Saturday's Quote

"Bella, I couldn’t live with myself if I ever hurt you. You don’t know how it’s tortured me. The thought of you, still, white, cold… to never see you blush scarlet again, to never see that flash of intuition in your eyes when you see through my pretenses…
it would be unendurable.
You are the most important thing to me now.
The most important thing to me ever."


Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

Welcome to Rob Anonymous.

I'm not sure how to put my feelings into words today. My thoughts are racing through my brain...leaving me feel all discombobulated. I can't seem to focus on one clear thought.

Fucking Bullshit.

First off...I was reading "Twilighters Anonymous" today, and there was an article about obsessed fans, written from the POV of a friend of a famous person that attracted screaming hordes of girls. I found the piece interesting, but not really telling me something that I didn't already know...but there were a couple of lines that jumped out to me...

"No, dedication to a craft is one thing. Admiring someone for their talent is another, but it really is none of your business if Rob Pattinson is dating anyone or if Kristen Stewart is getting enough sleep. Accosting these actors on the street for photos and autographs while screaming and crying is unacceptable behavior. Tracking them down to hopefully “run into them at a club” is just as creepy as conversing on a message board about whether or not Rob would date [insert random fan-a-tic here]. "

Does this person really equate conversing on a message board (something that I do on a daily basis...yes...I fucking do) to actually accosting Rob on the street, screaming and crying...or worse yet, stalking him? Really? Why is talking about Rob...creepy? Why is normal curiosity about him...such a bad thing? I was disgusted with the behavior of the screaming banshees that followed Rob wherever he went on the "Twilight" promotional tour...I hated seeing the frightened look in his eyes when he was virtually attacked in an airport. I cringed when he would come on stage...amidst the screams...and he would virtually fold into himself. No. NO.

I'm not THAT kind of fan. I adore Robert Pattinson. I write about him. I talk about him. But it is from afar. Even if I saw Rob on the street...or in a pub...I know I would behave like a human being. Why? Because I care about him...and I wouldn't want to be the one to put a frightened look on his face....

That being said....I do realize that this very blog is obsessive about Rob. It's somewhere that I can go and express the things that are in my head. I look at them...I try to figure out where they are coming from. I've never felt this way about anyone famous before (and yes, I've adored Paul McCartney for years...but still not to this extreme). I get it. I admit to my addiction.

"Hello, I'm Rose...and I'm obsessed with and addicted to Robert Pattinson"

"Hello Rose, welcome to Rob Anonymous"

I view this blog as one of my 12 steps...as a way of coming to grips with the why and how of my feelings.

But this blog, or my talking about Rob on a message board...isn't 'creepy'. It's just admiration...fantasy...and attraction. I'm not delusional, and I'm realistic enough to know that this is just a way to talk to some wonderful ladies...share a few laughs...and perhaps daydream a bit...

Nothing creepy about that.

Bye for now♥

Midnight Sun...what if?

This is still one of my favorite pictures of "Edward". I think Robert really became him in this picture. I know it worked for me!

OK. I was on some "Twilight" site...and it was talking about the Stephenie Meyer/Midnight Sun drama.

It goes as follows:

A leak puts the bite on ‘Twilight’~
“Twilight” fans waiting to read Stephenie Meyer’s latest vampire novel had better not hold their breath: the author is still pouting about her unfinished manuscript being leaked online — and hasn’t touched the book since.
To the chagrin of “Twilight” followers, Meyer has no further plans to resurrect the would-be juicy read. “Midnight Sun,” the fifth tome in the series, was being written from bloodsucking heartthrob Edward Cullen’s point of view.
“Nothing’s changed,” a rep for the author confirms to us. “Stephenie has no plans to move forward with ‘Midnight Sun’ at this time.”

Old news, right? But it got me thinking (run for your life!!). Now, don't get me wrong...I love Stephenie Meyer. She brought me to Edward...who in turn brought me to Robert. Not bad (Who am I kidding? It's fanFUCKINGtastic!). But I'm still so disappointed in this. Because I feel she is punishing her fans...but anyway...

Which also got me to thinking about "Midnight Sun". Yes, I have read the part that was leaked on the internet. Yes, I absolutely LOVED it...mistakes and all. I will admit it, Edward is by far the most fascinating part of "Twilight". BY FAR. And being able to get inside his head and read his thoughts...his obsession...his every feeling...was incredible. More interesting than Bella....

So what would have happened...if they had put out "Midnight Sun" as a movie instead of "Twilight"? Instead of Bella's POV...we get Edwards. We get 99% Edward. His voice over. His story. And with that...we get Rob! More delicious, beautiful, gorgeous Rob. Fascinating thought. Would the tweenies have been more excited by the movie...seeing that it was all Rob/Edward? Or do they like seeing things through Bella's eyes? Bella is so relatable...does that make her version more appealing to women? Wouldn't the Edward version of the movie have had more action...more Cullens...more of an inside look in the life of a vampire? Who wouldn't want that? How could anyone who is a fan of "Twilight" NOT want more Edward???? Obviously Robert has millions of fan who probably would feel the same way as me...and I know that "Midnight Sun" as a movie...would be...fucking brilliant. All Rob All the time. *sigh*

Right now, though, I would just settle for the book being finished and published. I'm dying to see the meadow scene through Edwards golden eyes. I'm sure SM will get over all this. Hopefully sooner than later.

