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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I'm fucking done.


Here I sit, with my laptop humming on my fucking lap. And as much as I would love to stop inserting 'fucking' into every sentence, I fucking can't. So far, it hasn't come out of my fucking mouth...just off my fucking keyboard. Maybe I'm not completely fucking insane.
Yet.
I just wanted to fucking write in here before I am taken somewhere, where I won't have computer access. Fucking bullshit. How am I supposed to survive without my fellow RobKats? Fucking how? I am leaving fucking Jan 1st and will be home sometime on Jan 4th.
My Robsession will be on dangerous fucking overload by the time I get back.
DANGER DANGER FUCKING ROBSESSED.
The lovely ladies of Robsessed...have helped me with my fucking addiction. My fucking overwhelming NEED of all things Robert Pattinson. They fucking understand me. They fucking get me.
They fucking help me deal with this fucking passion, they help me figure out why the fuck I react to Rob so fucking strongly.
Yes. I will be in grave peril come Sunday afternoon. I hope I survive that long...I fucking hope so.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

You're kidding...right?


Someone mentioned to me earlier....that people might actually read this blog. It kinda makes me cringe. Not that I have anything to hide or anything. No. But I truly just write this for my own enjoyment...to get my Robsession under some kind of control (how's that working for you?). I don't go to any great lengths to write properly...or try to impress anyone. Hell...I'm a long way from proper writing style.
I swear too much. I use improper English. I use my coveted "..." way...WAY too much. And I just ramble and rant endlessly about Robert Pattinson. And although I find him most mesmerizing and totally sexy hot...I'm not sure anyone else who reads this would feel the same. But, since I know I, myself, have stumbled upon other peoples blogs...I guess it's only fair to think a few people have stumbled upon this...and probably raced the hell away as fast as they could! Heh. It's OK. Really. I truly understand. My feelings about Robert Pattinson are a bit overwhelming...even for me. And I'm fucking living them. Anyway. Just had to get that off my chest. Or whatever part of my body it was residing.
Cest la vie'. Life goes on.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Fucking Over Thinking...


OK. I was thinking more about the whole Edward/Rob thing. (and seriously, my last post didn't make any fucking sense at all, did it?)
I mean...when I am reading Edward....the picture in my mind...isn't quite Robert. Although it's fucking close. I think the reason is because I had read the books like a zillion times before the movie came out...so my vision of Edward is pretty solid in my head. Shit. I so overthink every fucking thing. And I'm swearing even more than I used to because of that fucking brilliant story "Wide Awake". It's so like "Midnight Sun"...you fucking get all wrapped up in it...and then it fucking stops. UGH. It's very frustrating.
I think I need to watch "Twilight" or something. I am so fucking addicted to Edward/Robert...I need fucking help. And I can't fucking stop adding fucking to every other word.
Too Fucking Funny.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

I just realized...


You know I love Robert Pattinson. I loved Robert Pattinson in Twilight. He was perfect for Edward. And I love Edward. I can't deny that Edward is where my obsession...my Robsession all started. But I just realized something today. I was reading a fan-fic..."Wide Awake". Fucking Brilliant, by the way. But I digress...I'm reading this story (and might I add, that I am continually reading Edward/Bella fan-fic) and this story, this fucking brilliant story of a human Edward/Bella...made me realize that I don't picture Robert as Edward in my mind...when I read about Edward. I have this vision in my head... This perfect, gorgeous, beautiful, FUCKING GLORIOUS Edward. And while Rob is probably the closest existing human on the face of this fucking planet that looks like Edward...he's not quite who I see when I read about Edward.
How the fuck is THAT for a revelation? And excuse all my fucking language. It's from reading "Wide Awake". Fucking Brilliant!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Rob back in London


Although Robert looks absolutely, positively GORGEOUS...he also looks a bit annoyed. Like..."hey asshole, if you weren't here taking my picture, no one would even fucking notice me...Thanks"
I'm loving the hair. I'm loving the face. I'm loving the whole God damn package. Seriously...HELP ME! I'm crushing so hard on this guy. I've NEVER had this kinda obsession with an actor before. I admit that I've obsessed over Paul McCartney and the Beatles...but for some reason musicians seem different...
I wonder if there is any parallel at all. I've seen Paul in concert 5x...and I've seen Twilight(in theaters) 5x. OK, I know I'm stretching here. But other than Paul McCartney, who I have loved and adored for many...many years...Rob is the only other person to ever make me feel the same way.
And although I'm well aware of all of his charm and good looks, I'm still not entirely sure what it is exactly that makes me feel this way. Well...no need to dissect my obsession. I guess I should just accept it and keep obsessing! Or Robsessing, I guess.
Anyway, Rob is back in London...YES! I always feel better knowing he is away from LA and the paparazzi there. Have a safe and happy Crimbo, Rob!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Um...WOW


What can I possibly say here? Rob cut his hair. And he looks hotter than ever! LOOK AT HIM! I mean...FUCKING LOOK AT HIM! Good God. I seriously wonder how much of this I can take without exploding into a million pieces. WHEW. He looks great. Wonderful. Beautiful. Gorgeous.
Just noticed the guy in the background with the cellphone up to his ear. "Hi Honey...guess who is at the Box Store?"
Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
OK, I would respect Rob's space. I would. He said what would he want a fan to do if they see him on the street? IGNORE him. I would try to do that to my best ability. But...well...I couldn't IGNORE him..but I wouldn't scream at him...or even ask for his autograph...Hmmm...Maybe I shouldn't talk of things I really have no idea about. Heh.
OK. Just wanted to post this hot picture of Rob. LOVELY!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

5X a charm!


Well, I did it! I met my Twilight quota. I have seen it 5x in the theater! (countless times on my computer)
I'm not sure if I will be able to catch it again in the theater. I guess it depends on how long it stays in theaters. They are cutting back on the number of showings now...so I have to wonder how much longer. And school is out for Christmas break...and I'm not sure I want to hang out with tweenies.
I might be able to talk my gf's into going one more time...we shall see.
I was going to do a post about my favorite parts of the movie...and I will, eventually. But I counted at least 17 different times that I was blown away by Rob...so pretty much everytime he's onscreen, right? Anyway...I will try to narrow it down to my top ten favorite Rob moments...if I can. Otherwise it will be my 17 favorite Rob moments. Heh.
I am just getting over a real nasty head cold...so I haven't had the patience to write in here much. Sorry. But I will be back to my rambling, inane self soon enough.
Bye for now.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Note to self.


<~~~YUMMY.
OK. This is just a quick note to myself. I just now realized that I don't have hardly any Rob pics on this computer. I have all of them on my laptop!! This one will do, I suppose! Ha!
I am probably going to go see Twilight for the 5th time (in theaters, anyway) today. I was making mental notes of my favorite moments...and I think that will be my next post.
Why am I posting now? Good question. Because I'm a lunatic? Because I just wanted an excuse to post a picture of Rob?
Because I have all this nervous energy and don't know where else to use it? Did I mention that I'm a lunatic?
Yes.
Well, that's about it for now. Later, Alligator (wow that was lame)

Thursday, December 11, 2008

I've lost count.


