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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

You've Got To Hide Your Love Away...


Everywhere people stare
Each and every day
I can see them laugh at me
And I hear them say
Hey you've got to hide your love away
Hey you've got to hide your love away
How can I even try
I can never win
Hearing them, seeing them
In the state I'm in...

Here I am... Head in hand...
Turn my face to the wall.

OK, not really...
But I fucking LOVE the Beatles.
They saved my life more than once.
And by that I mean...
They truly saved my life.

Anyway.

Look at this damn picture.
Bella and Edward.
Rob and Kristen.

Gah.

In every picture released from New Moon...
Edward looks so desperate...
so fiercely haunted and sad.
God, I love him.

It's September already.
On one hand...
WHERE THE HELL DID SUMMER GO?
On the other?
NEW MOON IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER!

Why must everything in my life
be a double edged sword?
I'm firmly wedged between
a rock and a hard place.
And if I could think of any more
lame cliches to add here...
believe me I would.

I'm feeling all sorts of lame today.

I love Robert Pattinson.
I'm not sure exactly what kind of love that is...
There are so many different types of love.
The one you have for you spouse/partner/significant other
The one you have for your children.
For family...
and friends.

And then theres the one you have
for a 23 year old British actor...
Who fucking blows you away
every time you see his face.
Hear his voice...
and watch his wonky ass walk down the street.

Shit.
I'm all kinds of overwhelmed.
And the scary thing is...
I have no idea what has brought this on.
It usually happens right after
a new batch of Rob pictures are released.
Now I think its just because I miss him so damn much.

Shit.

I think maybe I'm just getting anxious
about New Moon.
September seems to make it so much closer than August.
(isn't is silly the things we cling to?)
But my heart is already aching for this movie.

Edward leaving Bella.
It still is like a punch in the gut...
I can only imagine the impact
when I see it happen right in front of me.

I still get all emotional everytime
I see any part of the bits and pieces
that they have already released.
Like... I tear up and my stomach flips.
THAT emotional.
Over a movie clip.
2 fucking minutes.
And I lose it.

Can you imagine...
How the hell watching the whole movie
is going to twist my heart?

Will I survive it?

Will I survive long enough
until November 20th?

Back to the rock.
And the hard place.

Bye for now

7 comments:

rpfangirldc said...

We can just all suffer through together. I totally understand every single word in this post! (And funny how you call his ass wonky LOL)

I'm feeling you! 79 days left and counting!

justchristy said...

"And then theres the one you have
for a 23 year old British actor...
Who fucking blows you away
every time you see his face.
Hear his voice...
and watch his wonky ass walk down the street."

Srsly. You hit the nail right on the head, there. What does this man DO TO US? Not that I'm complaining, of course. ;)

May said...

Bb,we all feel it. At least, we know things are good in their little bubble. ;) *hugs*

Lula! said...

I love that picture. And I love Edward. But what you wrote about Rob is how I feel about Jason Statham & Alexander Skarsgard. (Even though their asses are not wonky, but FINE as hell.) Yes, I dig Rob. I do. Really.

And The Beatles are my lifeblood. Have you seen the latest Rolling Stone? Amazing article about them. It's like a time warp to see them on the cover...

spellbound said...

Totally feeling your post today! The picture...I don't know about anyone else but for me just thinking that Rob & Kristen are really together makes those scenes so much more powerful to me (& hot!) lol...JMO...Beatles are the greatest, lit'rally...John was my only other celebrity crush, other than Rob. Of course this was 15 years after he died, unfortunately. What an amazing soul. Just rambling here, but wouldn't it be amazing to see Rob portray John Lennon?? That I would pay serious money to see.

Anonymous said...

I think that's part of the insane appeal of Edward. For him, there is no other...and he can't have her (at least he thinks so in New Moon). Love them both.

auntapey said...

"And then theres the one you have
for a 23 year old British actor...
Who fucking blows you away
every time you see his face.
Hear his voice...
and watch his wonky ass walk down the street."

LOVE. THIS.

Seriously, totally lurve this whole post. So spot on.

How does he do this to all of us????