Random Thoughts

Sometimes when I have time

(which hasn't been much lately

thank you summer from hell)

 I sift through my emails...

Twitter and read some blogs

And wonder why fandom things 

are so important to some people.

Beyond important.

Like...

Life and death important.

It's fucking serious and this is

Their fucking job important.

They will cry for you

die for you

important.

It's just a fandom.

That's all.

You live.

You learn.

And hopefully the lunatic fringe

will someday learn

that this shit doesn't matter.
Not really.

I learned it 3 years ago.

After being too invested in 2 people

and a relationship.

That wasn't mine.
It's like I woke up.

It's entertainment.

Camaraderie.

It's a hobby.

And shouldn't it be enjoyable?

Shouldn't it be about the laughs?

The fangirling over new projects?

If you're not having fun...

and find yourself angry and defensive 

ALL THE TIME

Why are you still here?

There was a lot of talk about photoshopping recently.

Well...not just recently.

It seems that every time there are pics 

of Rob/Twigs

or with anything that doesn't fit the "agenda"

THE PICS ARE FAKE!!!

(or old, staged... etc etc)

Take this one.

Supposedly this is a manipulated picture.

But why?

Rob walking to a car?

I can see how this is a damning picture

and why someone would want to change it!

If people are going to mess with pictures...

why wouldn't they at least be a bit creative?

Like maybe him and Twigs making out or something?

Hmmm.

I think I will add an extra hand to his reflection!

That's it! FOOLED YA!!!

Everyone will believe Rob is with Twigs now!!!

*insane cackling*

A pic of Beyonce walking by a car...

LOOKY THERE!

There's like a person with 3 faces in the reflection!

Why would they do that???

Are the paps manipulating everyone's pictures??

Or maybe with the curvature of the car

and the refraction of the light and movement...

stuff just gets bent and twisted in the reflection?

Could it be something as logical and simple as that?

Could it??

Can you imagine going thru endless pics
and trying to prove they are fake?

I'm not sure what people even get out

of all the lying and making shit up.

Fandom notoriety?

Hits on their blogs?

Attention they are lacking in their 'real' lives?

It reeks of needy desperation.
Truly.

Personally?

I'm 99.9% certain that Rob and Kristen

are no longer together

(And haven't been in over two years)

and most definitely have no children

(There has been zero evidence to tell me otherwise.)

I was on the "Robsten" ship for a LONG ass time.

And it took a fucking lot to get me off of it.

A lot.
I had to be pushed.

I held on as long as I could.

I loved them as a couple.

Nobody championed them harder than me. 

I loved watching them be in love.

Because I'm a sucker for that kinda stuff.

But when the party's over...

Its fucking over.

You know?

You have to accept it.

How about we promote this...

Because AMERICAN ULTRA is going to 

fucking rock.

Or how about EQUALS

(And fucking A if this picture doesn't make me angsty for this movie)

And Childhood of a Leader

(And yes... Beardy shaggy Rob is a good Rob)

BOTH being premiered at the

Venice Film Festival!

Bottom line?

Rob and Kristen are much more than Robsten.

They always have been.

I look back now...

and see that it had to happen this way.
It was full of drama
and it wasn't easy...
But change seldom is.

Both Rob and Kristen need to be known

For their career choices... As actors.

Not just a relationship.

And look at Kristen now!

She's so fucking bright and shiny 

and slaying the whole damn world.

And seriously

Has she EVER looked fucking better

or happier?

Can't you fucking GIVE her that?

And Rob...

He's going at his own pace.

And that's OK too.

It's what he wants to do.

It's where he wants to be.

They are both where they want to be.

Are they happy?

I hope so.

I think so.

And that's all we need to know.

This post is brought to you by

My constant admiration of Thomas Sturridge.

He might be going through stuff right now.

But I have to believe he will be all right.

Life does go on.

And this post is also brought to you by

Cecil the Lion.

It breaks my heart that he was stalked and hunted

for his fur... for fun.

A magnificent beautiful animal.

Can't people look at him and see he has feelings?

That he deserves to live as much as you or I?

He wasn't just a trophy.

Another inanimate object that you can kill

and hang on your wall.

The man who killed him willfully slaughtered him.

I say we take this dentist out in the wilderness...

lure him out of safety with false promise

Shoot him with a bow 

and then hunt him for days

until we finally shoot him 

skin him.

behead him.

Is that too harsh?

Possibly.