Bye for now♥

Friday's Quote

" I wasn’t interesting. And he was. Interesting… and brilliant… and mysterious… and perfect… and beautiful… and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand."


Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79

It's a plot...

You knew I was gonna post this picture, didn't you?

Well, I've said it before and I will say it again...

Dirty, sexy, cigarette smoking Rob just fucking blows me away.

And yes, I said BLOWS.

I can't even begin to explain the feeling I get...

in the pit of my stomach when I look at this.

I mean...it's fluctuates between butterflies

and gut-wrenching pain. Yes...PAIN.

But it 'hurts so good'...

so God damn motherfucking GOOD.

Messy, dirty hair. Check.

Sunglasses. Check.

Wrinkled, musty (and you know its musty) T-shirt. Check.

Cigarette attached to that mouth. Check.

Sitting here typing away while my heart actually hurts just looking at him.

Double Fucking Check.

Bye for now ♥

Thursday's Quote

"I’m the world’s best predator, aren’t I ?
Everything about me invites you in —
my voice, my face, even my smell.
As if I need any of that!"

Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.263

Wednesday's Quote

"So the psycho was “Rose” now.

He’d completely crossed over to the dark side."

Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn,

Chapter 17, p.339

*I found this quote quite fitting for today....

Dark Rose

OK. I'm in a rather pissy mood (again?). It always comes back to the obsession/addiction to all things Robert Pattinson.

No, it's not because of my obsession that I am being bitchy today. No. I have come to accept this burning desire to wrap myself around Rob. I have to...it's either that or the padded room. But here's the thing. Don't you FUCKING dare try to tell me that I'm wrong for feeling this way. Don't you FUCKING dare try to push your thoughts on me. Don't you FUCKING dare project your shitty pent up bullshit onto me.

I don't fucking need someone getting all righteous and pompous and acting like they are better than me. Fuck that, OK?

See, I am dealing with my Robsession the best way I know how. I indulge myself. Endlessly. And how can being addicted to Rob be bad, when its brought me to Robsessed...and some of the best people I've yet to meet? These girls make me think. Laugh. Cry. And I feel fucking protective of them...

It's all well and good to deal with your issues...your way. But I draw the line when you expect everyone else to follow your lead...and if they don't...well, they must be useless, stupid and weak.

I'm enjoying my Robsession. I am still figuring it out....but it has been a helluva ride so far. I'm not stupid. I can think for myself. And my first reaction when someone preaches at me, and tries to shove their beliefs down my throat? I spit that shit right back out.

Sorry if this is so bitchy. I guess I'm being Dark Rose today.

Bye for now ♥

Silence is Golden.

Sometimes there really isn't anything to say.

So just sit back...and enjoy the view.

Fucking perfection.

*sigh*

Bye for now ♥

Tuesday's Quote

He continued to kiss my hair, my forehead, my wrists… but never my lips, and that was good.

After all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? I’d lived through a lot that should have finished me in the last few days, but it didn’t make me feel strong.

Instead, I felt horribly fragile, like one word could shatter me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.495

Funny Shit Part Deux

It's come to my attention that the fucking hilarious link to the fucking hilarious Bunny video wasn't fucking working.

That fucking sucks.

Here is a link to the site.

It should open up to the "Twilight" clip.

I loved it.

It is the 30 second Bunnies Theater on Starz.

Brilliant.

Check out some of the other clips...

Hilarious. No bullshit.

http://www.starz.com/promotions/bunnies/Pages/Bunnies.aspx

Monday's Quote

As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried—late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses—that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but I must remember them. Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live—I had to know that he existed. That was all.

Everything else I could endure.

So long as he existed.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116

Been Thinking 2 ~ The sequel

Been thinking that although I positively adore this picture, I find myself repeating my favorites...

Been thinking that letting my husband find my folder of Rob pics on the desktop computer was stupid. Now I will have to endure more "Noooo YOU'RE not obsessive" comments. (funny thing is? He still thinks its connected to vampires, and obviously has NO FUCKING CLUE to what depth my obsession really goes)

Been thinking that I miss Rob, but if he were 'around', what would he be doing? He would be getting stalked by paparazzi, looking annoyed, looking adorable, looking fucking perfect.

I digress.

Been thinking that I love listening to Rob's music with my headphones. It's like he's fucking playing just for me. And I can hear his guitar so clearly...and it fucking MOVES me.

Been thinking that Dakota Fanning is a pretty good choice to play Jane in NM. She definitely can give off that creepy vibe.

Been thinking that Robert Pattinson is fucking gorgeous.

Been thinking that I need to stop letting my sons push my buttons when it comes to Rob/Twilight. They know some of my obsession (why? Cuz they are nosey little shits) so whenever they get the chance to irritate me...they do. Nice boys I've raised. I'm so proud.

