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Sunday, October 26, 2014

October 20, 2008


It's been 6 years.
Six.
To be honest...
I kinda forgot about the day I started this blog.
It was Oct 20, 2008

In the beginning...
My posts were all about 
Robert and Edward.
Yes. Edward.




This was before Twilight even came out.
I was completely intoxicated with
Edward Cullen.
A book character.
Something that had never happened
to me before
And then...
the intoxication led me to Rob.
And then I became completely 
enamored with an actor.
NEVER
EVER
has that happened to me
before or since.
I didn't get it.
I was bamboozled
Permuddled
Confuzzuled


(how Dr.Seuss of me)
I couldn't wrap my head around
the fact that I was so infatuated
with this character
and the man who played him.

So I started this blog.
6 years ago.
Trying to figure out why.
I never really found my answer.
But I learned a lot.
About people.
About fandoms.
About Robert.
About Kristen.
About Robert and Kristen.


I saw early on that there was 
something happening between them.
By October 28th 
Just 8 days later...
I was already posting about their
on and offline chemistry.

From a post on Oct 28, 2008


"I wanted to talk about chemistry. 
As in on screen chemistry.
 As in Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. 
They have it. And better yet, they have it off screen as well.
 I think it is so obvious that there was 
a little sumthin sumthin going on between these two...
beyond Edward and Bella.
 I have watched all the videos of the two of them...
and they are just so INTIMATE with each other. 
The way they look at one another...
the way Kristen touches Roberts face 
(and that, my friends, is intimate), 
the way they couldn't keep their eyes off
 of each other at Comic Con...
their body language on and off screen. 
But especially off screen,
 because they are always touching...always close.
Now, I know that they are supposed 
to be dating other people or whatever.
 But there is definitely something there.
 I don't care what anyone says.
 And if they get right back into making "New Moon"
 (oh please Lord)
 they will get right back into their chemistry."


Yeah.
So... it really wasn't about 'shipping' for me.
(Never really has been.)
And it most certainly had nothing to do
with me confusing Edward and Bella
with Rob and Kristen.
It was just... Sweet.
Seeing these two people
falling in love with each other
from the beginning...

I found that the more I got to know Kristen
The more I liked Kristen.



It was fun watching them interact with each other
Look at each other
Try not to look at each other
Touch each other
Try not to touch each other.
It was fascinating
and oh so lovely.



I can't tell you how many times
I watched this Empire video back in the day...
They completely intrigued me.
(and yeah, not sure why)
Every moment they are together
you see the magnetic pull
Sometimes they try to fight it
But watch at the end...
Kristen looks quickly at Rob
Rob responds
without even looking at her.
Completely Connected.
That's the kinda stuff I mean.
(And can I just say...
how fucking cute is Rob in this video?
It makes me sooo nostalgic
for these early days *sigh*)

That was then. 
This is now.

 6 years.
 And I've always been behind
Rob and Kristen.
Always.
Even 2 years ago
when things became... difficult
I never turned my back on them.

And I'm not doing that now.
Some people confuse
logic and honesty
for not 'believing' in Rob and Kristen.
I will always believe in them.




But now if you don't think
Rob and Kristen are married and together
You are labeled a 'hater'
Seriously?
I see things as they are.
I don't necessarily LIKE what I see right now...
But I'm not going to pretend I don't see it.

I would love to frolic in 3D Land with you
1-Delusional
2-Desperate
3-Denial




But I don't like it there.
Nothing makes sense in that land
It's actually rather creepy.
Some people are scary.
Up is down
In is out
Under is over
babies are invisible
love is based on hoodies and lies
and cousins- oh my!
There are conspiracies everywhere...
3D land gives me a headache.
It makes me nauseous.
No thanks.



But I'm still here.
I still adore BOTH Rob and Kristen.
I'm still interested in what they do
and what they have to say.
And I will always
Always
Have hope that they will find their way
back together again.
Because yes...
Love is fucking LONG.



So let's talk about
Nicholas Hoult.
(again)

If you mention his name
in the same sentence as Kristen
you are SHIPPING them together!
Good fucking grief.

1. I will never ship another couple again.
Ever.

2. I happen to like Nicholas Hoult. 
If I want to talk about him.
I will.
I think he's cute.
I love his voice.
I don't see why that's a bad thing... You know?



If he hangs out with Kristen...
Lucky him.
And if he doesn't?
I still will think he's cute
and I still will talk about him.

3. I will never ship another couple.
Ever.
Ever.

4. I will never ship another couple.
Ever.
Ever.
Ever.

5. You get the point right?

I don't need 4-Evers
Do I?





So yeah.

6 years.

72 months 

312 weeks

2190 days

That I have been in
Rob and Kristen's corner.
Happy for them.
Defending them.
Adoring them.

So don't fucking tell me
that I'm not anywhere
but HERE.
Where I have been from the beginning.
Where I will probably always be.


