A Couple of Things...

Hello dear reader.

Are you still there?

I am!

I know its been almost a year since the last time

I wrote in here...

but to be fair

We have been going through a global pandemic.

And we did just get rid of the worst president

that this country has ever seen

(yes, my opinion... as always)

So if you are still, indeed, a dear reader...

Thank you.

I'm in a better place now

I hope you are too.

There does seem to be a light

at the end of the tunnel.

Things seem brighter

And getting better all the time...

(couldn't get much worse)

I had a shitty year.

I lost 2 people who were very close to me

within 3 months of each other.

But then again,

compared to other people

I'm doing OK.

I have my health.

I haven't had financial hardships.

My family and friends are doing pretty good.

I'm still here.

I’m still standing.

So that leads me to this blog

and why I decided after a horrible year

and almost a year of absence...

Why I decided to write again.

Couple of things.

1. I love to write.

Even though I do it for a living

Writing this blog

Helps me express my feelings

and opinions

and thoughts...

And sort through how I feel

And why I’m feeling it.

I still enjoy writing about 

Robert Pattinson

and

Kristen Stewart.

So here I am.

2. I was going through old emails and texts

that I found on my old laptop...

and WOW.

I mean.

I found shit from 10 years ago.

Was I really so fucking intense?

I mean

seriously, folks.

I was way

WAY

WAY

FUCKING WAY

too invested in the whole Robsten drama.

I didn't even know what "shipping" meant at first.

Really.

But I guess when you love two people together

and get all verklempt and emotional

over every fucking picture and interview...

Well.

I guess that's shipping.

And I was a phenomenal shipper.

I did an exceptional job.

It was glorious fun and joy

watching two people fall in love

and be in love

and like just love... love.

But fucking A.

When those same two people break up?

APOCALYSPE!

End of the WORLD!

“Human sacrifice! Dogs and cats living together! Mass hysteria!”

I was overwrought.

I was upset.

I was...

OVER INVESTED.

Jesus.

I look back at that now and go

"WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?"

Seriously.

You can enjoy people being together.

You can enjoy seeing pictures

You can speculate

and have fun with it

without getting emotional

over two people who truly

don't care what you want or believe.

I can look back now

from the comfort of my 

knowledge and wisdom

(hahahaha)

and see how I got sucked

into the vortex of the fandom.

It was intoxicating

wasn't it?

It was like the giddy fun part 

of being drunk...

Until you wake up the next

morning with a massive headache

and your stomach feeling

like you swallowed dirt.

There comes a time to fucking sober up

you know?

You live

You learn 

If you’re lucky.

3. I still adore Rob and Kristen.

Rob is Batman.

BATfuckingMAN.

I still can’t get over it.

But I love it 

And can’t WAIT to see him all dark and moody

And vengeful...

Kristen is a Princess.

She’s like a chameleon

And she makes every role she plays

fascinating and thought provoking.

“ Someone who just commands the lens 

simply by standing in front of it.”

Way cool.

They still hold s.w.a.y.

over me.

And I'm OK with that

because I still wanna know what is

going on with them.

I’m still following their careers

And I still look forward to every movie they do.

I guess that's what is called...

A FAN

(~ of Both!)

(Couldn’t resist)

Still crazy after all these years.

4. I made a lot of friends here.

Also some enemies along the way.

I don't open myself to people online very often.

I'm cynical.

I'm wary.

And I've been burned.

But...

Reading old emails and texts

made me realize 

how sometimes things got twisted

And I may have gotten carried away

about things that never really mattered

and looking back...

It wasn't worth it.

To whom it may concern

I'm so very sorry.

You know who you are.

OK.

Enough of the weirdly sad nostalgia.

I really am in a good place these days.

I look forward to more Rob and Kristen

in the future.

Let's not forget this guy...

(I haven’t)

Thomas Sturridge

IS DREAM.

You got that right.

Green Sheep.

Forever.

Be Safe.

Be Happy.

Until next time.

🌹

(See ya April 9th!)

We'll Always Have Forks...

So...

I've been kinda busy lately.

Life comes at you pretty hard sometimes.

Is that a line from a movie?