But maybe if these asshole hunters

Who kill for the thrill knew what it was like

To be stalked and hunted...

Knew the pain and agony that Cecil had to endure...

Maybe... Just maybe

They would realize that all living creatures have 

A fucking right to be here on this earth.

Until next time.

Bye for now

Once Bitten... Twice Shy

In what seems like a very long time ago

Approximately 7 years
 Which I guess is ancient in 'fandom' time...

I used to write the same thing in my online bios

"I love Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart.

Together or apart.

(Hopefully together)"

Here's the thing...

That really hasn't changed.

(Except the hopefully part)

I still like BOTH Rob and Kristen.

Together or apart.

You don't have to...

I don't care if you like them or not.

That's cool.

But I do.

Sorry.

And I'm not even sure why I'm apologizing for it.

But there is such hostility attached to 

"Fans of both"

It's ridiculous.
Like I have to pick a side.

Like its a competition.

I don't NEED (or even want for that matter)
Rob and Kristen to be together

in order to like them.

I never have.

And I can say with all honesty

that since I enjoyed every fucking minute

of Rob and Kristen being together...

(ALL of it. No REGRETS. None.)

I'm actually perfectly happy with the fact

 that they aren't together anymore.

Why?

Because life goes on...

And have you SEEN Kristen lately?

She looks so fucking happy and gorgeous

and beautiful and relaxed and stunning

and and and

ETHEREALLY EXQUISITELY BREATHTAKING.

Kristen is on FIRE

(Pun intended)
and I love it.
I love her.
And I love that it fucking burns all the people
who thought she would fade away
never to be seen or heard from again.

There was much ado about the interview
that went along with these gorgeous pictures.
Kristen...
Being Kristen
was very candid and honest.
But the quote that seemed to get the most attention?

"I lit my universe on fire," she admits 
 "and I watched it burn."

Of course
A lot of people assumed she was talking about
what happened 3 years ago.
And maybe she was.
And maybe her whole fucking world did go up in flames.
And maybe she got burned in the process...

"The public kind of burned me at the stake. 
But that's OK, I can take it. 

I'm not dead."

And maybe she learned from it.
Grew stronger.
Smarter.
Better.

"I've lived hard for a young person.

And I've done that to myself--

But I've come out on the other end

Not hardened... But strong."

Isn't that the point?
Isn't that what you want to do
when you make mistakes in life...
Learn from them? Move on? Do better?
Isn't Kristen allowed to do that?

What constitutes a Rob "fan"?

I have to ask because I often get people 

(The same ones who police my tweets-- go figure)

telling me that I'm not his fan anymore.

Is it determined on how much you tweet about him?

Is there a daily quota you are expected to reach?

Or is it how much you flail and squee over his girlfriend?

Do your ovaries have to burst on a weekly basis?

Maybe it has to do with how much you feel the need 

to defend him by pointless arguing on Twitter

Or trolling the gossip sites comment sections

and spending endless hours attacking anyone
who doesn't see Rob quite like you do?

No. Fuck. Jesus.

I'm interested in Rob's career.

I don't care about his relationship with Twigs.
I'm looking forward to "LIFE" coming out.
I'm glad he signed on to "Good Time"
and will be working on LCOZ soon...
(forgive me for being wary until he's actually on set-

But once bitten... Twice shy)
I want to see him in a movie.
Or on a talk show...
Or a photo shoot in a magazine.
I go to his movies. I buy the DVDs.
I talk about him if there is something
interesting going on...
That's what a fan does.
That's what I do.

So get off my dick.

This post is brought to you by 

"Same shit... Different day."

For years fans of Rob and Kristen

had to deal with the Lunatic Nonstens

Screaming "PR" every time a picture came out of

Rob and Kristen together.

They tried to disprove their relationship

claiming the pics were fake... Or staged...

And tried to convince people that it was all just

part of their contract... A job.

All the while they wasted no time trashing and insulting

Kristen every chance they got.

Sound familiar?

Now we have the Lunatic Baby Brigade.

Same song. Same dance.

They scream "PR" every time a picture of

Rob and Twigs come out...

Claiming the pics are old, fake or staged.

They try to convince people that it's all part of a contract

That its just a job.

All the while they continuously trash and insult 

Twigs every chance they get.

A bullshit conspiracy

Based on lies and delusion.

This post is also brought to you by...

My endless adoration of
Thomas Sturridge.

Always.
Forever.

Until next time

Bye for now