Can I Live Without Robert Pattinson?

Edward looked just as beautiful as he did in real life,

staring at me out of the picture with the warm eyes

I’d missed for the past few days.

It was almost uncanny that anyone could look so…

so… beyond description.

No thousand words could equal this picture.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.65

A summer holiday weekend.

Which means going up to the lake...

hanging out with family and friends.

Relaxing.

No computer access.

No cell phone...

Virtually no Rob.

I keep telling myself

and anyone who will listen...

How damn happy I am

to get away from the

OBSESSION

Because it's good

to dwell on other things.

Talk to other people...

about other stuff.

Am I telling the truth?

I'm not sure.

I feel like I NEED

to get away from this.

Stop thinking about Robert

Stop wondering what he is doing...

and what new pics/videos

are being posted.

I WANT

to step back...

calm down...

take a deep breath.

Rob is a part of my life now.

And as silly as that sounds...

as weird as that is for me to even type...

It's the simple truth.

There is no denying

that Robert Pattinson

means a lot to me.

So...

I will go along with the plan.

And I will laugh

and relax...

I will watch the fireworks

over the lake.

I will sit out on the deck...

watching the sunset.

And try not

to think about

Robert Pattinson.

I know.

I even have a smirk

on my face as I write this.

As fucking if.

So I have 3 wishes.

1. That I can shut down a part of my brain...

if only for a short while...

and try to remember what my life was like

before Rob came into it.

2. That I can laugh... love...

and appreciate all that I have.

All the people in my life.

And be happy NOW.

And live in the moment.

3. That everyone I love...

and everyone I care for...

Has a safe and happy

4th of July.

Bye for now ♥