Thanks Robert Pattinson!

*EDIT*

Because there is some controversy surrounding the pictures

I used in this post...

I have decided to remove them until further notice.

No, I didn't get a Cease and Desist

I'm not a big blog by any means...

But some blogs did

which means the photographer doesn't want them online.

They are his property... not mine

So until it's OK... I will take them down.
I've had to substitute other Robert pictures.
But let's face it... they are ALL Intoxicating!

OK.

This was some 'behind the scenes' picture from "On The Road"

Garrett Hedlund and Sam Riley on the chair

Tom Sturridge and Kristen Stewart next to them.

Kristen is all blurry.

And Tom has a beer?

I'm shocked.

(No Oreos?)

Anywho.

Onward and Upward.

There were a bunch of Robert pictures released  yesterday.

At least I think they were released.

I have no idea.

I see something I like...

I click and save.

I'm not trying to 'steal' anyone's pictures.

I just like to look at Robert Pattinson...

and share the wonderful intoxication with others.

So... Let us begin.

Let's see how intoxicated we can become...

because quite frankly,

I kinda lost my mind yesterday.

Truly.

Yeah... I talk all big and brave and tough

about how I'm not so obsessed or addicted to Robert anymore.

Yeah.

Right.

And then pictures like these come out.

Simple pictures of the man just sitting there.

Being all fucking gorgeous and killing me.

He still makes my stomach flip.

He still makes me catch my breath.

He still intoxicates me.

Completely.

*Pulls out the Thesaurus*

Elation

Euphoria

Excitement

Exhilaration

Enchantment

Enthusiasm

Exaltation

ECSTASY

Fervor

Frenzy

Flury

FEVER

Gladness

Happiness

Glee

Joy

Just fucking bury me because I'm already dead.

Hysteria

PASSION

Is he sitting on my fucking grave?

Because I will haunt you forever, Robert Pattinson.

FOREVER.

RAPTURE

And this one.

This one is my favorite.

JFC

The hair.

The sunglasses.

The scruff.

The skinny tie.

Robert.

Robert.

Robert.

Robert.

Because that is all it really takes.

Just Robert.

He can be all scruffy and wrinkled...

He can be all polished and poised.

Doesn't fucking matter.

Yes.

My heart is actually beating faster right now.

and...

are those beads of sweat on my brow?

I'm finding it hard to type because my hands are kinda clammy...

(OK, clammy is a silly word... isn't it? I'm not crazy... am I?)

Who am I kidding? Of course I'm crazy.

Have you read up to here?

I'm a complete and total lunatic.

Thanks Robert Pattinson.

Thank you VERY much.

So I did a little tweaking to an INTOXICATION chart...

because... well..

I fucking felt like it.

(and I do apologize for the flurry of fucks in this post...

but see... you can thank Robert for that, too)

As you can see by this magnificent chart...

It doesn't take many Robert pictures to get stoned.

8 pictures and you are gone.

And any guesses how many pics I posted today?

Exactly.

So enjoy the buzz.

The high.

The feeling of fucking euphoria...

Because it is a helluva hangover when you come down.

*sigh*

Did I Thank You for that, too, Robert Pattinson???

Did I?

This post is brought to you by the letters *I* and *K*

I for

INTOXICATION!

Thoroughly and Totally Intoxicated.

(Still Crazy After All These Years)

K for Kristen Stewart!

Because she has that man...

That face

That scruff

Those hands

all to herself whenever she wants.

Way to go, Kristen!!!

Bring on Rio!

Bye for now

♥♥♥

Rob and Kristen- Melt Into Each Others Arms

OK... OK!

I wrote about Thomas yesterday...

Not so much about Robert.

But where the hell IS Robert?

And if he doesn't show his pretty face...

Well...

I just go with what is being talked about.

And yesterday was ALL about Tom.

So.

Still nothing.

Could Brazil be in the near future?

Robert.

Kristen.

Gorgeous location...

I'm thinking that they won't have to work TOO hard

on the 'get me while I'm human' scenes...

You know what I mean?

ANYWAY.

So I open up the blog this morning

and the first song that came on...

"I'll Be Your Lover, Too"

Um.

LOVE Robert singing that song.

LOVE Robert singing.

Where the hell is that CD??

So...

Since there isn't much to say today

(But I'm still doing a good job of saying nothing)

Listen to Robert sing.

It touches my heart.

Look at Robert and Kristen...

They touch my heart... too.

 

I'll be your man
And I'll understand

 

And I'll do my best
To take good care of you

You'll be my queen
I'll be your king

 

 

 And I'll be your lover too
Yeah yeah
Yes I will

Derry down green
Color of my dream
A dream that's daily coming true.

