27 Years a Kristen.

Happy Birthday

Kristen!

I could easily go on a long winded spiel

about the whys and hows 

of my complete

and utter

adoration

of

Kristen Stewart...

But.

I've decided to just post a few of my 

favorite pictures

and maybe just try to put into words

my thoughts about her.

I'm not sure exactly when

my thoughts about Kristen changed...

Before Twilight I didn't really know much about her.

And I have to admit that I was kinda jealous

when I found out she was BELLA

to Robert's EDWARD.

I guess that's when it began.

When I started watching her and Rob

fall in love.

I became fascinated with her.

She gave these quirky

bouncy

awkward

interviews...

And I found myself wanting to know more.

 

 She made movies that I found fascinating.

And I wanted to see more.

She said things that made me think.

And I wanted to hear more.

She marched to the beat

of her own drum...

And she became polarizing.

The more Rob loved Kristen...

The more some people hated her.

No matter what she did.

She didn't have to do anything.

She was constantly

and brutally attacked

on social media.

I found myself defending her.

Vehemently.

I'm not even sure why I felt the need

to...

protect her.

But I did.

Here was this tiny little girl...

(and keep in mind a lot of the abuse 

she received was when she was a teenager)

Who wasn't hurting anyone...

Just loving her boyfriend

living her life...

I continued to defend her...

Even when she hurt Robert.

Because no matter how you want to look at it...

We don't know what happened between them.

We only know scattered bits and pieces.

Rob took her back.

Rob forgave her.

Rob still loved her.

Even if I was disappointed...

(I hate to see anyone get hurt)

It wasn't my place to judge her.

She didn't do anything to me.

It wasn't my relationship...

But this was the breaking point for many.

They couldn't get past it.

They behaved as the jilted lover...

The attacks were vile and bitter.

And yet...

I saw a girl who was hurting too.

I still wanted to shield her.

Stop the hate from reaching her.

I couldn't help it.

No one who judged her

(and continues to do so to this day)

can sit back and claim to never

have hurt someone...

To be free from sin

To be free from doing something they regret.

I believe Rob and Kristen truly loved each other

But sometimes that's not enough.

Sometimes you grow up...

and relationships... don't.

One of the things I love about her the most...

is her fierce determination

to just live her life on her terms.

She's not worried if you approve.

She's not concerned if you don't agree.

A lot of people judge her life

based on what THEY would do

in her situation.

But it doesn't work that way.

So what if you would have 'time alone'

after a break up...

So what if you wouldn't want your friends

hanging around all the time...

So what if you disagree with the

way she chooses to live her life.

So what.

You live your life your way...

let Kristen live hers the way she wants to.

You have to realize by now

that Kristen will rarely do what you want 

her to do...

If it upsets you so much

that you get angry and frustrated and judgey

maybe you should ask yourself why.

I have had people ask me why I was such a fan

of Kristen's.

I'm not quite sure I can put it into words.

I find her completely captivating on screen.

I can't look away

and want her to be in every frame.

I love most of her movies.

Even the weird strange roles...

It doesn't matter.

If Kristen is in it?

I want to watch it.

Kristen is devastatingly beautiful.

I mean...

 I realize that's not a reason to admire someone...

But I love that she's so damn gorgeous

and it doesn't seem to matter to her at all.

Like its not that important

in the grand scheme of things..

And I guess that's true.

I love that Kristen's career has been 

on fucking fire for the last coupe of years...

and that she is getting some of the best reviews ever.

She keeps getting better

and better.

And I will admit that I love

that her critics have had to swallow

their bitter pills

when they claimed she was "OVER"

and that she would never work again.

Silly Ninnies.

I love that she's not afraid to try new things.

Directing.

Starring in a Rolling Stone video.

Shaving off her hair.

Hosting Saturday Night Live.

She's brave.

Even when she knows she might fail...

She still tries.

She's honest.

She says things that she believes...

even when its not always the most popular opinion.

She's flawed.

Like every other human being out there.

But that's part of her incredible charm.

She loves animals.

How can you not love someone

who loves her puppies so damn much?

She's awkward and real

and says how she feels

and sometimes she doesn't express herself

in the best way...

or sometimes she says

or does something I don't agree with.

But I still admire

that she's there

trying to explain what she's thinking.

It's not that easy to do.

I should know.

I just tried to explain how I felt about Kristen

on her 27th birthday...

and I have rambled on and on

trying to make sense of my thoughts.

It's hard to put feelings into words sometimes.

This post is brought to you by 

Kristen Stewart.

Happy 27th Birthday!

I hope you have happiness

and love and peace and joy

this day

and every day.

You deserve all of it.

Until next time

Bye for now.