Been thinking that I know that I don't understand the why of the way I feel about Rob...but I've decided not to fight it anymore (and believe me, I've tried). Part of the anxiety I've felt is trying to squash down my feelings...and who needs more anxiety?

Been thinking that some people try too hard. It's OK to just sit back and observe (and aren't people fascinating?), you don't always have to shout so loud to be heard.

Been thinking that Robsessed has some talented bullshit writers. They are fucking coming out of the woodwork, and I am LOVING it!

Been thinking that I have no fucking idea how many times I have seen "Twilight". Seriously. I watch it A LOT. A FUCKING LOT. I just wish I knew how deep my obsession went...

Been thinking that I miss reading about dark Edward in "Wide Awake". I fucking LOVE that story...and that's no fucking bullshit.

Been thinking that I've probably said a lot, without saying anything. As usual.

Bye for now ♥

Sunday's Quote.

"I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!"

Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.510

Who are the men in white coats? And why are they here?

What is fucking wrong with me? Why does the image of Robert Pattinson sucking on a cigarette fucking make me fall apart? I can't seem to shake this overwhelming urge to fucking TASTE him...to get a hit of the nicotine...off of his mouth.

What. The. Fuck.

I've been rather morose, lately. In fact...fucking surly. I'm not sure I understand the WHY of my feelings...I just know the reality.

The fucking reality.

God, I miss him. So much.

So fucking bittersweet, isn't it? Wanting Rob to find peace. So fucking glad that he is flying under the radar (for the most part) and getting a chance to perform again...a chance to live his life.

But missing his laugh...the way he pulls his hand through his hair...his words....his face.

Ah yes...such is the conundrum of my Robsession.

*sigh*

Bye for now ♥

Saturday's Quote

"That’s Edward. He’s gorgeous, of course, but don’t waste your time. He doesn’t date. Apparently none of the girls here are good-looking enough for him."

Jessica Stanley, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.22

Funny Shit.

I loved this. And it made me laugh. Which is good. I'm all about the laugh.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uvocrkSNXk&eurl=http://twilightersanonymous.com/component/option,com_mojo/Itemid,/lang,en/p,1544/&feature=player_embedded

Quote of the Day

With shaky legs, ignoring the fact that my action was useless, I followed him into the forest. The evidence of his path had disappeared instantly. There were no footprints, the leaves were still again, but I walked forward without thinking. I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him, it was over.

Love, life, meaning… over.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.73

Now I know I'm in trouble.

Yes. Look at that picture. LOOK at it! I felt the need to address this picture...

because it affected me on so many levels (and don't worry, I won't go too deep...that would just scare you...and me)

First. I will admit that I'm not a fan of cigarettes. Or of cigarette smoke. Don't like it at all. Don't like how it clings to my clothes when I'm out in a bar...don't like how it smells. BUT. That being said, what is it about Rob and a cigarette that fucking turns me to mush? Seriously...I feel like a snowman in summer. Wet, slushy, dripping...well, you get the point. One of the things I love about this picture is the quirky, Rob sense of humor. Holding a cig with plastic vampire fangs. And the look on his face. Sigh inducing. For sure.

But back to the cigarette. I fucking love the idea that Rob smokes. I mean, remember those pictures that came out when Rob was in Mexico? He was talking on his cell...smoking that damn cigarette....and looking fucking sexy as hell while doing it. All the pics with Rob and cigarettes have moved me in some way. Does it make him more human? A little bit flawed? I don't know.

I just know Rob smells like cigs...and would probably taste like cigs...

Shit.

I dated a guy who smoked like a chimney. He was incredibly sexy...and the fact that he tasted like an ashtray didn't bother me at all. I'm guessing I wouldn't have a problem with Rob...either.

Anyway. I feel like I need a cigarette now...no...I WANT a cigarette now.

And just in case you were wondering...I referenced cigarettes 12 times in this post.

How's THAT for obsessive?

Bye for now ♥

Thursdays Quote 1/22/09

Bella Swan: You— you stopped the van. You pushed it away with your hand.
Edward Cullen: Well, nobody's gonna believe you, so.
Bella Swan: I wasn't gonna tell anybody. I just need to know the truth.
Edward Cullen: Can't you just thank me and get over it?
Bella Swan: Thank you.
Edward Cullen: You're not gonna let this go, are you?
Bella Swan: No.
Edward Cullen: Well, then I hope you enjoy disappointment.

Delicious.

Obviously red is a color that Rob looks absolutely delicious wearing. Kinda makes me think of him being....ripe and juicy.

Now THAT'S an image.

I wasn't sure I had anything to really say today. But I did want to comment on the 'leaked' pics of Rob that have been surfacing recently. After a barren month of no Rob...all of a sudden a flurry of 'pub' pics have been posted online. Now, I don't pretend to not want to know what Rob has been doing with his time away. A good obsessive fan is always curious. And these pics were relatively harmless...one where hes laughing (always good to see), he's walking in a field (I think), a couple with some chicks in a pub (and yes, I hate those bitches), and of course, a couple of Rob on stage...singing. Harmless, yes? Pretty non-intrusive, considering he was snapped in public places...doing public things. But somehow or other...these pics were leaked onto the Internet...and some people got all huffy and puffy.