Probably.
Sorta.

(Bueller?)

Anyway.

There has been LOTS of Rob and Kristen

(and even some Thomas )

in the news.

Rob was at some Dior thingy

Kristen was at some Chanel thingy

They both looked

P.H.E.N.O.M.E.N.A.L. 

I mean...

with a fucking capital P.

And be honest...

Did it make you kinda giddy that Dean was there with Rob?

Like

all is right with the world.

Things are as they should be.

Seriously.

Wow.

Isn't it wonderful that BOTH

Rob and Kristen

are doing so well in their careers?
They are getting wonderful reviews from critics.

They BOTH look incredible.
They seem happy with their lives.

Isn't it great?

I wish it would be so easy and peaceful.

But alas...

We still get the idiots who have to trash one

to build up the other.

And I mean that on all sides of the aisle.
(Can an aisle have more than 2 sides?)

Take this recent incident... for example.
Rob and Kristen were on the SAME FLIGHT
from Paris to LAX.
OH NO!!!!
#Planegate!
#Flightgate!

Seriously.
The angst
The bitterness
The anger
The giddiness
The nostalgia
The laughs
The endless searching of airplane seating charts!
(It was all fucking hilarious... really)

So HKN and LoonLurker and their crew were SOOOO happy!
Truth Bombs People!
Because if you ride on the same flight as someone...
It means
It means
It means you are secretly married with 3 babies
and you are about to SHARE THE TRUTH
with the world!
OF COURSE IT DOES!!!
Who could possibly miss these kind of signs??
Rob and Kristen had cars waiting for them
and they were parked NEXT to each other!!
They walked through the SAME airport
and out the SAME doors!
TRUTH BOMBS!

And don't you know...

That crease...
That crease on her flat tummy
that's PROOF of her having 3 babies!
Some sort of c-section scar...
OR
It's her showing the world that she is
PREGNANT AGAIN!!!
Maybe twins this time!
(Bella and Edward!!)
Babies number 4 and 5!!
OR
It's from sitting on a plane for 11 hours.
(nah... that's too sane)
I mean...
Kristen's Mom Jules LIKED the pic!
That means BABIES!!!

Yeah... pretty fucking CRAZY isn't it?
And it never stops.
No matter that Kristen was on the plane
with her girlfriend, Stella.
Let's just ignore that Stella has been in her life
EVERYWHERE in her life for months.
Let's just ignore all the pictures of Rob and Twigs
that have been out there for years.
Let's just scream PR! PHOTOSHOP!
whenever something comes up that shows
that you are completely delusional.
Let's ignore every rational thought
 and focus on that crease!
TRUTH BOMBS!!

And let's not forget the PRessed 'fans' OK?
Some of them were pulling out airplane seating charts...
We can't have Rob sitting near Kristen!!
Wait!
There had to be other flights!
Rob and/or Kristen wouldn't fly on purpose on the same plane!
Was this some bizarre PR move by Kristen?
Was she trying to 'cash in' on Rob... AGAIN?
(hahahahahahaha)
It burns their biscuits
that Rob and Kristen were in close proximity
for any length of time
Even though as I mentioned before...
Kristen was with Stella.
(Poor Stella... always thrown aside)
And Rob and Kristen have been broken up for years
(REPEAT AFTER ME- ROB AND KRISTEN
ARE NO LONGER TOGETHER
SO WHY DOES KRISTEN STILL BOTHER YOU??
OR
WHY DOES ROB STILL BOTHER YOU??)
There were all these bitter rants...
(My favorite being this one)
"ROBSTEN IS DEAD BITCHES!"
"ROB AND KRISTEN
WILL NEVER EVER BE TOGETHER AGAIN!!"

No shit?
It was a fucking plane ride, Dickwad.
Why so fucking worried?

No one has any idea what kind of relationship
Rob and Kristen may or may not have.
They could be friendly.
They could talk.
Who knows?
It doesn't mean they are going to run back
into each others arms... 
Does anyone really want that at this point?
(OK... Don't fucking answer that.)
Let's face it...
No matter where they are now
No matter if they talk or not
Even if they hate each others guts...
Kristen will always have so much more of Rob
than you ever will.

