

I can't tell you how many times
I watched this Empire video back in the day...
They completely intrigued me.
(and yeah, not sure why)
Every moment they are together
you see the magnetic pull
Sometimes they try to fight it
But watch at the end...
Kristen looks quickly at Rob
Rob responds
without even looking at her.
Completely Connected.
That's the kinda stuff I mean.
(And can I just say...
how fucking cute is Rob in this video?
It makes me sooo nostalgic
for these early days *sigh*)

That was then. 
This is now.

 6 years.
 And I've always been behind
Rob and Kristen.
Always.
Even 2 years ago
when things became... difficult
I never turned my back on them.

And I'm not doing that now.
Some people confuse
logic and honesty
for not 'believing' in Rob and Kristen.
I will always believe in them.

But now if you don't think
Rob and Kristen are married and together
You are labeled a 'hater'
Seriously?
I see things as they are.
I don't necessarily LIKE what I see right now...
But I'm not going to pretend I don't see it.

I would love to frolic in 3D Land with you
1-Delusional
2-Desperate
3-Denial

But I don't like it there.
Nothing makes sense in that land
It's actually rather creepy.
Some people are scary.
Up is down
In is out
Under is over
babies are invisible
love is based on hoodies and lies
and cousins- oh my!
There are conspiracies everywhere...
3D land gives me a headache.
It makes me nauseous.
No thanks.

But I'm still here.
I still adore BOTH Rob and Kristen.
I'm still interested in what they do
and what they have to say.
And I will always
Always
Have hope that they will find their way
back together again.
Because yes...
Love is fucking LONG.

So let's talk about
Nicholas Hoult.
(again)

If you mention his name
in the same sentence as Kristen
you are SHIPPING them together!
Good fucking grief.

1. I will never ship another couple again.
Ever.

2. I happen to like Nicholas Hoult. 
If I want to talk about him.
I will.
I think he's cute.
I love his voice.
I don't see why that's a bad thing... You know?



If he hangs out with Kristen...
Lucky him.
And if he doesn't?
I still will think he's cute
and I still will talk about him.

3. I will never ship another couple.
Ever.
Ever.

4. I will never ship another couple.
Ever.
Ever.
Ever.

5. You get the point right?
I don't need 4-Evers
Do I?

So yeah.

6 years.

72 months 

312 weeks

2190 days

That I have been in
Rob and Kristen's corner.
Happy for them.
Defending them.
Adoring them.

So don't fucking tell me
that I'm not anywhere
but HERE.
Where I have been from the beginning.
Where I will probably always be.


Happy Anniversary RPI

I can't wait to see
what's around the next corner.


This post is brought to you by...

The number 6

6 members of the BritPack

And isn't it great that these guys
are still such good friends?
Doesn't that make you smile?

6 years
of loving 
and
watching
two
endlessly 
fascinating 
people.

6 years
of finding
out
all about
Tom Sturridge
and 
loving
every moment.

6 years
and 6 random pictures
(out of so so many)
(how does one choose??)
of Rob walking...

Still intoxicating
after all these years.

Until next time.

Bye for now.

Happy Halloween!

5 Years of Being Intoxicated...

It's been 5 years.
5 years of being INTOXICATED

I started writing this blog

Oct 20th, 2008.

And as I reflect on what brought me here...

I have to ask myself

5 fucking years?

Is that a good thing...

or not?

Damn.

I looked back at my first post...

(and I will admit that my early posts

make me cringe just a bit)

It was titled...

EDWARD.

You see...

I was ALL about Edward back then.

Edward is what brought me to Robert.

And as soon as I saw this picture...

I KNEW that I was in big trouble.

BIG.

HUGE.

And here I am 5 years later to show you

just how deep I was in...

5 years.

Well...

How about a trip down memory lane?

1. My first post was October 20th...

By October 28th

(Keep in mind this was only a week later)

I posted 'Chemistry'

Here's an excerpt:

I wanted to talk about chemistry.