HOW DARE YOU POST THESE PICS!!!! Now, I'm not sure who they were angry with. The fact that other people were posting the pics? That they somehow felt that the pics were for their eyes only? That Rob had hired them as his personal protector and savior, and they were just doing their job? I don't get it. The pictures did end up on Perez Hilton's trashy site (and while Perez likes Rob at this time, it doesn't take much for him to start trashing someone) but I still don't see where all the hub-bub is...Bub.

OK, again, I will admit that I feel somewhat protective of Rob. Of course, I just want him to be happy and enjoy his down time before he falls back into the Twilight madness. I do wish people would just leave him the fuck alone. BUT. That being said...once the fucking pictures are out there...what's the point of bitching about them? And getting so fucking bent over nothing.

Believe me..Rob doesn't give a flying fuck about some lame ass (and so not intrusive) pics on some random bullshit websites. Like he's not used to having his picture taken by unknown people, and having his shit posted all over the Internet. Yeah, exactly.

So...my advice to those people who feel that Rob is their personal property...

1. He's not yours.

2. Really, he's not.

3. Take a deep breath.

4. He's still not yours.

5. Just stare at the juicy pic I have on this post.

6. Relax.

7. Guess what? He's not yours.

8. Step back and count to 10.

9. Rob doesn't know who you are...and he's still not yours.

10. Whew. We reached 10. Now start all over again...until you realize that Rob is a public figure whose pictures are going to be taken and plastered all over the Internet, and there isn't anything you can do about it. And he's still NOT yours.

Bye for now ♥

Wednesday's Quote 1/21/09

"All I really saw was Edward’s face; it filled my vision and overwhelmed my mind.

His eyes were a buttery, burning gold; his perfect face was almost severe with the depth of his emotion. And then, as he met my awed gaze, he broke into a breathtaking smile of exultation."

Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn,

Chapter 3, p.48

Trix Fix ♥

This is for Trix.

Because I ♥ her.

She knows why...

And if it wasn't for her...

I probably wouldn't be here.

Look at that face.

Without the hair to distract us...

his face is still one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen.

Bye for now.

Tuesday's Quote 1/20/09

"I could really appreciate him now – could properly see every beautiful line of his perfect face, of his long, flawless body with my strong new eyes, every angle and every plane of him. I could taste his pure, vivid scent on my tongue and feel the unbelievable silkiness of his marble skin under my sensitive fingertips."

Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.482

Been Thinking...

Been thinking that I'm totally bummed out right now.
Been thinking about Rob. (Duh)
Been thinking about how "Twilight" is out of theaters (at least in my neck of the woods).
Been thinking about how I won't be able to see Rob's face blown up to huge proportions on a massive movie screen, for a while.
Been thinking that a picture of Rob that was taken by some chick in a London pub made me more depressed than happy. Mostly because Rob's face in the picture looked pretty much like his face in the picture to the left. Fucking annoyed.
Been thinking that even though I miss him like hell (and OK, let's get serious, miss hell? What's that supposed to mean?), I am glad that he is still in London, far from the screaming banshees and American paparazzi.
Been thinking that when I get totally lost in my obsession, that watching "Twilight" usually helps me.
Been thinking that I haven't been on the blog, or on FB much, so that I didn't have much chance to talk to my twin sisters. And I just want you to know that I've missed you SO much. I heart you. Big Time.
Been thinking that I'm in love with a 22 year old British actor/musician. And I don't fucking care.
Been thinking that I love Edward/Bella fanfic, and that it really helps me satisfy my NEED for all things Rob/Edward.
Been thinking that Jules is a fucking fantastic writer, who literally sucks me into her story so deeply, that I forget where the hell I am. She's brilliant.
Been thinking that the Wide Awake author (another fucking brilliant writer) has had to actually use a chapter in her story, to tell off the lunatic fringe that wants to tell her how to write, when she should write and then criticizes her for not writing fast enough. Fucking Hell.
Been thinking that the more people you know, the more people you fucking want to kill.
Been thinking that this post is going down into a fucking spiral, and I should probably get out while I can.
Been thinking "FUCKING BULLSHIT".
Been thinking bye for now.

Mondays Quote 1/19/09

"I had no right to want you — but I reached out and took you anyway. And now look what’s become of you! Trying to seduce a vampire."

Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.454

Sundays Quote

"Sex was the key all along? Why didn’t I think of that? I could have saved myself a lot of arguments."

Edward Cullen, Breaking Dawn

Chapter 6, p.111

Symptoms of Withdrawal.