There has been an endless showings

of Twilight... New Moon... etc

on TV lately.

I read that some people have a hard time

watching these movies.

I don't feel that way.

I enjoy them.

Twilight and New Moon especially.

They make me smile.

Rob and Kristen make me smile.

They were so in love...

and going through the Twilight Tornado...

Together.

Their bond was so strong.

It was fun to watch.

It may be over

but we'll always have Forks.

This post is brought to you by the letter L

and the letter T.

L for

Fucking LET it go.

Stop bitching about Kristen for just ONE day.

Do you think its possible?

Stop insulting Rob for 24 hours...

Can you do it?

Stop comparing Kristen and Twigs

and leave them both alone.

Stop using one as an excuse to bash the other.
Stop pretending you know what is going on
in their personal lives.
You don't.
Stop vomiting bullshit and declaring it the truth.
Just because you say it...
doesn't make it TRUE.

T for...

TOM!

He's in the play 1984

and let's talk about how quirky and weird Tom is.

I love it.

He's so... Tom.

Part of his ENORMOUS charm.

Green Sheep.

Fucking Forever.

P.S. New Moon is on my TV right now...

and my favorite quote was just on

Jake- I love you

So... Please... don't make me choose.

Because it will be him.

It's always been him.

It's always been him.

Goddamn.

I loved Bella and Edward.

I will always miss them.

And then forever.

Until next time

Bye for now.

And the Beat Goes On...

Damn.

I'm lazy, aren't I?

I just can't seem to get motivated to open my laptop

and post a few words on this blog.

It's not that there hasn't been stuff to talk about...

I do still check social media

and try to stay 'current'.

But I have to admit that ever since

Humpty Trumpty was elected...

This country's welfare has been

at the forefront of my brain.

It's scary.

But to be honest...

I did write a rather lengthy post

right after Kristen hosted SNL

Because lo and behold...

SHE FUCKING KILLED IT.

God, she was good.

Warm.

Natural.

Funny.

Likable.

And of course she looked gorgeous doing it.

If you are a fan of Kristen's...

then you enjoyed every damn minute.

And if you aren't a fan of Kristen's...

Well.

I know you couldn't take your eyes off of her either.

And it annoyed the hell outta you

that she didn't suck.

Which in turn...

sucks for you.

Win/Win

Heh.

Then of course...

She said FUCK on live TV.

Look at her.

How cute is she?

She was so excited...

so IN the damn moment...

She was as shocked as anyone.

God...she's so adorable.

Cussing and all.

One of the things I admire about Kristen

is that even when she's afraid...

She's brave.

Another reason I didn't post my last blog

was because... like... 

the next couple of days after that was all about Rob.

He did red carpet for LCOZ!!!

It seems like its been ages since Rob did promo

but seeing Rob in a suit somehow

makes everything better.

I'm really thinking that he makes that look so easy.

and he brought Twigs...

And they looked REALLY happy.

Don't they?

It's good to see Rob smile like that...

isn't it?

And I know that it's completely selfish of me

but another reason I love pics like this

is because it sends the Baby Loons into a panic.

Yes people

They STILL insist that Rob and Kristen are married

with 3 kids.

Completely ignoring pictures like Rob and Twigs

so OBVIOUSLY together

and this...

Kristen so OBVIOUSLY

in a relationship with Stella Maxwell.

(and aren't they all kinds of cute?)

I guess I will never understand why they can't 

just accept that Rob and Kristen broke up YEARS ago

and have moved on.

Just like some people can't accept that Kristen

will love who she wants to love...

be it male or female.

The heart wants what it wants.

And that Rob loves Twigs.

Admit it.

Accept it.

Reality is... it doesn't matter who they love.

Because it's not up to us.

It's not about us.

And it shouldn't affect us.

Stop using their relationships to attack them.

Stop comparing them.

Stop making it a competition.

Stop looking if you don't like what you see.

Stay in your lane.

Anyway.

Kristen has been way busy with making movies

Directing movies...

Promoting movies...

And the one most talked about right now is

Personal Shopper.