I am officially nuts. Completely fucking crazy. Absolutely.
I went to see "Twilight" for the 4th time at the theater.
Sad to say that it was moved into one of the smaller venues...nothing like the huge ULTRAscreen I first saw it in.
But that's OK with me...as long as I can still go and see it. Now, I have downloaded a version of Twilight off the internet. I had to. Seriously. The picture quality isn't fantastic...but I can watch it whenever I want to (and let's face it...I always want to). You wanna know how insane I truly am? I went to the movies yesterday to watch it...and then came home and watched it again on my computer. I mean...wtf is wrong with me? I'm pretty sure I've seen the movie at least 10 times...and I'm far from being done with it. I definitely have to get theater #5 in before Christmas break. I'm glad I have a way to watch Twilight for when it does go out of the theaters, and I have no other way to watch it...until the DVD comes out in Spring. There is NO FUCKING WAY I could go months without seeing it...hows THAT for crazy? I can only imagine what will happen to me when I do get the DVD...I better buy at least 2, for when I wear the first one OUT. Damn. I'm so totally fucked up crazy. OK. I'm sorry that I am so full of vulgarities this morning...but sometimes I just can't help myself. I guess that's true in more ways than one.
Bye for now.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Rob in Paris...


Yep. Robert is in Paris...for yet another "Twilight" promo thingy.
He does look delicious, though, doesn't he? Um...yeah.
So...interesting news on the Twilight Movies front. Looks like Catherine Hardwicke isn't coming back to direct either New Moon or Eclipse. Fascinating. The story out of Summit is that they couldn't jive with CH's schedule...but you gotta wonder.
Also said that they were going to film NM and Eclipse back to back. Which is a good idea since the actors are all aging and most of their characters aren't. It also says that in about a year from now New Moon will be out. WOW. I hope this isn't a rush job from Summit. Cash in on the Twilight train while the hype is high. New Moon will be a tricky movie to make in my opinion. First you have to deal with the fact that Edward/Robert isn't in that much of the story. A little in the beginning...and a bit at the end...but there's a whole lotta non Edward in the middle. As much as I LOVE Edward/Rob...I'm not sure how they can bring in more Edward and stay true to the heartbreak/depression that the book sets. Bella can dream about him, I suppose. She does dream in the book...but I'm not sure Edward is actually in the dreams or not. They could just show what Edward is doing...tracking Victoria...moping around being depressed...but doesn't that take away from the angst and sadness that Edward isn't there? Doesn't that take away from the joy and ecstasy when he does finally return? Rob has said he hopes they stay true to the book...I have to agree. Then, of course, they have to deal with the whole werewolf thing. Not gonna be easy if they stay away from cheesy. Heh. And most of all...the whole Taylor/Jacob thing. Not feeling the sexy, you might be able to make me forget Edward vibe from Taylor. But then again...who the hell am I? I'm not sure how I feel about CH being dumped as director, either. I did enjoy her enthusiasm and love of Twilight...but I guess we shall just have to wait and see.
I wanted to go see Twilight again today...but because I keep putting off my whole fucking life because of my Robsession...I really couldn't do it in good faith. Besides the fact that its supposed to snow like a bitch tonight and tomorrow...so I guess I won't be going anywhere then.
I'm so unmotivated about Christmas. Christmas...Robert...Christmas...Robert. It's a slippery slope, my friends. And I'm sliding down it like a motherfucker. Pardon my French. Which brings up full circle back to Rob. He's in France, or at least he was. I was there last summer. And while Paris is a beautiful, historically rich, city...I could honestly take it or leave it.
OK. Enough of my inane ramblings for now.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Liar, Liar, Pants on Fire...


Hello! Did I ever tell you how much I love the picture of Rob that is on the header of my blog? Um...WOW! So fucking hot and sexy. I seriously have to close my eyes and take a deep breath.
So, I'm not sure what I want to talk about today. Nothing much is really going on. Rob has been in the news here and there, but nothing like when he was in the States. Which, I think, is good for him. I'm actually glad that he's not all over the Internet at the moment. Maybe that means he is finally finding some peace. Who knows.
I just wrote a couple of paragraphs ranting and raving about online liars. But I had to delete it because I really started rambling. I really abhor dishonesty. Stupid people (and let's face it...90% of the population are idiots) frustrate the living hell outta me. OK, there's the 'living hell' phrase again...what DOES that mean? Shit. I should just stop typing. I'm in a really REALLY irritated place right now. Probably not a good thing to be putting my emotions and thoughts out there.
I'm being a total bitch. Put up or shut up. That's all I have to say about that.
BTW. I am hopelessly and unconditionally in love with Robert Pattinson. Crushing BIG time on that guy. It kinda hurts to feel this way...ya know? I think maybe you do.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Lots of Robert



*whew* HUGE Rob day today. The Little Ashes trailer came out today (the real one, not just a snippet) and Rob looks awesome in it. I love how he loses himself in this role. I can't wait to see it.

The picture here is from the London premiere of "Twilight". Yes, thousands of screaming teens showed up to show Rob that, they too, can scream and screech at him as good as the Americans! Robert said of his hysterical fans: "It's absolutely mad. I'm in a daze. They're here for the character, not for me. I don't know what to do. I'm terrified of doing the sequel."

I'm wondering how true that quote really is. I'm going to guess that 80% of the tweeners that love Robert right now, call him "Edward". And will probably hate his new movie "Little Ashes" because it isn't Edward at all. I hate to think he's scared of doing the sequels because the screaming banshees have him terrified. Again, I can only imagine how well he is really holding up. It does make me happy that at least he is back home in London, with his family. There has to be a bit of sanity attached to that. I hope he can enjoy his time there to some degree. Kristen was there, too...unfortunately she brought her actor/bodyguard boyfriend with her. His name is Michael Aragano...or something like that. I never heard of him until "Twilight" came out and he was in pictures lurking behind Kristen. He's always lurking behind Kristen. He obviously doesn't have a job. And hasn't for quite some time since he seems to have so much time off to escort his girlfriend around the world. Nice life, I suppose. No offense to Kristen...but it's time to trade up, girl. The boyfriend you get at 16...is not enough for you now. You need someone a bit older...taller...better looking, say....with an English accent. You know who I mean.

On another note. I went and saw "Twilight" for the 3rd time yesterday. 6 other people in the theater. Nice. I also downloaded a version from some movie site...its not the best quality...but I love being able to watch the movie whenever I want to. Never fear, I will probably see the movie at least 2 more times...and there is no doubt in hell I will be buying the DVD when it comes out. I am already on Amazon's Twilight list to let me know when it is coming out.

Other than that...I guess I am done. Time to get some more of Rob. Lots to look at...lots to listen to. Life is good.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Little Ashes



*sigh* I lust after this man. I want to protect him. Conflicting emotions. Scary combination, yes?

OK. As usual, I don't really have much to say today. I didn't get to see "Twilight" today, much to my eternal sadness. We got over 6 inches of snow last night, and it was really blowing and drifting all over the place. Even though after living in Wisconson my whole life, I know how to drive in the snow, there is no need to take risks when not absolutely necessary. I have "Twilight" penciled in for tomorrow afternoon. I really REALLY need to see it again. How's that for scary?