Happy Anniversary RPI

I can't wait to see
what's around the next corner.


This post is brought to you by...

The number 6



6 members of the BritPack

And isn't it great that these guys
are still such good friends?
Doesn't that make you smile?



6 years

of loving 
and
watching
two
endlessly 
fascinating 
people.




6 years
of finding
out
all about
Tom Sturridge
and 
loving
every moment.











6 years
and 6 random pictures
(out of so so many)
(how does one choose??)
of Rob walking...

Still intoxicating
after all these years.


Until next time.

Bye for now.


Happy Halloween!

Monday, October 20, 2014

Couple of Thoughts...




1. Kristen was FANTASTIC in CAMP X-RAY!!!
I loved it.
I loved her.
 I loved Peyman Moaadi.
I loved how Kristen can always make me feel
and think... and cry.



2. Rob was AWESOME in The Rover.
I finally got a chance to see it.
And I will admit... Bleak, futuristic stories
aren't usually my cup of tea...
Rob was wonderful.
Believable.
And yeah... He made me cry, too.


Isn't it wonderful that BOTH
Rob and Kristen
are taking on challenging roles
and getting praise for them?



3. Rob has a new girlfriend.
He does.
You don't have to like it... or her
I don't really care where you stand.
But it is what it is.
He was seen holding hands and smiling
and shopping and stuff.


Now...
I will admit that I would prefer
he was hanging out with Kristen
But hey
Rob doesn't take my advice on who he dates.

As far as Twigs go...
I remain indifferent.
She just doesn't matter to me.
Sorry.
She's spending time with Rob
 So I'm supposed to automatically
behave like some of the "Rob Only" fans out there
who SWOOOON and cream their panties over her
and act like her biggest fans?
Yeah. Sure.
(No)


Because let's be honest
They don't give a fuck who Rob holds hands with...
as long as it's NOT KRISTEN.
(You know its true.)

I'm not going to hate on Twigs.
I have no reason to.
Besides...
That's such a Nonsten/Nonbert thing to do.
And who wants to be bitter and angry
all the damn time like they are?

To each their own.


4.  Kristen is in a GREAT place.
Did you listen to her interview with Josh?
She was happy and relaxed and funny.
She looks incredible.
She's getting FANfuckingTASTIC reviews for her movies.

In a recent interview she said:

"I'm really happy right now, overly happy," she says. "I'm definitely not looking furtively — I like to look around at (things). I feel great. I'm not overcoming fear right now."

  "I'm super happy and challenged and inspired and relaxed."


Does she sound like someone who is crying and miserable?
Like someone who is pining away for anyone?
Let me answer that.
NO.


"It's silly. 
(Outside judgment) is so transparently a projection.
 It's so insular.
 It has nothing to do with me. 
It's everyone else's hangups."


5. Rob in back in Toronto!!
Idol's Eye!
Robert De Niro!!!
Shaggy is BACK 
BIG TIME.
(not sure what to make of that shirt, though...)

I'm glad Rob is back on set
and I can't wait to see
what he will look like in character.
And can't WAIT to see all that hair
he is hiding under that beanie...



6. When are the Baby Brigade going to admit they lied?
Rob and Kristen are NOT married with a child.


Isn't that painfully obvious by now?
Instead of admitting that they have been
mind fucking their followers
What do they do?
Well... of course they keep lying!


"Rob is helping Twigs career!"
"Rob and Kristen are Twig's agents!"
"Rob was dealing with a spoiled diva
so that's why he was with her all week"
"Rob is just with Twigs to get attention
away from Kristen and SweetPea"
"Rob and Kristen are just fine!"

Jesus.

Rob and Kristen aren't 'together'.
Say it.
Out loud.
Say it.


Stop with this bullshit.
Rob isn't cheating on Kristen.
Rob isn't hanging out with Twigs
as some sort of PR move for her career.
Rob is dating Twigs.
What happens when Kristen starts dating someone?
Then what?

People need to stop using PR
as their GO TO excuse.
Rob and Kristen were PR.
Rob and Twigs are PR.
Kristen and Nic are PR.

(How many times did I type PR?)
(How many times did I type Twigs?)

It's a TIRED and PATHETIC excuse
to explain away things you don't want to accept.


This post is brought to you by Shippers.

I will always have hope for
Rob and Kristen.
Always.
I love Love.
But that's it.
One ship.
Only ship.


Even if Kristen starts hanging out
with Nicholas Hoult
(who I think is quite cute)
Or anyone else for that matter...
I'm not shipping it.
Nope.

And isn't it amusing how the
"NONSTENS" have now become the SHIPPERS?
BWAHAHAHA.
Sorry.
But that is funny shit.
All the talk of the EPIC LURVEEEEEE!

Oh man...
You can't make this shit up!
TwigBerts!





And as always
This post is brought to you by
my complete adoration of Tom Sturridge.
He makes me happy.


Until next time.

Bye for now.

Relax.
It will be OK.