Withdrawal symptoms:

Agitation ~ Has anyone posted new pictures? Why aren't there any new pictures?
Anxiety ~ I'm looking for you...everywhere. Why can't I find you?
Panic attacks ~ WHERE ARE YOU????
Confusion ~ Why have you left me? Where did you go?
Depression ~ If I don't see you soon, I'm gonna go see HSM2.
Euphoria ~ Perez Hilton posted about you!!!!
Fear ~ Will I ever see you again?
Hallucinations ~ I think I just saw you lurking around my house....
Headache ~ I'm clenching my jaw (oh God, his jaw!)
Hypertension ~ My blood pressure rises with just a thought of you
Insomnia ~ If I could dream, I would dream of you...
Irritability ~ This is just too much FUCKING BULLSHIT!
Nausea ~ I don't feel well...my stomach hurts...
Palpitations ~ My heart is racing...or is it breaking??
Psychosis ~ Rob loves me...he wants to marry me!!!
Restlessness ~ I keep checking "Robsessed" every 5 minutes
Weakness ~ I miss you, Rob....I'm on my knees....

Saturdays Quote

"You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy."

Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.510

Groundhog Rob

Dear Rob,

I'm glad that you have had some time away to recoup and rest. Lord knows you deserved it after putting up with all the screaming and the grabbing and the yelling and the interviews and stalking and the paparazzi...
But seriously now...ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
Look, I'm not asking for fucking much here. Just a peek. A little token of your affection.
I FUCKING MISS YOU.
Even though I can always see your beautiful face anytime I want...it's not the same. I'm worried about you.
I need to know you're OK. I need to see for myself.
And oh yeah, I wanna see what you hair looks like a month later.
So come on ...throw me a bone here (did I just say bone??).
You don't have to stay out for long...just one little picture...
Just pop out of your hiding place long enough to see if you can see your shadow or not....
I hope you don't...
But I'm guessing there will be at least 6 more weeks of a Rob-less winter.

Yours whenever you want me,

Rose

Fridays Quote

"I was a vampire, and she had the sweetest blood I’d smelled in eighty years."

Edward Cullen, Midnight Sun, Chapter 1, p.12

What comes first...the Edward or the Rob?

This has got to be one of the dreamiest fucking pictures of Rob that I have ever seen. And I have my sweet, dear twin sister, Trixie to thank for it. THANKS!

OK. I was having this discussion...about Edward...and Rob.

I know that my obsession starts with Edward. I loved Edward before I loved Rob. And now I am beyond obsessed...addicted...totally, completely devoted to Rob.

So the question is...if another actor was cast as Edward in Twilight...would I have become as obsessed...addicted...devoted to this actor as well? It is something to ponder.

Yes, I knew who Robert Pattinson was before he was cast in Twilight. He was the beautiful boy who made Daniel Radcliffe look short and ordinary....but he was beautiful. He had the same face...the same hair...everything...yet...nothing quite clicked with him.

Fast forward a few years. Rob is cast as Edward. I will admit to seeing a few pictures of him on the internet...and thinking to myself..."I'm not too sure about this guy" (can you fucking imagine that bullshit???). It wasn't until the 'dark' Edward promo pics came out...and then the teaser trailers...that I became totally convinced he was my Edward. I can't picture anyone else as Edward. Robert Pattinson IS Edward Cullen. But that goes back to the original question. Some other virtually unknown actor takes the role of Edward. Does he automatically become my Edward? Do I just start fantasizing about this guy...dreaming about him...joining another form of Robsessed? Would any actor who had been cast as Edward become my obsession? Or is it only the rare combination of Edward/Robert that does it to me?

Thursday's Quote.

"She is mine. I didn't say I would fight fair."

Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.341

Pssssst. How cute is he in this picture????

*sigh*

Wednesday's Quote.

"I’ll be back so soon you won’t have time to miss me. Look after my heart — I’ve left it with you."

Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.95

Interviews.

Yes. I know. Every damn picture just reeks of unicorns!

I spent a lot of time 'watching' Rob yesterday. He's been out of sight, but most definitely NOT out of mind. So, I decided to watch "Twilight" for the zillionth and one time....and to rewatch some of the TV interviews that Rob gave, that I happened to save on my DVR.

The first one I watched was The Tonight Show/Jay Leno clip. It's my favorite interview with Rob. Now, I'm not sure if its because of what is said, how he looks (OK, its always about how he looks, so don't even go there), or the fact that it is in HD...and you can REALLY REALLY see him. *sigh*

First off, Rob is so damn sweet. You can tell how shy he is just by the way he kinda nods at Heidi Klum. He doesn't do the fake Hollywood "kiss kiss". Cute. But all through the interview, he keeps looking at Heidi...kinda getting her reaction...but he tells his charming 'joke car' story...they talk about his hair "right out of the box"...and of course, he talks about not having any sense of hygiene or style. Can the man get any more attractive? He pulls his fingers through that messy mop of hair...he laughs...they do a good number of incredible close-ups of his face. *swoon*. Yes, this is my favorite episode.

Another interview I saved was the one from "Ellen". I love Ellen. Rob still looked a bit uncomfortable (and truly, I don't think he will ever be all that happy with doing this kinda thing), but Ellen managed to get him to talk about relationships (his sense of humor? Wonderful), his hair (of course), his 'joke' car (again) and then got all into the scraper and windscreen...and GOD he is so charming and adorable. Ellen was good with him.