Personally... I haven't seen it yet

(although I can't wait)

but she is getting RAVE reviews.

And by RAVE, I mean WONDERFUL.

In addition to Kristen getting great critical response

the movie is doing pretty well

in limited release

(never near me, of course)

I know I've said it before

and I will probably say it always...

But Kristen is MAGNETIC onscreen.

You WANT to watch her.

And you feel a void when shes not there.

As she matures...

She just keeps getting better.

I haven't seen LCOZ either.

Although I really want to.

I'm not sure how good the movie is doing...

But Rob is getting great reviews.

And I love Beardy Rob.

Ok.

Maybe not THAT much beard

but I prefer men with facial hair.

This has always been one of my favorite bearded moments.

I mean.

Well.

Damn.

Speaking of BEARDS...

This post is brought to you by

a man of many beards...

Tom always seems to have a beard...

which is good.

It suits him

and makes his blue eyes...

bluer.

The blue-est.

Man... I adore him.

And guess what?

BROADWAY NEWS  

Reed Birney, Olivia Wilde, and Tom Sturridge 

Will Lead Cast of Broadway's 1984.

I've always believed that Tom was happiest on stage.

It's where he seems most comfortable...

it's where he belongs.

Now I just need to set up a trip to NYC

Right?

This post is brought to you by the letters

STFU

1. To the people who keep bringing up Kristen's sexuality

like its an insult.

(Why does it scare you so much?

Why do you care?

Why is it even a big deal?)

2. To the people who constantly trash Twigs

just because Rob fell in love with her.

(It's just another version of Nonstens)

3. To the people who can't accept that 

Rob and Kristen are no longer together.

(It's almost FOUR FUCKING YEARS.

You are severely insane)

4. To the people who think they know Rob's and Kristen's

lives and how they feel.

(You don't know DICKSHIT)

5. To the people who never have anything nice to say

about Rob and/or Kristen

(They say they "don't care")

but still watch and read every thing about them

and then talk about them ALL THE TIME.

And most of all?

To Donald Trump.

Because every thing you say is a lie.

You, sir...

are NOT my president.

Until next time.

Drums keep pounding

A rhythm to the brain

Bye for now.

I'm Still Standing...

“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times,

 it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness,

 it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity
 it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, 
it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair...
- Charles Dickens

That was written in 1859.

I mean...

Doesn't it somehow always fit 

the times we live in?

I realized I hadn't written here

in over 2 months.

I guess the presidential election

may

or may not

have influenced that.
Probably may.
Definitely may.

I'm usually not incredibly political...

I vote my heart.

My conscience.

Regardless of 'party'.

I vote for whomever I believe

will be the best person...

for our country.

Needless to say,

I didn't vote for Donald Trump.

And while this may offend some people...

I cannot

I will not

ever understand those who did.
I will forever look at people who voted for him...
differently.
Even those I love.

That's all I'm going to say about that.
For now.

I do believe the boat will right itself

in due time...

and as karma often does

it will go around

and come all the fucking way back around.

OK then.

Let's talk about 2016.

It ended up being a shit year

didn't it?

Not really for me, personally...

I had weddings 

and babies being born

and happiness and joy.

So it couldn't be ALL bad.

Election results aside...

It just ended on such a fucking bummer.

So many good, talented

wonderful people died.

Many way way (WAY) before their time.

I felt punched in the gut more than once.

The following hit me the hardest...

David Bowie

Prince

Alan RIckman 

Glenn Frey 

George Martin 

Garry Shandling

Muhammad Ali

Anton Yelchin

Gene Wilder

Florence Henderson

George Michael

Debbie Reynolds

and most of all

Carrie Fisher

Every one of these people affected my life in some way...

Made it better. 

Made me smile.

Made me think.

Carrie Fisher was somehow the most 

devastating to me...

Maybe because she was flawed

She made mistakes and she owned them...

But she was brilliantly funny

and smart

and had an incredible sense of humor.

I adored her.

It hurt to say goodbye.

And what was the BEST and WORST

of this fandom in 2016?

I wish I could find something new to say.

The Best?

Kristen had a phenomenal 2016.

Critical praise.

