I hate myself for loving you
Cant break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you,
that's why
I hate myself for loving you...
(Thanks Joan Jett)
I am really trying to get a grip
on my emotions today.
So much to sort through...
so much going on.
Rob is in NYC
and his picture is all over the place.
I'm shattered.
People that I know
are going to the movie set...
and getting to put their eyes
on Rob.
I can't imagine.
I truly can't.
I have to close my eyes...
and take deep breaths.
My stomach is in knots.
KNOTS!
Why????
I feel like I'm 15.
I watched some videos
that people took who were there
watching Rob film...
And they were getting all giddy
and squealing when they even
caught a glimpse of his hair...
And as I'm watching these...
I can feel my heart start to pound
and all these feelings
come bubbling to the top.
And I know...
I fucking KNOW
That I would be in tears
if I saw Rob in person.
Isn't that ridiculous?
It feels silly just to type it.
Right now...
as I am writing this...
I am crushed by how strong
my feelings are.
I keep trying to make sense of it all.
Yes.
Rob is beautiful.
But it is so beyond how he looks.
It's everything about him.
EVERYTHING.
I am so drawn to him...
I can't get enough of him.
It scares me.
Truly.
I'm starting to think that I will never
figure this out.
That some things cannot
be deciphered.
Analyzed.
They just ARE.
Is it strange for a woman...
married with kids...
to be completely
devastatingly
passionately
devoted
to
Robert Pattinson?
Yes.
Yes it is.
But...
Truth is fucking Truth.
Bye for now ♥
3 comments:
Hey Rose!
You speak right out of my heart!
I´m married too!
I´ve got children too!
I´m in love with him..... too!
And the reason why we are in love?
Because he is the most exciting
man alive!
Rose
Come Find Me
I will lead
you
to the fountain
Any Day
Any Time
Together.
Is it strange for a woman...
married with kids...
to be completely
devastatingly
passionately
devoted
to
Robert Pattinson?
Yes.
We're all there right with you Rose. When you get this obsession figured out - let us know.
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