A lot of chatter about the trailer for Rob's next movie coming out this week. "Little Ashes", where he portrays a young Salvador Dali. It is such an interesting and complex role for Rob to take on. It's definitely the polar opposite of Edward. I can't imagine the screaming teenies will want to see Robert in this role. But that's just a guess. As a TRUE fan of Robs, I really REALLY want to see this movie. Rob's acting fascinates me. How he is so willing to lose himself in his roles...how he takes his career so seriously. LOVE that. I'm just hoping that the hype of "Twilight" will let "Little Ashes" be shown somewhere that I can go and see it. And that goes for "How to Be" as well. Rob is so adorable in that one...at least from the clips that I have seen. I find myself searching for other movies of Robs now. But the majority (outside of Harry Potter, of course) were like TV movies made in England, or little unknown indie films. I'm sure that will change now. I hope so. I would like to build my Robert Pattinson Collection very soon.

That's it for now. I need to watch me some Rob. Bye for now.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Casting Twilight


Here I am again. I guess my Robert Ramblings just never go away, do they? Um...no.
Rob is on his 3rd cover of EW this week. Amazing. This is why I subscribed to the magazine a few months ago. For some bizarre reason, EW isn't that readily available around here. But anyway, this post is about the cast of "Twilight".
For the most part, I think the cast is well done. Well, even though Kellen had to dye his blond hair black for Emmett. And Nikki Reed had to dye her brown hair blond for Rosalie...etc. I thought the Cullens were well played. The only cast member I seem to have issue with is Taylor Lautner...who portrays Jacob Black. Don't get me wrong. I think Taylor is PERFECT for Jacob in "Twilight". I really do. I mean, Jacob is 16, outgoing and friendly...a buddy for Bella. Taylor fits that bill wonderfully.
BUT. I don't think he can pull off the hot, sexy, HUGE wolfman that appears in "New Moon" and the following books/movies. Jacob in the next movie has to be enough to make Bella...stop in her tracks...and wonder if she has a future with him. OK, I know her one true and ultimate love is Edward...but she DOES fall in love with Jacob. She does actually picture her future with him. For anyone to have any chance in hell of Bella even pondering for one second, a life outside of Edward...he has to be fucking AWESOME. I mean...steamy, sexy...powerful. Sorry, but that's not Taylor. Taylor is cute and charming...but steamy sexy? No. I dunno. Taylor cannot come close to competing with Robert. I mean...in "Eclipse", Bella is basically torn between two lovers for a bit...and honestly, who in their right mind would believe that of Taylor? He's just too much of a boy to be thrown in with Robert...who is...OBVIOUSLY...all man. Jacob Black is a very important character in the Twilight series. The 3rd side of the triangle. You gotta get it right or it just won't work. Maybe I'm underestimating Taylor...but he will have to grow a few inches...and...um...get sexy hot in a few months. I don't see that happening, folks. Sorry.
Oh yeah. I'm kinda going through a "Twilight" withdrawal. I've seen the movie 2 times so far. And my goal is at least 5 times...but maybe more. And because of this holiday weekend (damn Thanksgiving!) I am going to have to wait until Monday, to see the movie again. For now I am partially satisfied with the Robert interviews and all the movie clips that I have on my computer.
But...Monday Monday...hurry up and get here.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Poor Robert.


Do you think that once the 'hype'
surrounding "Twilight" dies down, that Robert will get some peace? I don't know. I'm thinking that now that he is a known commodity, the paparazzi will always be following him around. The sickening gossip magazines are talking like Rob is headed for a nervous breakdown or something. I seriously don't think that will happen. He is so grounded, he has his family and friends, and even after all this hoopla...he doesn't take himself too seriously. If anyone can handle it, I think its Robert.
I understand that with fame and money comes the fucking paps...and as much as I love to look at pictures of Robert, I don't like seeing the ones where these photographers are hassling him, chasing him, and making him looked seriously annoyed. Remember the scene in the restaurant, where Edward tells Bella.. "I feel protective of you". That's how I feel about Robert. I want to shield him from all the bullshit that is out to get him. I want to make sure that he is OK. That he is safe. That he is happy. I honestly think he will get some peace when he goes back to England. I know that its a big deal there, as well...but Rob will have his family there...and he will know where to go to stay anonymous if he wants to. He just needs some breathing room before his next movie starts (which sounds like in January)...and then with "New Moon" in March. Oh Robert. Please take care of yourself. Don't let anyone mess with who you are. I'm glad that at least Kristen will be with him on the European press junket. He needs to do this with someone, to share the madness with.
I'm so worried about him. I just want to give him a hug. (((Robert)))

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Twilight~ The Movie part 2


OK.
I went to see "Twilight" again.
Yes. Two days in a row. This time I went to see it on an "ULTRA SCREEN" which just means it was a massive screen. Excellent.
Guess what? I still love the movie. I still couldn't take my eyes off of Robert. I still love him.
A couple of things came to mind...
1. Why is Victoria at the prom? Wouldn't Edward 'smell' her there? I get that they want to carry her vengeance into the next movie...but at least make it realistic. And why is she there...but not Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett? Wouldn't it have been just a bit more fun to see the Cullens all dressed up? I don't understand that omission at all, unless it was just budget related.
2. The picture seemed 'dark' to me. Not dark like scary...but dark like...not bright. A lot of the scenes were so dark, it was hard to see clearly. WTF is that about? Trying to carry through a theme? I wish I could have seen some of the scenes more clearly. I doe know. (as Rob always says)
3. Oh yeah, I love the movie. And I probably will go see it again next week, after Thanksgiving and all the kids go back to school. When I went today, I bet there was maybe 6 people in this massively huge theater. Awesome. BUT. For some strange reason half of the people there were like...OLD men? Seriously. One guy came in by himself, had to be in his 60s...and then 2 more came in later...together...and in their 60s as well. I mean. WTF? Old men watching "Twilight"? Who da thunk? Kinda creepy to be honest. Like they were there hoping to stake out the tweenies or something.
4. I love everything about Robert Pattinson. You know the drill. His looks are only part of it. His personality, his wit, his modesty...his charm. He smokes, and that's not a good thing (for him) but at least it lets me know he isn't perfect. Although he is damn close.
5. I love "Twilight". I love Robert.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Twilight~ The Movie