I also saved the "Tyra" show. Um. I don't like Tyra Banks. It actually pained me to have to watch her stupid show just to see Rob (and Taylor). Tyra is all about Tyra. LOOK AT ME. LOOK AT ME. IT'S ALL ABOUT ME. She might as well just scream that all the time.

Anyway. Rob and Taylor come out...and I must admit...Rob looks a bit more disheveled than he normally does. And he seems to be slurring his words, and looks a bit...out of it. Now, I'm not sure if he is just over tired from doing all the press...or he is fucking drunk(or stoned?). Maybe its a combination of the two. I don't blame the guy for having to get a bit numb to put up with Tyra and her "Bite me, Robert" in her lame, scratch that, INSANELY LAME fake British accent. What was awesome about it, was that Rob laughed at her and called her out on it...Hahahaha.

But, yes, she asks Rob to bite her...and of course, Rob being the nice guy that he is....he does. And then its all about Tyra again..."Did he leave a mark?" blah blah blah. She also gives Taylor and Rob some lame g-strings with their names on it. Taylor is clearly embarrassed (he is only 16, after all) and Rob says (hahahahaha) "I think mine has a stain on it"! hahahahahaha. Oh man, I LOVE THAT GUY!

I also have an interview from Fuse, "Number One Countdown". It's with Rob, Kristen and Taylor, this time. It's pretty good, they talk about music...and it's always more interesting to see Rob and Kristen together....they do good together. I like it.

One more note. I'm starting to like Taylor Lautner more...He's still so very young...but I have to admire the fact that he worked his ass off to gain weight and muscle...to get the part in New Moon. Good for him. And to be honest? He looks pretty amazing. I'm not a muscle bound kinda gal...I like my guys long and lean (SURPRISE!), but Taylor had some pretty big guns...and his stomach was much more than a 6pack. Seriously. It was truly a 12pack. WOW. I can almost see Bella falling for him now...I can almost see why she would. Before I had a hard time seeing how Jacob could possibly compete with Edward. He was such a kid in Twilight. But I'm impressed. I think he will do OK. I'm so looking forward to it!

OK. Again. I let myself fucking ramble on and on. Bullshit Lunatic. We all know I need serious help...

Bye for now:)

Tuesday's Quote.

For almost ninety years I’ve walked among my kind, and yours… all the time thinking I was complete in myself, not realizing what I was seeking. And not finding anything, because you weren’t alive yet.

Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.304

Edward Quote. Once a day...Everyday.

My Edward quote for

Monday, January 12, 2009.

"My heart is just as silent. And it, too, is yours."

~Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.439

Random Thoughts. OK, most of them are about Rob...but humor me.

I did a lot of thinking today...about a lot of things. One of my major faults (at least in my opinion) is my tendancy to overthink everything. Until the point of exhaustion.

Anyway...here are some thoughts.

1. Look to your left. Holy Mother of God. Sex anyone?

2. I was out running errands (meaning...doing shit that had nothing to do with Rob/Edward)...and I noticed that my 'fucking' mouth is indeed worse when I am driving. I mean...way worse. I'm not a patient person, let's just get that shit out of the way right now...but put me behind a wheel of a car? I am a bitch on wheels. It just seems to me that I am surrounded by assholes on the road. Assholes who pull out in front of you. Assholes that talk on their cells (or worse, text ) while trying to navigate traffic, and failing miserably because they fucking can't concentrate on both things at the same time. Assholes who drive 10 miles below the speed limit. I could go on...but lets just suffice to say...the world is full of assholes.

3. Rob. Let's face it. I think about him A LOT. More than I should by any means...but for some reason, overthinking about Rob...doesn't seem to bother me as much. Go figure.

4. Fanfic. HUGE fan. I'm always reading something. And its a good thing that with all the Twilight madness...there are endless stories out there to choose from. In previous posts, I waxed poetic (what the fuck does that mean?) about "Wide Awake"...and for good reason. Love that fucking bullshit story. But I've found myself drawn to other stories with their versions of dark Edward. Because let's fucking face facts, folks (that's a lot of F's) Edward is who I want to read about. Yes, Bella too...but I prefer reading stories from Edwards POV. I just love it. That's why I'm such a HUGE fan of "Midnight Sun"... Edward is who/what I find fascinating. He doesn't even have to be a vampire. Human dark Edward is fucking sexy as hell. I find it very interesting that as long as the names Edward Cullen and Bella Swan are in a story...I will probably read it.

Fanfic is probably what saved me from reading my Twilight series to dust. Just endlessly reading the books...back to back...trying to get my fix of Edward. At least now, I can let the books have a breather...and I can still get my fix. Gimme a P? Gimme an A?

5. Rob. I love that man. His face, his voice...even his smell. Ok, I have never had the pleasure of smelling him, but I find lines from that movie coming into my head all the damn time. It's kinda embarrassing. Especially when I post shit on Facebook, and I get friends who ask me "What is Twilight?". Sorry. You fucking can't be my friend ANY MORE. Sheesh. Can you imagine a life without Rob? Without Twilight? Without Edward??? Without ROBSESSED???? Hell No!!!

