Lots of Random Thoughts.
I really do think too much.
Robert Fucking Pattinson...
You will be the death of me.
Maybe I'm already dead and just don't know it...
And I'm like fucking haunting the internet
having to stare at endless pictures of you walking...
Oh. It never ends.
It's a little bit like heaven on earth.
Not sure which.
Right now it kinda feels hot in here...
and I feel like I'm on fire...
I'm in hell.
Kristen and Dakota in Austin.
Kristen looks badass rock and roll.
And that brings me to my random thoughts.
1. Someone commented on my blog yesterday, telling me
that my blog had changed... that *I* had changed...
and not for the better.
It was thought-provoking.
Is it true?
When I started this blog I would ramble endlessly about
How he made me feel.
How I loved looking at him.
How I didn't understand why I felt the way I did.
I don't do that as much anymore.
Oh, I still love looking at him.
And I still don't understand why he makes me feel
the way that I feel...
But how many different ways can I say the same thing?
And most importantly...
My feelings for Robert seem to have changed.
Although he still makes me weak at the knees...
Still makes my heart ache...
My stomach clench...
I find myself not being as obsessed as I once was.
That is a good thing... yes?
2. One of the main things that has changed since I
started this blog is my adoration of Kristen Stewart.
I was indifferent at first...
but the more I saw...
The more I got to 'know'...
The more I liked.
That seems to rub people the wrong way.
Liking Kristen Stewart.
I'm not sure why that is.
I don't understand why my being a fan of Kristen
(and of Robert/Kristen being together)
should piss anyone off...
It doesn't make any sense.
People take it to a personal level.
They attack you...
Call you names
Become so angry and upset with you
What difference does it make to you
if I believe Robert and Kristen are together?
Instead of over-analyzing my feelings for Robert
I find myself analyzing the intense fury that
surrounds him and Kristen.
The storm of emotions that follow two people
over whether or not they are dating.
Sounds ridiculous, right?
Because it's not only the incredible swirl of consuming feelings
that are brought to a boil at just the mention of "Robsten"
It's the ever present NEED to be RIGHT about it.
It's a lot like discussing Politics or Religion.
People become overheated.
And although I believe there is a place for
There are some who just see it in Black and White.
You either are on their side...
Or you're the enemy.
No ifs, ands or buts.
Can't win for losing...
3. Do I have a tendancy to stick my big ol' paddle
into that big pot of bullshit...
and just stir the hell out of it?
I like to see what floats to the top...
But I don't start the drama.
I don't seek it out.
I don't cause it.
I react to it.
Does that make me a bad person?
I don't think so.
A little crazy... yeah.
A little addicted... sure.
But I'm not mean.
And I don't get personal.
And most importantly?
I really don't give a fuck if you like Kristen.
Or if you believe Rob and Kristen are together.
And you probably do, too...
Or you wouldn't get so damn upset with me
or anyone else who is a believer.
But it's all right now...
In fact, its a gas!
Bye for now.