Well, I've finally seen the movie. Yes. What were my impressions...let's see.
1. There were less than 15 people in the theater. Excellent. Although why is it that in the empty theater...the person who talks the most and chomps on her popcorn the loudest...manages to sit behind me?
2. Seeing Robert so large and beautiful onscreen. He takes my breath away. Literally. I'm hyper ventilating just writing this. I'm totally in love.
3. I loved the movie. I have read a lot of negative reviews, but if you are a fan of the books (and a fan of Roberts) you will have loved this movie, too. How can you not? 2 hours of Robert. I don't care if he just sat and read the phonebook. It would have been worth it.
4. The casting was well done. Billy Burke as Charlie was outstanding. It was all good.
5. OK, so some cool parts of the book didn't make the movie. And they changed some stuff around. But. It is a movie after all. And like it's been said, 500 page book into a 2 hour movie some things have to go. I would have liked to have seen a bit more of Edward...dazzling Bella. And Bella losing all train of thought and forgetting to breathe (which I did on more than one occasion).
6. Did I say that Robert Pattinson is the PERFECT Edward? Well, I think he is. BRILLIANT. PERFECTION. Oh yeah, I totally love him.
7. All in all, I loved the movie. Even though I felt like I had seen most of it online. But it was wonderful to see it on the BIG SCREEN. I couldn't take my eyes off of Robert. I didn't want to. Why would anyone?
8. I'm totally in love with Robert Pattinson.
9. I'm pretty sure I'm going to see it again, tomorrow.
10. I'm totally in love with Robert Pattinson.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Nothing


I decided to hold off on my adoration and addiction of Robert Pattinson. UNTIL. Until I see TWILIGHT.
It's been very hard to read how much everyone enjoyed (or didn't enjoy) the movie...and having to wait until Monday.
I'm just not much of a crowd person, so I don't do movies on the weekend. The annoyance far outweighs seeing the movie.
So anyway. This post is nothing. An excuse to post this great picture of Robert and Kristen (don't they look so so so SEXY?)
And I will resume my Robert Ramblings on Monday.
OK? OK.
Bye for now.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Fan or Fanatic?


OK. Well. Loving this picture. I'm really into Rob's sideburns. Pretty hot stuff. And his eyes. His hair. You know the drill.
I wanted to talk about Robert's fans. I count myself among that group, but there is a line that I feel many cross. From FAN to FANATIC. I'm not going to repeat myself (at least not on this topic...today) on how rude and annoying the screaming fan is. This is about the KNOW-IT-ALL Robert fan. You know the ones.
They claim 'insider' knowledge on all the intimate details of Rob's life. They know who he is dating, who his friends are and where he hangs out. Yeah...RIGHT. These fans are also the first to proclaim just how long they have been Rob's fans. "I've loved him longer than you!" Oh brother. I find that kinda talk so tedious. Let's face it, Rob's career isn't that long. And while many of us noticed him in Harry Potter, unless you live in England where many of his TV movies or other projects were aired...you just didn't get a chance to follow his career that closely. Spare me the "I'm his number one fan" bullshit, OK? That's almost a stalker/psycho mentality.
So this morning, Rob and Kristen were on the TODAY show. Same shit...different day. Of course it's always wonderful to see Rob, but how he can possibly stomach the same boring questions day after day (and with a smile, no less) is beyond me. Kristen doesn't look as thrilled. In fact, I realize that she is only 18...but she really needs to smile more. I would tell her just to look at Rob...that would make her smile. Now don't get me wrong, I adore her. I'm all for her hooking up with Robert...but come on, girl...smile just a little smile. So Meredith Viera asked the same lame questions, and then proceeded to drag Rob and Kristen outside to the screaming throngs. WHY? Haven't they had enough of that bullshit? Ok, I will grant you that this group of girls wasn't TOO bad...but it makes me cringe. And btw? It makes Robert cringe too. He's not Edward Cullen. Edward doesn't exist. I mean, I love that character...but you have to be able to separate Robert Pattinson from Edward Cullen. I think he is perfect for the role...but offscreen, he's just Robert. And honestly...THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT! Robert is perfection all on his own.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Twilight Premiere




So. It was the premiere of "Twilight" tonight.
Lovely pictures, yes? Rob probably coulda done a little something with his hair...like maybe wash it. Or something. I dunno. It's not like I'm all about his hair or anything (although I will admit it is incredibly sexy) but this premiere is a HUGE deal. A little shampoo...maybe a comb through it once or twice. I dunno. NOT that he still isn't sexy as all get out. (what exactly does 'all get out' really mean?). He's sexy as living hell. Not sure what that means, either. Sheesh. Words are failing me big time. ANYWAY. I tried to watch the live stream of the red carpet of the premiere. Not fun. Choppy, loud...and of course...the screeching banshees were there in full force. Someone needed to hose them down. Kristen looked great. Didn't see the BF there...I was hoping she came with Rob. Seriously KS, why fucking fight it? Rob will win in the end. Give in now. I'm not sure why I love the two of them together. I think maybe I like the fact that she is strong and smart...and wouldn't let Rob get away with anything. I think he needs someone like her.
Back to the red carpet fiasco. So anyway...shitty picture. Shitty audio. and very little Rob. And like I said before screaming banshees chanting "Rob" over and over inbetween the screams.
Lovely. And what I did get to see...poor Rob was being pushed and pulled every which way. Damn, and they say being a 'movie star' is all fame and glory? Robert's nervous system has to be in shock. I only saw the screaming online...with the volume turned way down...but day after day of that kind of vocal attack has to wreak havoc on you in some way. I hope he gets a few weeks off after the movie comes out. Go home to London, Rob...get away from the loud Americans. Take Kristen with you. Heh.
OK. Not much else to say. Love the guy. He always amazes me with his grace and good humor walking head on into the madness. Hugs Robert Pattinson!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Saturday with Robert Pattinson.

Again, I have nothing to say except my continued ramblings about Robert. Again, I just wanted to post this picture. OhMyFuckingGod.
I just watched another newsclip about Robs 'mobbing' in NY. It truly makes me ill. I know I have ranted about this before, but it is beyond ridiculous, isn't it? OK, let's wait in line for 36 hours, in the cold and rain...let's not get the wristband to meet him for 2 seconds, but at least we get to go to the Q&A afterwards. Let's stand there and scream at anything that moves. THERE HE IS! Let's scream and scream and scream! Rob is covering his ears and looking like he's in pain...LET'S SCREAM SOME MORE! Robert is trying to talk...SCREAM! And let's not just SCREAM...let's throw hard, sharp objects at him in hopes he will pick up our crude way of getting him our phone number (you just KNOW he will call!). Rob looks a bit scared, but what the hell...LET'S SCREAM!!!!! Oh well, because of all the screaming and the fact that no one can hear a word that Rob is trying to say...he is leaving after putting up with 5 minutes of lunatic screaming. So LET'S SCREAM!!!!
Seriously people. GET A FUCKING GRIP. I hope these Hot Topic mobbings are over with now, it gives me a headache just watching them. Poor Robert. I wonder if he thinks its as silly as I do? Probably not, because he is so polite and so much a gentleman...he would never tell how he really feels, would he? I just want to say "Back the fuck off." Sorry if this post is a bit...vulgar. But it irritates the living hell out of me...

Friday, November 14, 2008

OMFG

Let's be honest. I don't have a damn thing to say that I haven't written about before...ad nauseum.
But I just wanted to post this picture of Rob.
I LOVE THIS PICTURE.
There is something about his smile...his casual walk...the shades.
Truly...someone put me out of my misery.