Gimme a T? Gimme a H?

D. I actually got shit done today. I mean...not just running errands and doing the dishes and the laundry...I mean like...taking a shower and getting dressed! HooRay for ME! I actually pushed away from the computer for a couple of hours.

Gimme an E? Gimme a T-I-C????

9. What's that spell? P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C!!!!! That's ME!!!!!

42. I want to give a special shout out to my 2 Twin sisters. I adore you both. You know who you are (and so does anyone who can see who my 'followers' are..hahaha)

Enough thoughts. I feel dizzy from thinking too much.

Bye for Now :)

March 21st.

*Sigh* I love this man.

I decided to add an Edward quote to each post. This one kinda sounds like me at the moment.

"I wish you could feel the… complexity… the confusion… I feel. That you could understand."

Edward~ Twilight Chapter 13, p.277

Well, I guess it's official. The "Twilight" DVD comes out on March 21st. Pretty quick turnaround for a movie that is still in theaters. Not that I'm complaining. Hell no. I guess a part of me just wants the damn DVD right NOW.

Of course I have already preordered it. Duh.

I am anticipating the DVD almost as much (maybe more?) than I did the release of the movie. I guess actually owning the movie...and being able to watch it (and not all dark and shitty, like the versions I've been watching on the computer...but does that stop me? No.) whenever I want...makes my stomach flip. Rob makes my stomach flip. Sweet Jesus. ANYWAY...I digress. I am looking forward to the outtakes...and extra scenes...and to hearing Rob's commentary on the movie. SEX ON FIRE. You know, I think I had better stop typing for the moment. I'm getting all anxious...and worked up...the way Rob always seems to make me feel (and I'm still trying to understand the hold he has over me). How the hell can I feel like this over someone I have never met? What the fuck? Ugh. Another post for another time.

Bye for now.

I have nothing to say...I just wanted to post this picture.

Um. This picture has it all...

Jawline.

Sunglasses.

Beanie.

Lips.

Nose.

Sideburns.

Scruff.

Jawline.

Sunglasses.

Wait...I'm repeating myself.

Fucking A.

I love this man.

I love him.

I can't deny it.

Just fucking LOOK AT HIM.

Sweet Lord.

What was I talking about? Oh yeah.

Mmmmm....dark Edward.

This is just to say that Taylor Lautner has been signed (let me sign!) to reprise his role as Jacob Black in "New Moon". I'm not sure how I feel about this. On one hand, I thought that Taylor was PERFECT for Jacob in "Twilight". He was everything I pictured Jacob being (not that I really noticed the character that much...I am deeply in love with Edward, after all), cute, friendly and sweet. In NM...I'm not so sure.

First off...I don't like Taylor with the long hair. He looks SO much cuter with his hair short....but I realize that is a character thing. Can he man up enough to compete with Edward? Jacob didn't really compute with me as anything Edward would have to worry about...until "Eclipse" (my favorite book)...it wasn't until that book that I realized that Jacob could be kinda hot and sexy....Can 17 year old Taylor pull that off? I don't know. I read that they recently did some more screen tests to see if he and Kristen had any chemistry...I suppose that is the important part, isn't it? It's not whether I can see Taylor/Jacob as a possibility...its whether Kristen can act like she really has to decide between Jacob and Edward. OK, obviously in the real world...NO FUCKING CONTEST. But, alas, this isn't the real world, is it? Not even close.

I am happy for Taylor. He realizes how important this role is to his career...and he went after it...gaining weight and working out to show Summit he could handle the part. I hope this is true.

As happy as I am that Summit wants to release "New Moon" at the end of this year (WOW), I don't want a rushed, shitty movie. Do it right, Summit. You fuckers.

Did I tell you how much I love the DARK EDWARD pictures of Rob? I need to go read Wide Awake again. And again. LOVE THAT FUCKING STORY.

That's all for now.

Toodles.

Rose's Top 10 (or something) Favorite Twilight Moments.

OK. I'm starting to think that I keep using the same Rob pictures over and over again. Because being the fucked up lunatic that I am, I can't keep track of what I have and haven't used recently.

Who the fuck cares, right? Right.

On to the Top 10 list of the Best Twilight Moments (and may I just inject here that of course this is just my humble but well versed opinion. I have watched the bullshit movie a couple of dozen times at least). I'm going to try and start from least favorite moment (does that even exist?) to my favorite. Well...shit. My favorite moment is anytime Rob is on the screen. Seriously, can you take your fucking eyes off of him? Exactly.

Ready? OK!

17. (Did I say I was going to start at 10? Sucker!)

17A. When Edward starts talking to Bella in Biology. Not a huge moment...but its close ups of Rob...and he does have a fucking fantastic smile. That's all it takes.