 As in on screen chemistry.

 As in Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart.

 They have it.

 And better yet, they have it off screen as well. 

I think it is so obvious that there was a little sumthin sumthin

 going on between these two...beyond Edward and Bella. 

I have watched all the videos of the two of them...

and they are just so INTIMATE with each other. 

The way they look at one another...the way Kristen touches Roberts face 

(and that, my friends, is intimate), 

the way they couldn't keep their eyes off of each other at Comic Con...

their body language on and off screen. 

But especially off screen,

 because they are always touching...always close.

Now, I know that they are supposed to be dating other people or whatever.

 But there is definitely something there. 

I don't care what anyone says.

Oct 28th, 2008.

I already could see two people

falling in love with each other.

Do you remember this 'behind the scenes' video

of the EMPIRE photo shoot?

It was... and still remains

one of my favorite videos of Rob and Kristen

(We won't even discuss the Vanity Fair video

because...well... 

What else is there to say?)

ANYWAY.

On October 31st

This is what I had to say about that video...

And then the "Empire Magazine Shoot"...OH MY GOD. 

That is one of my favorite videos thus far. Watching Robert stare at Kristen...

watching Kristen steal a glance at Robert 

(and honestly, who can blame her for wanting to stare at him?).

 The sexual tension... the CHEMISTRY between them is so obvious. 

Yes, I saw Kristen's BF get out of the car with her in Rome...

but seriously...does he even stand a chance? Nope.

 After watching how Robert and Kristen interact with each other...

looking for each other...watching for each other...

feeling obvious comfort being next to each other...

I say its only a matter of time.

 In almost every picture that they took together...

she leaned into him. 

So intimate. 

And you still see it.

there is something I adore about this video

above all else...

Look at the end shot...

They are all standing together...

Kristen next to Rob

She looks over at him

and quickly looks away

like she couldn't control herself.

Did you see Rob react even though

he never looked directly at her?

He flinched at the same time she looked...

THAT'S how connected they were

even 5 years ago.

Beautiful People are indeed Beautiful.

2. I'm going to be completely... shallow here.

I just realized how much I miss Rob's "Edward" hair.

Looking at these old pictures...

watching old videos.

Sure... Rob always looks good no matter how

he has his hair cut...

But I really miss that greasy mop of hair.

3. I love the way Rob walks.

 Still.

Rob's appearance on The Tonight Show

kinda sealed the deal with me.

Especially in how I became completely intoxicated

with the way he moves.

Look at him.

THIS is the Rob I miss the most...

Crumpled

Greasy

Unbuttoned

Scruffy

Smirking

And that fucking walk?

I remain slayed... to this day.

BEST.GIF.EVER.

Yes.

I may not obsess over Rob 

like he's a piece of meat to be devoured...

And my ovaries remain completely intact

But 

My sweet Lord

I can still appreciate

this fucking moment in time.

I truly miss that floppy hair.

I miss it a lot.

Falling in love...for the last time.

4. I might also be missing what the fandom was then...

BEFORE the hate and constant drama.
It was simpler.
Sweeter.
When we all just loved Rob.

(and yeah, some of us love Kristen too)

But we enjoyed what was given to us...

and we laughed.

And we ogled.

(ogled?)

And then we laughed some more.

And we had the whole Twilight experience

in front of us...

and we were all anxious and giddy

about what was yet to come.

*sigh*

I miss that anticipation.
I miss being overwhelmed by all the interviews
and TV appearances
and magazine photoshoots
and premieres
and EVERYTHING.

And number 5.
Tom Sturridge.

Because surely as Edward led me to Robert...
Robert led me to Thomas.
And for that I will be forever grateful.

Tom is my green sheep.

Lou.
Bert.
and
Bart.
Forever.

So let's raise (another) glass
and celebrate 5 years of intoxication.

The BEST is yet to come.
(and won't that be fine?)

Until next time.

Bye for now