 

 

And ohhh when the day is through
I will come to you and tell you of
Your many charms

And when you look at me
With eyes that see
And we'll melt into each others arms

You'll be my queen
And I'll be your king
And I'll be your lover too

 

 

I'll be your lover, too.

 

*********************************************

So Smitten.

This post is brought to you by the letters *M* and *S*

M for MELTING into each others arms.

*sigh*

S for...

You haven't.

Not even close.

Bye for now

♥♥♥

Rob Pattinson-Still Intoxicated After All These Years

This post is all about Robert.

I really haven't written much about him lately.

Yeah...

I get shit about that.

(I know, it's hard to believe, isn't it?)

But what has Robert done for me lately?

Where the hell IS he?

Haven't seen him since he landed down in ol' Louisiana.

What am I supposed to write if the guy

doesn't show his pretty face?

And I know some people don't want to admit this...

But Kristen is connected to Robert now.

So...

Writing about Kristen...

Usually means Robert is involved.

I've been reflecting on my 'obsession' with Rob.

I don't think I'm in that frame of mind anymore.

I don't think I have been for a while.

Oh don't get me wrong...

I still adore him.

I still am very much interested in his career...

I still adore him.

I still love looking at him.

I still adore him.

But not being as obsessed is good... right?

I've discussed this recently with someone who went through

this whole Robert Pattinson addiction/obsession with me.

She came out on the other side.

I'm still somewhere in the middle.

I might not be as angst-ridden when it comes to Rob...

But I'm still intoxicated.

Still.

I just happen to be in a better place.

Emotionally.

This is a bit embarrassing to admit...

But just LOOKING at pictures of Robert

made my stomach twist in knots...

He had such an effect on me

(and millions of other women)

This is why this blog exists.

I keep trying to figure out WHY he affected me like this.

Why him?

Because no other actor has ever 

EVER

affected me like this.

I'm not a fangirl kinda girl.

But Robert...

Well...

He melts my heart.

It would be dishonest of me not to admit

that the whole Edward Cullen connection didn't have

something to do with my initial attraction.

I mean...

Edward Cullen.

I couldn't get enough of him, either.

Reading the Twilight books end to end to end to end

Finding FanFiction...

and reading about a sexier, more mature...

Edward.

I love Edward Cullen.

And then Robert became Edward.

And I was a goner.

Wave goodbye to Rose!

I still haven't comes to grips with Edward.

But like my Robert addiction...

My Edward addiction has cooled off.

Coincidence?

Probably not.

I still love both the actor

and the character he portrays.

I just have it more under control.

That being said...

I still love you, Robert Pattinson!!

I'm thinking I'm a fan for life.

I can't imagine going through this intense adoration

to let it slip away in a few years.

No.

I'm very loyal to those I love.

But I don't give out my love to just anyone.

The only other beings that I have ever had this degree

of 'obsession' with...

The Beatles.

And more specifically Paul McCartney

(I know I have discussed this before)

I've loved the Beatles since I was 10 years old.

They seriously saved my life when I was a teenager.

Long story. Not exactly for a blog.

But that's how intense my love for the Beatles is.

And now there is Robert.

Sometimes I wish my love for Robert

was just based on something as shallow as just his good looks.

But you all know there is so much more to him than that.

And you all know that is why we all adore him.

He's special.

 So very special.

We all love him because he's not like the other guys.

We all fell in love with him after watching his early interviews...

All his charm...

All his intelligence...

All his wit...

All his humility...

All his adorkability.

Sometimes it makes me feel good knowing I'm not alone...

And sometimes I look around and wonder how 

I can even be in the same fan base as some people.

And last but not least...

Loving Robert means accepting that Kristen

is going to be involved in some way.

She just IS.

She's always there.

It just so happens that I love and adore Kristen, too...

So it's not a problem for me.

It's WIN/WIN

OK then.

I went through this whole post...

And I didn't 'eat hate with a spoon'.

I just talked about Robert.

And it felt good.

Because I have missed my Robert.

I have missed my intoxication.

And now I feel a bit dizzy...

So that's a good sign.

;)

This post is brought to you by the letter *R*

R for ROBERT PATTINSON

Always and forever, Robert...

Bye for now

♥♥♥

New Moon Trailer~ 2 Minutes of Hell

Do you hear that?

It sounds like something pounding...

Really fast...

And do you feel that?

The anxiety... the angst...

Yeah... all from a 2 minute trailer of New Moon.

I'm totally fucked.

Completely.

So....

A version of the new New Moon trailer was leaked online...

And well...

You might as well fucking stick that fork in me...

I'm fucking done.

The movie looks amazing.

(And Chris Weitz is my fucking idol!)

The trailer alone has surpassed Twilight.

And Robert.

Mother of God.

He's so beautiful...