16. 2nd time Bella is in the hospital. I mean...again...CLOSE UP OF ROB'S BEAUTIFUL FACE. When he tells her she should go to Jacksonville, the pain on his face... I will try to get past the hoses all up in Bella's eyes...but that's another list.

15. The much overplayed scene of Edward saving Bella from getting squished by the van. This scene has lost its impact due to endless clips being shown everywhere...but you cannot let the look that Bella and Edward give to each other...be forgotten. Ah, to be that close to Rob...*sigh*

14. Vampire baseball game. Just because its one of the few times you actually get to see all of the Cullens. And they get to talk. And do stuff. And honestly, when Edward is 'protecting' Bella at the end of the scene...I pretty much fucking melt. The intensity in his eyes. LOVE IT.

13. Saving Bella in the Ballet Studio. This makes the list mostly because of the sweet, sexy tones of Robert Pattinson singing "Let Me Sign" in the background. Oh, and the way he sucks the venom out of her arm...it makes me shiver!

12. Salad Bar. Another overplayed scene...but worthy of mention just because I think Edward is being dazzling (not hard to do), and Rob has the cutest smile....and the way he says "which beach?". His 'American' accent is fucking to die for.

11. Bella's first time in the hospital (after the van almost squished her). The close ups of Rob's face, again. It will sway me everytime. Also, because Rob said this was one of his favorite scenes. He's trying to be kinda mean to Bella...it's not working.

10. THE TOP TEN!!!

10A. The Field Trip. Bella is thinking about the van...Mike Newton comes into her view. But he blurs out and you just see Edward...standing behind him...making an incredible face. LOVE IT.

Excellent how she can't see or hear anything...just Edward. Also want to add...that when Edward gets pissed off at Bella for thinking he regrets saving her...his fucking jawline when he gets on his bus. Hello? Where the HELL did he get that fucking jawline???

9. Woods/Meadow/Reveal Scene. You would think this would be higher up on my list. The book version would be. Although I loved seeing Rob yelling and racing around...and spouting the 'lion/lamb' line...it was a bit anti-climatic for me...which again, is for another list. You do have wonderful close ups of Rob...and he does 'sparkle' (OK, that's not a good thing, really). But the heroin scene...his leaning out of the tree...his fucking face is fabulous! Makes it all worth it.

8. Garage scene. This is getting tough, now...getting to my most favorite scenes... Anyway. Rob's look of complete angst...his staring contest with Rosalie...and of course...his leaning into the car...touching Bella's face...and saying "You ARE my life now" is all meltworthy. Does he say "Olive Juice" here? You decide.

7. "Since I'm going to Hell" scene. Robert in sunglasses? Does it get any fucking better? The smirks, the arm around Kristen....but the sunglasses. That does it for me.

6. Edward/Bella discussion scene. You know, after she knows what he is...she asks him all kinds of questions...well...he talks about drinking human blood...in the motherfucking rain. THE RAIN. Rob...wet...dripping...licking his lips...Sweet Jesus. I need a towel.

5. Port Angeles. So many things here. The 'look' he gives those evildoers. The way the Volvo spins the fuck around. Robs face (again with his face, seeing a trend here, folks?) in the restaurant. "Never Think" in the background. "I feel very protective of you" and "I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore". Then fucking DON'T!!!!

4. Prom scene. Seeing Rob in a suit. YUMMY!!! But one of his last lines..."Is it not enough just to live a long and happy life with me?" again...I'm a puddle of goo. And he kisses her. Again. *sigh*

3. First Kissing Scene. Rob's voice. His face (ha!)...the way he leans in to kiss her...and when he finally does? He fucking smiles....the breathing...the kissing sounds. Rob seems to kiss very loudly, doesn't he? All of his kisses, be it on the lips or the forehead, or the neck...are loud. Interesting. I also love his face after he is thrown back against the wall...so damn dreamy. It would be wrong of me to also not mention when Edward is just lying next to Bella...watching her sleep.

Excellent.

2. Edward takes Bella home. Where do I start? You get to meet the Cullens. All of them. And they are all perfect for their parts. Especially fond of Alice, Carlisle and Jasper. Edward takes Bella to his room. Did I mentions Rob's face? Edward slowly touches Bella...he makes it look hard to do. He smiles his crooked smile...he flies out the door with her...he calls her a spidermonkey.

Cut to Robert Pattinson playing the piano. The first time I saw this scene...I fucking cried...like a spidermonkey. OK, not like a spidermonkey, cuz...I have no idea how they cry...or if they cry. But it brought tears to my eyes. Seriously. Something very potent about Rob and his music.

1. Drum Roll Please!

Cafeteria scene where you first see Edward. When Edward opens the door and walks in the cafeteria...OH MY FUCKING GOD. The music...everything is perfect. And the way Rob smiles when Jessica talks about no one being good enough for him. WOW WOW WOW. This scene had the most impact on me when I first saw the movie. Catherine Hardwicke did a fantastic job with introducing Edward to the world. I shall never forget it.

And there you have it. My top 17 Twilight moments. Stay tuned for my Ten Twilight Flaws....coming soon to a theater near you.