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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Robert Pattinson~ I Hate Myself For Loving You


I hate myself for loving you
Cant break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you,
that's why
I hate myself for loving you...
(Thanks Joan Jett)


I am really trying to get a grip
on my emotions today.
So much to sort through...
so much going on.
Rob is in NYC
and his picture is all over the place.

I'm shattered.

People that I know
are going to the movie set...
and getting to put their eyes
on Rob.

I can't imagine.
I truly can't.
I have to close my eyes...
and take deep breaths.
My stomach is in knots.
KNOTS!

Why????

I feel like I'm 15.

I watched some videos
that people took who were there
watching Rob film...
And they were getting all giddy
and squealing when they even
caught a glimpse of his hair...
And as I'm watching these...
I can feel my heart start to pound
and all these feelings
come bubbling to the top.
And I know...
I fucking KNOW
That I would be in tears
if I saw Rob in person.

Isn't that ridiculous?
It feels silly just to type it.
Right now...
as I am writing this...
I am crushed by how strong
my feelings are.

I keep trying to make sense of it all.

Yes.
Rob is beautiful.
But it is so beyond how he looks.
It's everything about him.

EVERYTHING.

I am so drawn to him...
I can't get enough of him.
It scares me.

Truly.

I'm starting to think that I will never
figure this out.
That some things cannot
be deciphered.
Analyzed.

They just ARE.

Is it strange for a woman...
married with kids...
to be completely
devastatingly
passionately
devoted
to
Robert Pattinson?

Yes.

Yes it is.

But...

Truth is fucking Truth.


Bye for now


3 comments:

Anja said...

Hey Rose!
You speak right out of my heart!
I´m married too!
I´ve got children too!
I´m in love with him..... too!
And the reason why we are in love?
Because he is the most exciting
man alive!

Suz said...

Rose
Come Find Me
I will lead
you
to the fountain
Any Day
Any Time

Together.

AJ said...

Is it strange for a woman...
married with kids...
to be completely
devastatingly
passionately
devoted
to
Robert Pattinson?


Yes.

We're all there right with you Rose. When you get this obsession figured out - let us know.