This post is all about Robert.
I really haven't written much about him lately.
I get shit about that.
(I know, it's hard to believe, isn't it?)
But what has Robert done for me lately?
Where the hell IS he?
Haven't seen him since he landed down in ol' Louisiana.
What am I supposed to write if the guy
doesn't show his pretty face?
And I know some people don't want to admit this...
But Kristen is connected to Robert now.
Writing about Kristen...
Usually means Robert is involved.
I've been reflecting on my 'obsession' with Rob.
I don't think I'm in that frame of mind anymore.
I don't think I have been for a while.
Oh don't get me wrong...
I still adore him.
I still am very much interested in his career...
I still adore him.
I still love looking at him.
I still adore him.
But not being as obsessed is good... right?
I've discussed this recently with someone who went through
this whole Robert Pattinson addiction/obsession with me.
She came out on the other side.
I'm still somewhere in the middle.
I might not be as angst-ridden when it comes to Rob...
But I'm still intoxicated.
I just happen to be in a better place.
This is a bit embarrassing to admit...
But just LOOKING at pictures of Robert
made my stomach twist in knots...
He had such an effect on me
(and millions of other women)
This is why this blog exists.
I keep trying to figure out WHY he affected me like this.
Because no other actor has ever
affected me like this.
I'm not a fangirl kinda girl.
He melts my heart.
It would be dishonest of me not to admit
that the whole Edward Cullen connection didn't have
something to do with my initial attraction.
I couldn't get enough of him, either.
Reading the Twilight books end to end to end to end
and reading about a sexier, more mature...
I love Edward Cullen.
And then Robert became Edward.
And I was a goner.
Wave goodbye to Rose!
I still haven't comes to grips with Edward.
But like my Robert addiction...
My Edward addiction has cooled off.
I still love both the actor
and the character he portrays.
I just have it more under control.
That being said...
I still love you, Robert Pattinson!!
I'm thinking I'm a fan for life.
I can't imagine going through this intense adoration
to let it slip away in a few years.
I'm very loyal to those I love.
But I don't give out my love to just anyone.
The only other beings that I have ever had this degree
of 'obsession' with...
And more specifically Paul McCartney
(I know I have discussed this before)
I've loved the Beatles since I was 10 years old.
They seriously saved my life when I was a teenager.
Long story. Not exactly for a blog.
But that's how intense my love for the Beatles is.
And now there is Robert.
Sometimes I wish my love for Robert
was just based on something as shallow as just his good looks.
But you all know there is so much more to him than that.
And you all know that is why we all adore him.
So very special.
We all love him because he's not like the other guys.
We all fell in love with him after watching his early interviews...
All his charm...
All his intelligence...
All his wit...
All his humility...
All his adorkability.
Sometimes it makes me feel good knowing I'm not alone...
And sometimes I look around and wonder how
I can even be in the same fan base as some people.
And last but not least...
Loving Robert means accepting that Kristen
is going to be involved in some way.
She just IS.
She's always there.
It just so happens that I love and adore Kristen, too...
So it's not a problem for me.
I went through this whole post...
And I didn't 'eat hate with a spoon'.
I just talked about Robert.
And it felt good.
Because I have missed my Robert.
I have missed my intoxication.
And now I feel a bit dizzy...
So that's a good sign.
This post is brought to you by the letter *R*
R for ROBERT PATTINSON
Always and forever, Robert...
Bye for now