OK. Well, Twilight comes out in a week. A week.
I won't be seeing it until the following week (you know, I don't want to be punching some tweeners in the face when they scream through out the movie...which would mean I would be probably punching out the whole theater. Not a good thing)
I can't wait to see it. I get like...butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it. In fact, I get butterflies (and birds and pterodactyls) in my stomach just thinking about Robert.
I just reread what I wrote. And it's scary. Not the creepy, stalker, screaming, screeching fanatic kinda scary...but scary just the same. Now, I'm aware that I post this shit for myself. I don't do this in hopes of anyone reading this...and Lord knows I'm not anywhere near delusional enough to think Robert would ever find this and read it...but what would he think? What does he think about all these girls and women who just are throwing themselves at him? After watching him go from one 'planned mobbing' to another...I think he kinda likes being screamed at. I mean...he rather encouraged it. It's quite like a rock star, isn't it? Hell, he's young, gorgeous and probably having the time of his life. And while I realize that most of his fans are respectful, decent people...there are those that are VERY FRIGHTENING. Those are the ones that worry me.
*sigh*
I think I will just look at this picture a while longer....it makes me feel better. Rob makes me smile right along with him.
*sigh*
Yes... feeling better now.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Nothing much.

It's all changed for me. Somewhere in the last 6 months...my 'feelings' for Robert Pattinson have changed. It went from liking him...to actually LOVING him. I want all good things for him. I want him to have incredible success. I want him to find LOVE (hopefully with Kristen, or someone like her) and HAPPINESS. I want him to come hang out for a little while. Because you know...YOU KNOW he would be so cool and interesting to just have a drink with and talk to.
It might sound silly to say I 'love' someone I have never (and most likely never will) met...but it's just that the more I know about Rob...the more I care about him. I want to TAKE care of him. I can't find any faults with him...except the fact that he doesn't seem to have a clue to how wonderful he truly is. He's so beautiful. So God damn beautiful. Jesus.
He takes my breath away.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Random Thoughts



Are these not two of the most gorgeous pictures you have ever seen? And these are outtakes? WTF??
Sweet Jesus...Robert Pattinson is beautiful. So is Kristen. Look how completely at ease they are with each other. Takes my breath away.
OK. The Twilight blitz is on. There are interviews and photos and videos EVERYwhere right now. And guess what? I cannot get enough of Rob. Surprise! Surprise! I never get bored with him. He always has something cute, and honest and thoughtful to say.
This week is the 'Hot Topic' mall tour. I have never heard of Hot Topic, but there isn't one around here. Needless to say, after the horror show that happened in San Francisco, other venues were better prepared for the hysteria. I actually find it a bit tedious. Rob has stated in many interviews how frightening and surreal all this screaming is. Being mobbed and screeched at doesn't sound like a lot of fun to me. He said he DOESN'T WANT PEOPLE SITTING OUTSIDE HIS HOUSE. Good grief, I hope these shrieking lunatics never find out where he lives. I don't understand how treating Robert like he is a piece of meat...something to be pulled and ripped apart...is being a fan. Don't you people want to hear what he has to say? Can't you look at his face and see his terror? How does screaming and yelling help anyone? He looks scared a lot of the time...I just want to hug him and protect him from all those scary, creepy people. And you know what the rub is? Robert feels BAD for the fans. He has compassion for those who had sat outside and waited to see him. He's a better celebrity than most people are fans. Show him some R-E-S-P-E-C-T, people. It's not asking much, is it?

Monday, November 10, 2008

Worried for Rob.


OK. So, they had to cancel an appearance by Rob in San Francisco. Why you ask? Because they were expecting only 500+ to show up and they got over 3000 people. WTF? Do these people not have any idea what is going on with Twilight, and specifically Robert Pattinson? So, they didn't have enough security and police to handle all the people. PLUS, there are always going to be the lame ass fans who feel ENTITLED to push and shove and scream, no matter what anyone says. Honestly? I'm glad they cancelled it. Better disappointed fans than a hurt Robert. Some of these so called fans are fucking scary. Rob has said in countless interviews that its just one screaming mob to the next. Does that sound like he enjoys it? He does it as part of his job, but that doesn't mean he has to like it. Get a grip, people. I wouldn't blame Rob one bit if he cancelled the whole mall thing. It's just chaos anyway. One continuous scream. It doesn't matter what he does...what he says...it will all be just screams and screeching...
CREEPY AS HELL, OK? Don't forget Rob isn't a vampire. He's human, and he's only 22 years old. Yes, I said ONLY 22. Cause that's young. And to be thrust into this madness...is scary. I just want him to be protected and taken care of. (((HUGS))) to Robert.
Another thing. The movie is less than 2 weeks away. The onslaught of interviews and movie clips (God, I love the movie clips) is overwhelming at times. I know I use the word "overwhelming" a lot...but it's so apt for describing what I feel. I cannot get enough of Robert...and Kristen...and the movie...but there is so much going on, that I get discombobulated trying to keep up. *sigh*
But its a good thing. I love all the interviews with Rob. He's just so down to earth, so humble, so thoughtful. It's odd how soft spoken he is. I have to turn up my volume just to hear him sometimes. And dammit...he's so sexy. Ok, then.
Robert? Please, PLEASE take care of yourself. Don't let anyone put you in a situation that you are not comfortable with. Stay safe.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Hidden Rob Devotion



Good Morning. Why do I persist in talking to myself? Not sure. "I dunno", as Rob always says. Well, he's right...I dunno.

Not sure how I feel today. This whole Rob thing is just so damn overwhelming. So...confusing. I took a huge step today, and mentioned "Twilight" to a non-Rob obsessed, non Twilight fan. My BEST friend. You could ask how she could be my best friend and not know about Rob? Well, I realize that 'most' people aren't all wrapped up in a book/movie and its stars. I was going to say most NORMAL people (unless you're a tweenager) just don't get so damn involved in this kinda stuff. My friend had NEVER heard of Twilight. Although when I told her the premise of the movie, she was agreeable to go and see it. I kinda told her that I thought the lead actor was pretty damn gorgeous...but I stopped myself from gushing over him. She wouldn't understand. Well, I know that *I* sure as hell don't understand, how could I expect anyone else to? But at least I get one showing of "Twilight" out of the whole thing. Oh, don't for a moment think that I will only see the movie once. HA! I will be there...alone, if need be...at least 5 times. That's my goal. 5 times. More if it is more than I can stand and I must see it as much as possible. Which is scaring me, because I'm pretty sure, even now, that seeing Rob in all his Edward glory on this huge screen...will be more than I can stand. I'm thinking that I should probably go and see the movie by myself first...to get all the pent up emotion out before I share the theater with someone who knows me. How ridiculously strange I am. We have some theaters nearby that have an ULTRA screen... let me quote the theater site...

The UltraScreens®, with razor sharp three-story tall picture, crystal clear digital sound and comfortable stadium seats are Marcus movie magic at its best.The UltraView® auditoriums, boast a screen 75 feet wide by 32 feet tall.*The UltraScreens® take moviegoing to a totally a new level of excitement that can never be experienced at home. The UltraScreens® are more than 500 times bigger than a typical 19”television screen.

