This is a birthday post I wrote for Kristen 3 years ago.
Funny.
Outside of her 'age'...
Nothing has changed.
I could write the same post today.
And here we are.
There is a quote I remember that someone said about her
That I could never get out of my mind.
It sits there
in the back of my head.
Because it's so fucking true.
" KRISTEN IS SOMEONE WHO COMMANDS THE LENS
BY SIMPLY STANDING IN FRONT OF IT."
Happy 30th, Kristen
It's been a helluva ride.
Thanks for letting me ride along.
And so it goes.
🌹
Sunday, April 9, 2017
27 Years a Kristen.
Happy Birthday
Kristen!
I could easily go on a long winded spiel
about the whys and hows
of my complete
and utter
adoration
of
Kristen Stewart...
But.
I've decided to just post a few of my
favorite pictures
and maybe just try to put into words
my thoughts about her.
I'm not sure exactly when
my thoughts about Kristen changed...
Before Twilight I didn't really know much about her.
And I have to admit that I was kinda jealous
when I found out she was BELLA
to Robert's EDWARD.
I guess that's when it began.
When I started watching her and Rob
fall in love.
I became fascinated with her.
She gave these quirky
bouncy
awkward
interviews...
And I found myself wanting to know more.
She made movies that I found fascinating.
And I wanted to see more.
She said things that made me think.
And I wanted to hear more.
She marched to the beat
of her own drum...
And she became polarizing.
The more Rob loved Kristen...
The more some people hated her.
No matter what she did.
She didn't have to do anything.
She was constantly
and brutally attacked
on social media.
I found myself defending her.
Vehemently.
I'm not even sure why I felt the need
to...
protect her.
But I did.
Here was this tiny little girl...
(and keep in mind a lot of the abuse
she received was when she was a teenager)
Who wasn't hurting anyone...
Just loving her boyfriend
living her life...
I continued to defend her...
Even when she hurt Robert.
Because no matter how you want to look at it...
We don't know what happened between them.
We only know scattered bits and pieces.
Rob took her back.
Rob forgave her.
Rob still loved her.
Even if I was disappointed...
(I hate to see anyone get hurt)
It wasn't my place to judge her.
She didn't do anything to me.
It wasn't my relationship...
But this was the breaking point for many.
They couldn't get past it.
They behaved as the jilted lover...
The attacks were vile and bitter.
And yet...
I saw a girl who was hurting too.
I still wanted to shield her.
Stop the hate from reaching her.
I couldn't help it.
No one who judged her
(and continues to do so to this day)
can sit back and claim to never
have hurt someone...
To be free from sin
To be free from doing something they regret.
I believe Rob and Kristen truly loved each other
But sometimes that's not enough.
Sometimes you grow up...
and relationships... don't.
One of the things I love about her the most...
is her fierce determination
to just live her life on her terms.
She's not worried if you approve.
She's not concerned if you don't agree.
A lot of people judge her life
based on what THEY would do
in her situation.
But it doesn't work that way.
So what if you would have 'time alone'
after a break up...
So what if you wouldn't want your friends
hanging around all the time...
So what if you disagree with the
way she chooses to live her life.
So what.
You live your life your way...
let Kristen live hers the way she wants to.
You have to realize by now
that Kristen will rarely do what you want
her to do...
If it upsets you so much
that you get angry and frustrated and judgey
maybe you should ask yourself why.
I have had people ask me why I was such a fan
of Kristen's.
I'm not quite sure I can put it into words.
I find her completely captivating on screen.
I can't look away
and want her to be in every frame.
I love most of her movies.
Even the weird strange roles...
It doesn't matter.
If Kristen is in it?
I want to watch it.
Kristen is devastatingly beautiful.
I mean...
I realize that's not a reason to admire someone...
But I love that she's so damn gorgeous
and it doesn't seem to matter to her at all.
Like its not that important
in the grand scheme of things..
And I guess that's true.
I love that Kristen's career has been
on fucking fire for the last coupe of years...
and that she is getting some of the best reviews ever.
She keeps getting better
and better.
And I will admit that I love
that her critics have had to swallow
their bitter pills
when they claimed she was "OVER"
and that she would never work again.
I love that she's not afraid to try new things.
Directing.
Starring in a Rolling Stone video.
Shaving off her hair.
Hosting Saturday Night Live.
She's brave.
Even when she knows she might fail...
She still tries.
She's honest.
She says things that she believes...
even when its not always the most popular opinion.
She's flawed.
Like every other human being out there.
But that's part of her incredible charm.
She loves animals.
How can you not love someone
who loves her puppies so damn much?
She's awkward and real
and says how she feels
and sometimes she doesn't express herself
in the best way...
or sometimes she says
or does something I don't agree with.
But I still admire
that she's there
trying to explain what she's thinking.
It's not that easy to do.
I should know.
I just tried to explain how I felt about Kristen
on her 27th birthday...
and I have rambled on and on
trying to make sense of my thoughts.
It's hard to put feelings into words sometimes.
This post is brought to you by
Kristen Stewart.
Happy 27th Birthday!
I hope you have happiness
and love and peace and joy
this day
and every day.
You deserve all of it.
Until next time
Bye for now.
Bye for now.