Whether he's looking soulfully into Bella's eyes...

Or being tossed about like a rag doll...

Edward Perfection.

Every time Robert is onscreen...

He looks absolutely tortured and devastated...

And Kristen...

She looks gorgeous.

And the special effects?

Brilliant!

The wolves look good...

The foggy images of Edward...

Especially when Bella is underwater...

and she reaches for him...

and he just flutters away in the water...

GAH.

Again.

I hate that this shit has such a hold over me.

I kept watching the damn thing over and over.

My son finally made a comment...

"Mom... Really... Give it a rest already."

But I can't.

I never will give it a rest.

I'm intoxicated.

All that is Robert/Edward

is running through my veins now...

I've been bitten...

Forever changed.

Bye for now ♥

* Thanks to ThinkingofRob.com for the screencaps.

They always do a brilliant job. Go look.*

My Affair With Robert Pattinson...

I'm having an affair with Rob Pattinson.

Husband doesn't have a clue.

But I go online to meet Robert.

To hear his laugh.

To watch him rake through his hair...

To just stare into his beautiful eyes...

Husband doesn't have a clue.

I am in love with Robert Pattinson.

It should make me cringe just typing that.

But I've come to accept it...

I actually have a NEED to admit it.

When I think of Rob...

My stomach flip-flops.

My heart beats faster...

And anxious desire flows through my body.

Aren't those all the signs of love?

Husband doesn't have a clue.

My love for Robert is a secret.

(well, not here... but you know what I mean)

If anyone in my life knew the extent of my obsession...

Knew the crushing impact that

Rob has on me...

They would surely think there is something wrong with me.

Is there something wrong?

I'm spending hours with someone else.

I'm loving someone else.

I'm always thinking of someone else.

I can't stop myself from wanting someone else...

And Husband doesn't have a clue...

Or does he?

Bye for now ♥

I Fall To Pieces...

I fall to pieces

Each time I see you again

I fall to pieces

How can I be just your friend?

So...

More fucking outtakes.

OUTfuckingTAKES.

Pictures not good enough

for the final cut.

Fucking Right.

I'm sure you have seen them all by now...

I couldn't tear myself away.

No matter how much my heart aches...

I had to look.

I don't know what else to say.

What else IS there to say?

Fuck.

That's all that comes to me.

FUCK.

Robert is so fucking beautiful.

And it fucking kills me.

And it fucking hurts.

Bye for fucking now ♥

P.S. I think the pic in this post...

Is my most fucking favorite of all...

Fuck.

Hurts So Good...

Shit.

That's all I got today.

Again...

I've chosen a picture of Rob

that shows my feelings.

I've read that today

is the last day of filming for Rob

on "Remember Me"

Please God.

Let it be so.

Everyday.

Every damn day.

More and more pictures of Rob.

I feel like I've seen the whole damn movie.

Enough already.

You see...

I'm addicted to Robert Pattinson.

I not only want to see him...

I NEED to see him.

But I need some semblance of control.

A modicum of discipline...

Seeing endless pictures of Rob everyday

isn't fucking helping...

You know?

I feel like I've been punched in the gut.

Oh, and...

What is that red blob on the ground there?

That?

That's just my fucking heart.

It's been ripped out of my chest...

and beat to shit.

And then when they were done

kicking and punching it...

They fucking stomped on it.

So now...

my heart is just a flattened,

bloody,

splattered,

mess.

Kinda like Rob

in this picture.

Go away beautiful boy...

Before I beg you to stay.

You fucking own me

Robert Pattinson.

Isn't that enough?

Bye for now ♥

Passionate Conflict... Loving Rob Pattinson

2 pictures.

They move me in 2 different ways.

My feelings for Rob

confuse the living fuck out of me.

Truly.

It's no wonder that I feel like

I'm going insane.

I feel such conflict.

Passion.

Passionate conflict?

Shit.

This picture drives me nucking futs.

Seriously.

Worn button-fly jeans.

Sliver of underwear.

Triangle of stomach.

Well used "Austin" shirt.

(with only 4 buttons between me and heaven)

Classic sunglasses.

Mid stride.

And.

He's fucking SUCKING on something.

Shit.

Look at his mouth.

I can't fucking look away...

Shit.

This picture breaks my heart.

Is it part of the movie?

Possibly.

But he looks so damn sad.

I want to hug him...

Protect him from whatever is hurting him.

He has looked miserable on this set.

He seems to keep withdrawing

more and more every day.

I want him to be happy again.

Please.

And so that is my dilemma.

On one hand...

my heart lusts for Rob.

on the other...

my heart aches for Rob.

How do I get these feelings

to co-exist?

I'm not sure.

Is it even possible?

Shit.

Bye for now ♥