Um...Can you imagine Rob 75 feet wide and 32 feet tall??? *Gulp*. It boggles the mind. And honestly, it boggles a few other things as well!! But anyway, I digress. Local theaters around here are selling tickets for the midnight showing of Twilight, but as much as I would love to see Rob as soon as possible...I truly think there will be so much damn screaming that the movie will lose something. I'm so NOT into screaming, screeching...especially when I am trying to hear Rob's voice. I would hate to have to punch some girl in the mouth for screaming in my ear...just as Rob says "GET IN THE CAR"...or "You ARE My Life Now". Oh, I'm not a violent person at all...but don't effin mess with me and Rob, OK??? So where was I before I lost myself in my latest Rob Rant. I dunno. Heh. Oh yeah, the movie. 5 times. Punching little girls. You know, the usual. (oh God...HELP ME!)

Well, It's about time for me to go off on another magazine hunt. Didn't I tell you? Yeah, I'm collecting every magazine with Robert/Twilight on the cover...or with some layout inside...because I just want to hold the mans face in my grubby paws. Did I mention that I am incurably ill and should probably be locked up for the rest of my life? Well, just another secret that I have to learn to deal with on my own...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

I need a break.


Truly, I don't know how much more of this I can take. Yesterday was a HUGE Rob day. Interviews, Radio, Planet Hollywood. It becomes very overwhelming. I don't want to miss a moment...yet, I find myself gasping for air.
Some of these 'fans' scare the living shit out of me. Screeching and screaming at him. WTF? So many of these fanatics seem so rude, like they are ENTITLED to Rob's attention. Give me a break. There was a clip of Rob signing autographs (and you know what? He doesn't have to do that.) and these people were pushing and shoving and screeching at Rob..."I didn't get my autograph!"...and what does Rob do? *He* apologizes to them. It kinda pisses me off. He's too nice for his own good. Not that I expect him to be anything other than a gentleman. You can tell the boy was brought up well. Big hugs to Mom and Dad Pattinson! I'm sure they are proud as hell of their baby boy. I just wish some of these fans would show him a little bit of respect. Treat him like a human being and not a piece of property that they think they have a right to. Rob seems to handle it all with such dignity and with a wonderful sense of humor. I love that about him. I love how important "Twilight" is to him, too. That he is so willing to take on this arduous task of promotion. I don't see any other member of the cast working so damn hard.
Rob? You're a good boy. Handsome, intelligent, witty, warm and compassionate. The total "package". And oh, yeah...I'm totally out of my mind crushing on you. *sigh*

Monday, November 3, 2008

Dreaming...




You know the saying..."Dreaming my life away"...that's what it feels like I am doing lately. I keep wishing for things to come, instead of just living my life one day at a time. It's like I am delusional enough to believe that once "Twilight" is in theaters...life will be perfection. HA! Truly, my life is good. I have a kind and loving husband, who loves me...even given my Robsession. I have 2 beautiful and brilliant sons. Life is good.
Yet, here I am...posting yet again about a man who I know little about. A man who is handsome, talented, and is playing a character in a movie, that I am infatuated with. A man that I just cannot seem to get enough of. How many times am I going to post about this? I see no end in sight. Hell, the reason I do this blog is to get all our my overwhelming feelings for Robert Pattinson OUT IN THE OPEN. I need to do this. I need to understand. It helps that there are so many more like me in this world. So many who love and adore Rob. No, not the scary, creepy kind of love. But the kind of "I wish I could just hug him" love. *sigh*
Paramore's new video "Decode" came out today. It has a lot of scenes from the movie. Scenes I have never seen before. I like the song. I like the video. I love Robert. It just makes my stomach ache all the more. So I close my eyes...and dream.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Let's see...it's all about Rob.


Love this picture. Of course. But I love how Rob so easily turns on his "Edward" in this picture. Look at his face. How can you NOT look at his face?
OK.
I think I decided not to watch the film clip from Rome. You know the one...scenes from the movie...the screams in the audience...it end with Rob playing the piano.
I cry everytime the lullaby starts playing. I mean...it gets so bad that I get a headache from trying NOT to cry.
What's that about? Any idea? WTF?????
Why am I so infatuated with Robert Pattinson? HELP ME, DAMMIT.
He's sweet. He's funny. He's British (and thats a biggie). He's beautiful. He's humble. He has no idea the effect he has on women (well, he probably does now...but I still think he is overwhelmed by it all). He says weird funny things all the time. He's quirky. He's doesn't seem to care if his hair is combed, or clean...or if his clothes look good. He doesn't try to look gorgeous. But he does. And that makes him even more gorgeous. He's tall. He's thin (maybe a bit too thin...but still OK). He's a good actor. His emotions, his acting...he shows you everything on his wonderful face. He's not afraid to take risks in movie roles. He has an incredibly luminous, earth shattering smile. His eyes are truly the window to his soul. He's gorgeous. He's beautiful. He's kind. He's thoughtful. He doesn't take himself too seriously. He looks great with facial hair. He looks great without it. He's BEAUTIFUL.
Got that? Good.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Confusion.


Ok, a couple of things.
1. I'm not sure why my last post turned out like that. It looks like it goes on forever. And I didn't say anything really...that I haven't said before.
Rob is beautiful.
2. Look at this picture. OMFG. Do I ever tire of wanting to just stare at this man? No. Never. I am still trying to come to terms with my Robert Pattinson addiction. I've been thinking a lot about it lately. (Surprise! Surprise! I tend to overthink everything.) Where some people talk about being intimate with Robert...that's not how I really feel. For one thing, he's only 22 years old...for another...I have no delusions about meeting him and having him realize that it is *ME* that is his one and only true love. I'm married. I have kids. That's not how I look at it. I do find myself wanting to know everything about him. Wanting to know what he is saying, what he is doing. I do obsessively look for anything about him online. Watching him in clips of "Twilight" makes my heart ache. I know a lot of my obsession has to do with the character of Edward. Something about Edward has struck a chord with me (and millions of other women), and now I attach that same devotion to Robert. I'm not one of these people who gets all jealous and possessive of who Rob dates and is seen with. I hope he finds love and is happy. I have to clarify that my adoration of Robert Pattinson goes beyond his character in Twilight. I'm now a fan. I want to see other movies he has made (the only one I have seen in full, is Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.). I still cannot fathom where this intense passion...yes, it IS passion, for Robert comes from. It is time consuming, emotionally draining, and it makes me anxious. Not necessarily good things.
For now, all I can do is enjoy Roberts time in the spotlight. Watch him be adorable and sweet in interviews. See how even though he tries so hard NOT to be gorgeous, he is. Breathtakingly Beautiful.
I'm not 'in' love with Robert Pattinson. But I do love him.