Lots of interesting projects.

(Rolling Stone video? Who saw that one coming?)

She even directed her own short film "Come Swim"

that went to Sundance.

Girl is on fire and IN CHARGE.
Oh and to add fuel to the flames...
This girl is going to be on Saturday Night Live
this coming weekend.
SNL
Live TV.
I mean.
Huge step for her... yes?
I'm beyond thrilled for her
because I believe she will be wonderful...
but damn... I'm nervous, too.
I want her to do well
but comedy is fucking hard.
I cannot wait.

As a fan... I really can't ask for anything more...

Except for MORE.

I can't wait to see everything she does

and will do.

She is endlessly fascinating

and magnetically watchable.

The worst?

Well, you know.

Still have the HardlyKnowsNothing's of the fandom

who still want to claim Kristen is married to Rob

with 3 bouncing babies attached to her hips
(and incredibly... number 4 'on the way')

And there are still the people out there

who want to argue with them everyday.

"ROB IS WITH TWIGS"

"ROB IS HAPPILY MARRIED TO KRISTEN!"
"ROB WAS IN LONDON WITH TWIGS"
"KRISTEN AND ROB SPENT THE HOLIDAYS 

TOGETHER WITH THEIR CHILDREN!"

Seriously?

Day in.

Day out.

Same bullshit

Over and Over

and then over again.

What exactly is anyone really trying to prove?
It's one thing to have an opinion

But you aren't getting anywhere fighting on twitter

everyday repeating yourself.

As far as I can see...

It's jut an excuse for one side to shit 

all over Twigs...

While the other side shits all over Kristen.

Wow.

What a fantastic way to spend your time!

You all do know the definition of insanity...

Right?

Insanity is, 

doing the exact same fucking thing over and over again,

 expecting shit to change. 

That. Is. Crazy.

It's not going to change.

Ever.

Rob has been with Twigs for YEARS now...

and it's been well documented.

Kristen has been dating women...

and she's one of the most photographed women

in the world.

No question who she is spending her time with.

There hasn't been a real picture of Rob and Kristen

together since 2013.

If that doesn't have an effect on the

insane delusional conspiracies?

What will?

Nothing.

Best?

Rob has had a relatively quiet year...

He has been working on interesting movies

with good directors

He's been pretty low key.

Which I'm sure is exactly what he wants.

He's been in a long term relationship

with Twigs

and seems happy with the choices he's made.

Maybe once more of his movies come out...

We will get to see more of him.

Pulling his fingers through his hair...

Laughing.

Being all awkward and cute.

Best?

Tom Sturridge.

Tom has been working much like Rob...

Quietly.

Steadily.

Working on projects that mean 

something to him.

Staying close to his daughter.

Wearing hats.

And goofy 'jumpers'.

Not really smiling much...

but when he does?

Look out.

Wham.

Bam.

Thank you, Ma'am.

Worst?

The same tired asshats who continually judge Kristen
for basically breathing.
Kristen was at Sundance...
Talking about motivation behind her movie
"Come Swim"

She talked about heartbreak...
relationships...
things she wanted to say.

And what did the asshats do?
Piss and moan about how Kristen
is using Rob for promotion!
Is that it, really?
How many songs...
Poems
Books
Movies
are based on peoples feelings...
things that happen in their lives
heartbreak and love and pain?
Yeah.
Just about everything, you know?
But oh no...
Kristen is NOT allowed to do what others
have done before her.
How dare she?
Who does she think she is bringing up Rob!
Its only her life, after all.
Her relationship.
Her heartache.
Her pain.
Her love.
And just like so many do every single day
 using their feelings and experiences for art
she uses what she lived.
And honestly...
Do you really think Rob cares?
Uh huh.
Sure. Sure.

I don't usually talk about Twigs
except in passing about Rob.
I've kinda made it a thing to not discuss
Rob and Kristen's relationships.
It's so much easier to not care
and not be invested... 
But I did want to say this about Twigs

Her and Nike are a great fit.
She's a helluva dancer.

This post is brought to you by
the number 9.

It is still a number that shows up in my life
all the time.
Heh.

Until next time.

Bye for now.