ROBkriSTEN

Another day...

No Rob.

Again...

I let my finger gently glide

over the double-edged sword.

My heart aching to see him...

My mind knowing he is happy and safe out of the spotlight...

It's sharp.

It cuts.

It hurts.

Addiction is pain.

Kristen.

Why do I find my thoughts going back to her?

Why do I want people to like her?

Why do I find myself fighting for her?

All good questions...

I have no good answers.

I think if some people

could get past their jealousy...

They would like her too.

She's strong but vulnerable.

Cynical but daring.

Shy but willing.

And she's probably with Rob...

Right now.

Laughing.

Looking into his eyes...

Touching him...

in some intimate way.

That thought alone could

make me dislike her...

But I know that if

she is with Rob?

He's laughing, too...

And that makes me love her.

One of my fav pictures of Rob.

I use this one as my avatar.

Beanie. Check.

Sunglasses. Check.

Open shirt. Check.

Jaw Porn. Check.

Scruff. Check.

And I know he's also wearing...

Those suspenders...

Heavy Sigh. Check.

And I leave this post...

with perhaps my fav pic... ever.

Ever.

He's walking.

Striding.

Moving.

Smiling.

The Hair.

Sunglasses (again)

The suit.

The tie.

The moan.

The sigh.

The ache.

The loss.

I miss you, Rob.

Bye for now ♥

Missing Robert Pattinson...

Ah... The weekend.

The good part? Spending time with the family.

The bad part? Spending time with the family.

Does this make me a horrible person?

Yeah. It does.

But I'm going through Rob withdrawal right now...

I'm irrational. I'm moody.

I'm a grade A bitch. First class.

So... Don't be messing with my Robert Pattinson...

OK?

Here's a small sampling of what I had to deal with...

(and keep in mind this is outside of being wife and mommy...)

Husband: Anything good on TV tonight?

Me: Saturday nights suck on TV....

Husband: Does it have to have VAMPIRES in it to be good to you?

Me: No, it has to have werewolves in it, too...

Son 2: And don't forget the brooding Rob Pattinson.

Husband: Who? Is he the Vampire?

Me: *sighs* I'm going to bed.

And this is why I choose to keep my addiction...

to myself.

I'm not sure what is worse...

Dealing with smartasses who think they know

what they are talking about...

Or dealing with missing Robert.

....

....

Missing Robert.

Way worse.

Bye for now ♥

Twilight Revisited ~ Getting a Rob Fix

I watched Twilight last night.

I was finally home... alone.

Away from people who just don't understand.

I have no idea how many times

I have seen this movie.

So very many.

A scary number, I'm sure.

Not a shock, really...

Considering everything I do

in connection to Twilight Series/Robert Pattinson....

is pretty fucking out there.

Anyway...

The moment Edward walks into the cafeteria?

The best moment in the whole movie.

Catherine Hardwicke and Summit

fucked up a lot of stuff in Twilight...

But casting Robert Pattinson?

Brilliant.

And Edwards entrance still gives me goosebumps.

This isn't a scene from the movie.
It should have been...
But...
We get virtually no affection...
No intimacy in Twilight.
That's why I love this picture.
Bella nuzzling into Edward...
She looks like she belongs there...
Like there is no place
she would rather be... ever.
(Kinda the same with Kristen... right?)
:)

Who the hell is this?
It's not Edward Cullen...
And it really doesn't even look like Rob.
It's a good thing
that this is the first...
and last time
that we saw Rob/Edward
look like this.
Whew.

Gah.
After the last picture...
I really had to cleanse the brain a bit.
THIS is Edward.
So damn sexyhot...
If only they had better utilized Rob
in this movie...
if only they had stayed true to the book...
If only they could have shown
the relationship between Edward and Bella...
If only...

I have high hopes for New Moon.
What I have seen so far...
blows Twilight out of the fucking water.
And that's just 2 minutes of clips.
I can't wait until I can lose myself
with Edward again...
Watch Edward and Bella come to life...
I've missed Edward.
A lot.

I watch Twilight now...
When I find myself missing Rob.
Needing Edward.
It's a nice fix.
I know the movie by heart.
Every movement...
Every word Rob says.
I know Robert by heart.

My heart knows Robert.

Bye for now ♥

Rob and Kristen... A Whispered Romance.

An intriguing invitation
A revealing discovery...
A promise of adventure
A whispered romance...
A question answered
A secret kept.

Couple of thoughts.

1. The picture in this post...
Is it not one of the most beautiful
pictures of Rob and Kristen... ever?
Damn.

And the words underneath...

It's like it was written for them...

Damn.

2. I tried to be nice.
I really did.
But some people like to take
my words...
and twist them to suit their needs.
Or
They put words in my mouth.
*spit* No Thanks

I have plenty of my own words...
I don't need your bullshit.
Truly.
Fuck that noise.

3. What ever happened to Rob's beanie?
What's with all the baseball hats?
Not feeling it.
The beanie is sexy.
(Why? Got me hanging, it just is)
The baseball hats?
Um...
Not so much.

4. I love e. e. cummings.

And this poem...

makes me think of Rob.

Lame? Yeah.

Corny? For sure.

But truth is fucking truth.

i carry your heart with me by E. E. Cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;

and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate(for you are my fate, my sweet)

i want no world(for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Bye for now ♥