Friday, October 31, 2008



This is insane. Truly insane. I just watched the movie clip that they showed in Rome...for the upteenth time. And everytime, when it gets to the end with "Bella's Lullabye"...I feel like I'm about to cry. Yes, Robert Pattinson at the piano is beautiful beyond measure. And the song was wonderful. I guess knowing that he is actually playing the song in the movie...affected me. Big time. There was SO much Rob yesterday...and I tried like hell to take it all in. He was in Rome for a movie festival, so there was a press conference, a red carpet...and there I was watching it on choppy, frustrating video feed, hoping to get more glimpses of Robert. And then the "Empire Magazine Shoot"...OH MY GOD. That is one of my favorite videos thus far. Watching Robert stare at Kristen...watching Kristen steal a glance at Robert (and honestly, who can blame her for wanting to stare at him?). The sexual tension... the CHEMISTRY between them is so obvious. Yes, I saw Kristens BF get out of the car with her in Rome...but seriously...does he even stand a chance? Nope. After watching how Robert and Kristen interact with each other...looking for each other...watching for each other...feeling obvious comfort being next to each other...I say its only a matter of time. In almost every picture that they took together...she leaned into him. So intimate. Sometimes I forget how very young Kristen really is. She is only 18. But she seems mature beyond that...You can tell how uncomfortable doing interviews is for her, because she has a hard time verbalizing what she wants to say. She makes faces...stammers...looks to Rob...

Anyway. Yesterday was VERY emotional for me. Getting all teary eyed at a clip (and not a very good quality clip...but it will suffice for now)...gazing endlessly at Robert...It makes my stomach...hurt. This is ridiculous. This adoration I have for Robert (and yes, Edward. It's the truth, after all) is out of control.

I can only imagine what seeing the actual movie will do to me. I'm kinda scared how I will react.

Lord Help Me.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Chemistry


A picture of Rob from last night. Mother of God.
OK.
I wanted to talk about chemistry. As in on screen chemistry. As in Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. They have it. And better yet, they have it off screen as well. I think it is so obvious that there was a little sumthin sumthin going on between these two...beyond Edward and Bella. I have watched all the videos of the two of them...and they are just so INTIMATE with each other. The way they look at one another...the way Kristen touches Roberts face (and that, my friends, is intimate), the way they couldn't keep their eyes off of each other at Comic Con...their body language on and off screen. But especially off screen, because they are always touching...always close.
Now, I know that they are supposed to be dating other people or whatever. But there is definitely something there. I don't care what anyone says. And if they get right back into making "New Moon" (oh please Lord) they will get right back into their chemisty.
OK. I'm just looking at Rob's face again. Did I even suggest in a previous post that he wasn't as sexy as in previous pictures? Did I???? Well...I WAS WRONG. He's dead sexy. And I need a drink of water. Or a shot. What was that shot that someone (I think it was Jewels) was talking about in a post...ULTIMATE ORGASM. Yes. That's what I need right now. YES.

Rob Explosion


Good grief. Just when I think I have my addiction under control...the cravings are managable....
BOOM! POW! BANG!
Robert is everywhere.
A couple of more new 'trailers' have come out the last couple of days. But my absolute favorite...is the 'Theories" one from MSN. It's an actual scene from the movie, and not just voice overs and clips. How in the world did Robert figure out the 'velvet' voice of Edward? How? I mean...the opening scene...she drops the apple...he kicks it up into his hands (the Twilight cover shot) and says "Bella". That's all he says. Bella. And I melted into a puddle of goo. Kristen Stewart is a better actress than I ever knew, if she can be with him, kiss him...be THAT close to him all the time...and not just JUMP that boy.
ACK!
Robert also won some movie/actor award (sorry for not knowing the exact name...) and the pictures of him are a bit more subdued than recent past. His hair isn't as enormously sexy and huge as usual, and he even dressed up. Ok, he wore a suit...and it wasn't all wrinkled and it looked like it fit him...but lets face it, his hair was still a mess...and he wasn't even close to clean shaven. That's our Rob. He still looked beautiful, didn't he? Yes. Yes he did.
All I find myself doing is watching and rewatching the video clips...the interviews...because now I'm so damn anxious to see this damn movie. I can only imagine what will be coming at me in the weeks leading up to its release. I can take it...that much I am sure of...but it only seems to make me hunger even more for Robert/Edward. I keep forgetting to breathe...

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Sunday morning rant.


Sometimes I wish I could just sit and stare at Robert Pattinson all day long. And listen to his voice. And watch him smile, or pull his fingers through his hair. But alas...it's hard to do when you have a 'so-called' life.
Anyway.
God. Just looking at this picture. It almost makes me cry. And that makes me feel so silly. Want to hear something else ridiculous? Every time...EVERY TIME I watch the movie trailer...and it come to the end where Edward is leaning into the car, looking at Bella...and says...
"You ARE my life now".
I tear up. I do. Robert says it with such passion...such conviction.
UGH.
I'm too old for this shit. I really am. And yet, I absolutely cannot get enough of Robert Pattinson. I am so bewildered by this obsession. It's mind boggling.
OK.
What I really wanted to talk about this morning was why I adore Robert Pattinson so much. I am trying to figure out this burning need to see him countless times a day....OK.
1. He's drop dead dreamy. That truly goes without saying, but sometimes you have to state the obvious first. I mean...the hair...the eyes...the jawline...the smile...the whole package. Oh yeah, and his voice. GOD his voice. I'm a sucker for British accents...but even Rob's voice with no accent is beyond measure.
2. He's not a pretty boy. Yes, he is gorgeous, but he doesn't TRY to be gorgeous. Well, he doesn't have to try. But he goes out in public with wrinkled, ill fitting clothes...sometimes more than a day at a time...and his hair isn't styled and his clothes aren't designer. He doesn't CARE. He doesn't shave most of the time and admits to not washing his hair. But who looks better than he does? NO ONE. He's all the more beautiful because its effortless, and because he stays true to himself.
3. His face. Again...goes without saying..but I'm talking about how his face shows his emotions, especially when he is acting. The clip from "Twilight" when he is in the bedroom with Bella...and he reaches for her...the pain...the struggle to be gentle...to touch her...is so evident on his face. He's going to be a great actor. I can't wait.
4. He's so down to earth. At least so far. He truly seems so surprised that people adore him. And yes...while much of the adoration is connected to the character of Edward...He still seems to want to please his fans. To make them happy by signing endless autographs...being available for Q&As. The bigger he gets, the more that might stop existing...and thats too bad.
5. Did I say how beautiful he is???
6. His smile...his laugh. He really seems like someone that would just be fun to hang out with. He seems like someone who could make you laugh while you share a few drinks...
7. Ok, I guess thats enough of a rant for today. Maybe. I may be back. :)

Saturday, October 25, 2008


Good God. Robert Pattinson with sunglasses. Effin' dreamy beyond compare. I seriously need to take a deep breath, I feel like Bella and I stop breathing. Whew.
OK. On to other things. A commercial teaser for Twilight was posted last night. It's only 30 seconds long. Honestly, I have NO idea how many times I have watched that clip. It could add up to hours by now. Robert Pattinson speaks different lines in this clip...
"Get in the car". *THUD*
Yeah, its a little different than the book, because he gets out of the car here...but Robert Pattinson's voice is as perfect as the rest of him. It oozes sexuality.
"I feel very protective of you" *Double THUD*
Good Grief. His voice is velvet.
"You do this a lot?" OK, that is Kristen's line...but Roberts response? A heart breaking smile. Is it the crooked smile that Bella loves? It might be.
I have to close my eyes for a moment...take a deep breath...and compose myself. It's not easy. Seriously.
I am sooo anxious for "Twilight". It is actually stressful to wait for it. I want to see it so bad...but I know that just once will not be enough. And I know that my friends in my 'real' life will willingly go once for me...but more? No. I will probably end up going by myself the next couple of dozen times. Heh. I actually don't have a problem going to the movies by myself. I mean, seriously...sitting in a dark theater isn't really a social thing. I don't need anyone to be next to me to adore Robert. In fact, it might be less embarrassing if I were alone...all my groaning and moaning every time he speaks might give my obsession away! But having to wait for the movie is excruciating. Painful. And then...having to wait for the DVD...Oh man, I don't even want to think about that yet.
I feel like I am wishing my life away...in 30 second increments. And still? I really don't know WHY I am obsessing so MUCH for Robert Pattinson/Edward. I honestly don't know why this is different from other things that I have come across. I don't understand the catalyst here...making Robert Pattinson and Twilight a driving focus of my life. I guess that's another post for another time.
I do have a lot to say about this subject....so stay tuned.

Disclaimer of sorts.



Ok. A couple of things.

1. I know that noone reads this blog but me...but I feel the need to apologize if I have taken someones pictures. I mean no harm. I just decided to begin each post with a glorious picture of Robert Pattinson. Is that wrong? I didn't think so.

2. Look at this picture. He's obviously quite a bit younger here...and what is he doing? Running those long beautiful fingers through that sexy hair. It makes me wonder how long that has been a habit of his. It makes me wonder how his hair would feel between *my* fingers.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Robert...again.


I truly need to take a deep breath, here. After all the joking on RPL about this megaphone...this picture turns up with his one hand going through that glorious 'sex' hair...and the other holding...a...a...MEGAPHONE! Look at that face! He looks slightly embarassed to have to speak through it...and even with that strange form of amplication...his voice (that sexy British voice) is still soft spoken and to DIE FOR! I honestly cannot remember the last time I have ever OBSESSED over someone like this. I mean...yes, Robert Pattinson is beyond beautiful, sexy, PERFECTION. But why am I reacting so strongly? Is it the hair? The eyes? The Megaphone????
I honestly don't have an answer for this...except the connection to Edward Cullen. When I look at Robert, I see Edward. And I like seeing Edward. A lot. And I like looking at Robert. A lot. Good grief. I need help.
MEGAPHONE MEGAPHONE MEGAPHONE.
Help me.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Fan or Fanatic?


:::sigh::: He's so beautiful, isn't he? Another of my favorite pictures of "Edward/Rob". But enough swooning for the moment.
I'm worried about Robert Pattinson.
There were disturbing videos of him arriving in Mexico. The poor boy. People clamoring around him so that he couldn't move...screeching "Rob" over and over again. He was trying to be kind and patient...you could see him smile (although, there was fear in his beautiful eyes). The most painful part of the video was at the end. Rob saw freedom, and made a run for it. Run, Rob, RUN! (Stay, Rob, Stay).
I can say with much satisfaction that I am not THAT kind of fan. Yes, I adore him. Yes, I find him attractive beyond measure. But would I screech at him and push a camera in his face? No. I honestly believe that Robert is finding this sudden and overpowering fandom...bewildering. Before "Twilight" made any kind of headlines...he was just that guy who was in one of the Harry Potter movies. Ok, he was that dreamy guy in the Harry Potter movie. But nonetheless. The fact that Robert Pattinson is effin' GORGEOUS has been in the public eye since "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" was released. That was a HUGE movie, was it not? Robert's role was quite noticeable...yes? So why now is there so much 'hoopla' surrounding him?Simple. It's because he is now EDWARD. Stephenie Meyers has written a character so perfect, so beautiful, so easily obsessed over...that all of the love, adoration and lust...has been put onto Robert. Not that he doesn't deserve recognition. Not that I'm not thrilled for him and his soon to be bustling career. But Edward to Robert is what Jack to Leo DiCaprio was. GIGANTIC. LIFE CHANGING. Look at Leo now. LOOK. He's one of the most sought after and watched celebrities. He has his pick of movie roles and models (something I'm sure Robert already has...lol). Leo was positively DREAMY in "Titanic". Robert is positively DREAMY in "Twilight.
Robert now will never be the same after "Twilight" is released. He is about to be catapulted into the universe. I doubt he will be able to be so down to earth and acessible as he is now. People like the 'fans' in Mexico won't let him.
Robert needs to be protected. I don't want to watch him look scared and annoyed as people who don't know how to behave with another human being, chase him through airports.
I love Robert from afar. I know that is all it will ever be. That's good enough.
As for the "fan"atics? Take a deep breath and THINK about what you are doing.
Robert isn't really unbreakable, or strong and fast like a superhero.
He's human.
What if you're the bad guy?

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Robert/Edward


And so the obsession continues. This is one of my favorite "Edward" pictures. It seems to be the true essence of what he is...how much he loves and wants to protect Bella.
I sometimes wish that I could stop the obsession for just a little while. When I finish one of the books (and although I have read through the series so many times I have lost count), it is always with pause that I begin the next. Trying to see how long I can actually go...before I must read Edwards words. My sons have noticed my obsession, and I must admit that it is a bit embarassing to have someone else notice what I am constantly reading ("Mom, you are going to read those books into dust"), or what I am always looking at online ("How many times can you watch that movie trailer??"). I honestly didn't believe that my behavior gave me away. That my obsession was so...visible.
I have 2 sons. They aren't into "Twilight"...they don't understand how beautiful Robert Pattinson is. They don't understand the perfection...that is Edward. Hell, I don't even understand it.
I do know that it helps me to write about it here. I do know that it helps to know that there are so many other ladies out there...married with children...who are going through their own form of obsession. Some are more obsessed than me (and truly..that IS scary to think about) and some (let's be honest here...most) are not. But it does help. It does help to know that I am not alone....at least not in this.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Robert Pattinson

Ok. I will admit to being a fairly new member of the Robsession that has swept through the land. I DID notice him in the Harry Potter film...I mean...who wouldn't? But his career has been under the radar until "Twilight". And now I have noticed.
I find myself scouring the internet for any and all news about him.
I find myself looking through endless photos and videos of him.
I watch the Twilight movie trailer numerous times a day.
I think in an interview, Rob admitted that the fans adoration had more to do with Edward Cullen than it had to do with him. And that is probably true in many ways. But now I am interested in his other movies. I long to see "How To Be", and the little I have seen makes me appreciate his acting ability. For he is a fine actor. His face shows so much emotion...
I watched the clip that was cut from "Vanity Fair" (I think that was the title...with Reese Witherspoon) and I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. I watched his performance in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, and his face again...does much of his acting.
And what a face.
So beautiful. So glorious. Perfection.
I enjoy seeing all the pictures of him online...I look forward to seeing all the upcoming interviews and pictures to come. But as much as I am crushing on Robert Pattinson...my initial feeling for him...is maternal in nature. I want to protect him. I want to take care of him.
I don't want people to hurt him. As much as I love the fact that he will be more visible, in more movies...I worry that also makes him a target for those who want to cut him down.
Robert Pattinson seems like a down to earth kinda guy. He doesn't seem to take himself too seriously. He seems genuine and nice. I hope he stays that way.
He is such perfection. Please take care of yourself, Robert.